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scap34Here’s another thing we humans only consider in an external way: an environment. If you think about it, everything thrives in its ideal environment. And we spend much of our lives trying to make our external world, our home, just right. But what about our internal environment? What we uphold inside of ourselves will determine who and what we attract, and affect what is possible for us. So, what do our thoughts, actions, and intentions provide as an environment? What kind of things would thrive there? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had this dream where I was suddenly seeing people and doing their intake evaluations—so that’s a write up you do the first time you meet someone—so, I’ve taken down, I must have seen at least 20 people, maybe more.

And I’ve taken a yellow pad and I’ve made notes in pencil. You know, I met with someone the first time, and then I had stapled those notes together. And I must have seen, like I said, over 20 people. Now I have to find time to actually dictate—those notes are all in pencil—I have to find time to dictate them.

And I’m concerned about finding the time and energy to do that, because I had done all these interviews—you know, these intake interviews—at the Golden Nugget. And it feels like, in order to find—and I’m talking to a co-worker about this—I feel like I have to find the time and the energy to dictate each of these interviews or, you know, intake interviews, or evaluations. And I feel like there aren’t enough casinos, or enough energy in the casinos, like the Golden Nugget, to do that, you know. That seems to be the main thrust of the dream.

John: It’s an interesting take on the theme. In other words, what you’re saying is, is that you have everything as far as the information provided to you, but it isn’t yet integrated. And the only suggestion or advice that you are able to give to yourself, when something isn’t quite integrated, is to find a space or a setting that is conducive for that to come together. Interesting theme, or it’s an interesting approach. 

The masculine is always trying to figure out how to rearrange the chairs on the deck of something. But the feminine is just trying to take what is presented there and find and accept it as it being sufficient. It doesn’t have to be tweaked, or altered, or changed. It just has to be integrated.

And that the problem is not in the information. The problem is in the way one is able to handle it – in an overall setting. And that the environment, or the conditions of an environment, which is always based upon how it is that you carry yourself or hold something inside of yourself, that is what is important. And then all that there is, that has been presented to you, that you have an awareness of, will come together.

There was, you might say, a kind of underlying question going into last night that I felt existed. And the question I kind of had was, with all of the things that one has taken on, and hit, and been confronted with, all the variables that one has been hit with, how is it possible to find a overall balance, and understanding, as a kind of sequential flow from all that?

And it’s like a culmination where you get hit with this state, and that state, and that state, and that state, all of them being like kind of energetic qualities that have their own imprint or blueprint. And, at some point in time, that has to be caught up with, all of it has to be caught up with it.

In other words, to begin with, maybe, it’s a little this way and that way, and this way and that way. And a person can tend to be a little overindulged in this direction or in that direction, but ultimately, it comes together. It synthesizes, as a wholeness, that is intertwined in a balance.

So, your dream was really short, with the suggestion on the second part is that you find the state in which the energy is conducive for that to come together. And it’s interesting you picked the Golden Nugget. In other words, everything is a nugget of data and it’s golden. But then you have to be in the space that causes it to coalesce.

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8362229This discussion is a continuation of the areas opened up in our previous post (see To Do and To Be). Here John describes how we can learn to let go, and how we can use the in-breath and the out-breath as our connection. Otherwise we are always trying to solve things, or fix them, by “doing” things in the outer world. But we should be looking at shifting ourselves first, and then seeing what the world we find requires of us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: There was a woman that had this dream – she’s very elevated in Taoism. She communicates with a teacher in China from time to time. She’s practically blind, and yet she somehow feels her way along.

And she had this dream in which she has a couple of dogs, and a camel, and the dogs and the camel cavort and get along fine. The camel represents her stubbornness, the dogs represent something that’s a friendship that she’s able to relate to, and thus she’s able to shift in the environment that she’s in.

That’s her challenge. Now what kind of shift is she doing? She’s shifting in terms of the overallness. She’s learning to accept the perseverances of how it is and what it is that she has to go through in terms of being totally blind – and in an accepting overall way. Otherwise she would have the commotion, the intensity of the camel that spits and carries on and can be cantankerous. But what we have here is a camel completely enjoying itself being in the presence of her two dogs.

Which means she has to quit brutalizing herself to try to figure out how to cope, when she can have a sense that can know in a capacity in which she can feel herself. So, how is it that she attempts to heal her sight understanding this principle? She has one eye that she can kind of see out of a little bit, and another eye that she can’t see anything out of hardly, barely can see, so she puts a patch on her good eye.

Which means that she’s basically virtually blind in order to invoke a quality of a letting go so that she knows how to move about so that she can sense things in the outer. And oddly enough it also helps improve her vision in the bad eye.

I don’t know whether it’s supposed to work that way or not, but that’s what she does. Now what she did you could say, you know, if she didn’t let go, if she didn’t intertwine naturally, if she was continually trying to fight things and sort it out or something, she would be in the camel vibration of a camel per se that spits and is cantankerous, and uptight, and struggling and a little pissed at the way something is.

And so in her dream she shifted this twice. First she had the camels and the dogs, but then she took it from that environment into the open south, into the wide open south, as opposed to in the restrictions of the mountains, in, you know, the cold.

What she was doing there was indicating that she’s shifting. She is going through this process of shifting inside. Now, she would never be able to make the shift inside if she was constantly trying to figure out the dynamics of how does she cope in the mountains and in the obstacles there before her?

But instead she lets go to the intertwined overallness and learns to hear that and know that. It’s not a hearing per se, it’s a knowing, it’s a natural knowing. And how do you naturally know? You naturally know based upon the fact that you are created out of everything, so you’re intertwined with it all. And what facilitates that knowingness? It’s your breath, it’s your breath.

Let’s say she’s trying to go to a bus stop and she can’t see her way along – but she can sense kind of where the bus needs to be or whatever. She has some sense. How does she have that sense? It’s a quality of her in-breath. She uses a focus with her out-breath, she holds the attention, she breathes in the atmosphere, and she kind of knows where she’s at even in the darkness.

Now she’s not going to know that if the out-breath comes down and then there’s the reaction that, oh my gosh, you know, there’s this, this, this, and this and she’s trying to solve it in an outer capacity way. She’s solving it from an inner awakened quality of her beingness.

So like in your dream, you’re still suffering when you’re trying to deal with this or that or the other of the trash heap. It’s all trash. And you’re part of the trash, yes, but you just let go of it. You know, you don’t try to determine how it’s gauged or stacked or sorted or anything like that. You don’t reject it. You don’t put it in your pocket either.

You are just in it. You are that. It’s not separate from you. That’s the key thing is through our senses we see everything as separate from us. But on an inner level of where the inner is coming in there can’t be that separation because the inner that is coming in is depicting something else. The outer that is a separation is the reflection – that’s the best that we can do to make out of the inner because the inner is too much.

Maybe a better way of looking at it is to say, okay, the soul is huge, it’s humongous, it’s the universe, and we have these outer experiences because the soul is also having to contend with the gravity of the fact of the human body.

Well, you have both don’t you? But the soul, in its universal context, takes into account everything because it is everything. The person that is personal in the physical is constantly looking at the myriad of things around, and can actually get caught in the literal attempt to sort something out, or to figure out how to distinguish themselves in relationship to everything else that’s around them.

But a true letting go on an inner level you, back to the breath, breathe in that wholeness, breathe in that wholeness, or otherwise the seed thought of something coming in gets lost in trying to correlate it in relationship to the outer reflective, and so then you’re trying to scale your way out of the dilemma by a sorting out.

Just think of the significance of outer to inner, or inner into outer, and realize that every time that you find yourself struggling in some capacity, or having to sort something out, or reverbing, or getting exhausted energetically in terms of what and how it is that you’re feeling things around you, just realize that that has to do with the fact that you are trying to make some sort of outer resolution.

And that the inner resolution doesn’t ever have that. The inner resolution puts you into a naturalness with the wholeness. And it’s really, really hard to catch up with what that naturalness is because your mind can only go so far, and your mind will say that this is rational and that’s rational, and this is logic and that’s logical.

That’s why it was so hard for Moses when he was being in the presence of Khidr, and Khidr was going out and doing these absolutely, literally, outrageous things that, from an outer perspective, no good person should ever do. And yet Khidr was looking at, and breathing in, the essence of what was unfolding in a bigger context way and wasn’t in the black-and-white, or the literal of how it is that you take and try to sort something out.

Moses couldn’t stay still as much as Khidr warned him. He says, you know, “You need to abide, you need to not say anything, you need to just let what happens happen. Can you walk with me in that capacity? Can you stay with me in that capacity?” And Moses was stuck because in his slower mannerism of the outer, he needed to make sense out of things.

So you know that’s an interesting dream because that’s a dream that puts you into a state. The way this tends to work with me is, let’s say I have a meditation dream and just like maybe you would hear what we’re talking about and that would set something in motion.

Well, let’s say I have a meditation dream and it sets something in motion. Now my understanding of that dream is apt to go, you know just like too bookish or something, is apt to go off in some capacity or be taken wrong. Fortunately, then, I might have a sleep dream that will then take and go in and make the corrective.

So the dream that you had was you took what was said, you went off and started playing with this too literally. In other words, something about you was engaging it too literally A nd so in your sleep dream you had the means of noticing that, finding out about that, getting the memo of that, by dreaming the trash heap and all of that – and how do you take all that in?

Think of it in terms of what trash is. Trash is a letting go. Does it mean that there’s no trash then? No, it’s still all there but you let go. That was the little missing piece. As one is grasping and coming to understand it then you always have the way that you bifurcated something, and then you get this little missing piece that pulls it together.

It’s like your higher-self talking to you, saying, okay, but that’s not quite so. And then it throws that at you. You know, there’s one way of looking at it that you can beat yourself up over it, and then there’s another way of looking at it and saying wow, that sure is nice that it takes its time to point something out like that.

And just imagine the crazy image that it used: garbage. What is the significance of garbage? Well, you let go of your garbage, but that doesn’t mean it disappears. So, if you have garbage you don’t try to take and sort the garbage out.

But what does everybody do and what is garbage? Well garbage is the sorting out and everything that goes on as you try to function in the outer according to what you consider the best means for coping. As opposed to hearing the inner and then laughing at yourself fumbling about in the outer, it being the peculiar dynamic of where you’re at in relationship to the inner.

Things do kind of get a little better when you understand the inner. Which means that you’re receptive more and more and more to an innerness, and when you’re receptive more and more and more to the innerness your breath automatically corresponds as well. Like if you’re going along and something bothers you, if you were to notice how this correlates to the breath this would have had your breath tightening up. You wouldn’t have just breathed it all in.

And you could’ve just breathed it all in and let go of it and laughed at it. In other words, the vibration came down and then there’s a way that that vibration touched something and opened something up. And to the degree to which it caused we’ll call it like liquid light, liquid light meaning something that you can’t see, it’s not tangible yet somehow or another you can feel it. You know, it’s hard to describe how Shaw portrayed this. He just took and he went, ha-ha-ha, so loud that I had to turn the darn thing down as I was listening to it.

And then he says, “Okay, now stop and feel that inside yourself instead, as the ha-ha-ha” and then okay and then he says, “Now breathe it, now sweep it and breathe it back in, just breathe that vibration that got stirred like that, breathe that back in.” And when you did that then you had a complete breath.

Then you weren’t as inclined to short out. Then you weren’t inclined to be reactive. Then you were more capable of taking and dealing with something that hit as a reflective, that got your attention in a particular way, and that vied for your heart, vied for your nature, vied for the essence of who you are in a limited capacity – and you can feel it as dense – in a denser capacity, and now you are troubling yourself because of the denser capacity as opposed to the other that breathes something in and is just naturally effused in a lightness.

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Listening-to-intuitionWe have been taught from an early age to do things in a linear, step-by-step way. And that is useful for many tasks. Yet when it comes to personal development, or a spiritual journey, a linear approach can be a limitation. Why? Because linear logic puts our focus on our brain, and our brain is much more attuned to what it already knows – like a computer is. Our other faculties, however, such as intuition, can be attuned to the whole of things and can give us a greater connection. In this way we have to use all the faculties we are born with to make a journey. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Ann: We were talking about making sure that we’re not throwing anything out. You know, making sure that we’re looking at everything and not throwing things out, that everything is important.

So I was having a couple of dreams about mounting trash and I felt later when I was looking at it that it was probably a reflection of what we had talked about. You know in a couple of different dreams I had trash piling up and I was kind of trying to sort through and, you know, put things, you know, into perspective and where they belong and then, you know, kind of figuring out, well, let’s see can I do this, and then dumping trash out on the floor and sorting through that.

So the theme of these dreams was kind of I think a reflection of what we had talked about, recognizing that, you know, you can’t really throw anything out, that you really have to take a look at everything.

John: Well, also what it’s doing is your attempt to let go. And so what the dream is kind of portraying is the struggle that’s involved in trying to let go has you still trying to figure out what is this and what is that.

In other words, the idea of letting go means that you just kind of go into an emptiness. When you go into an emptiness you just kind of go into an inner sight that’s there in a stillness, in a quietness. If however, you know, the attempt to do that has you reverberating between things as if you’re sorting something out, that sorting out isn’t necessarily a letting go. That sorting out is still something that is holding your attention from letting go.

An example of how that would be for me sitting down and meditating is if I sat down all of a sudden if I’m continually fidgeting to get comfortable, and I’m itching, and scratching, and all of that – then that’s not letting go. And that’s not getting to the state where something then from a type of non-mental mannerism I won’t have gotten away from that.

And so the reverbing back and forth trying to sort something out and whatnot is… well, it denotes a mental vibration. That’s one thing that it denotes. The other thing that it denotes is on a deeper level it’s trying to figure out where the inner and the outer are. In terms of the blasé of it all, it’s all vying for the heart and something more distinct needs to be there so that you aren’t caught in just the sorting out, and the sorting out, and the sorting out because that can be exhausting.

You know, it’s like a lot of people will meditate, for example, and let’s say they have the idea that they have to sit in a particular rigid posture, and that they have to follow their breath and focus like this, and focus like that. At some particular point that can be very exhausting.

And so the vibration that you’re going through is like kind of just like it’s a precursor before letting go, just like grief is a precursor before letting go. If you don’t have that, and you’re able to be open and receptive and let go, then something more of the inner is at hand, otherwise it’s not noticeable.

So when you’re trying to sort something out, when you’re trying to find your way in relationship to things, you’re still caught under a kind of mental malaise. It’s kind of like saying that there is an understanding of things that gets in the way, and that you have to stop the trying to understand and then you have the automatic knowing.

When you know something within, you know, the average person that may have to think and ponder this stuff will think, boy, you really thought about this. But you didn’t, you felt something vibrationally and back again to the breathing, or you breathed back in the light and within the light is the imbedded information. It’s as if something may have come down, could have touched you in a particular way.

In other words, if you were to look at everything as if everything is like a crop, and the human being is like a crop it produces something. And so the output, I mean this is a very crude way of saying it. So the output coming down touches the essence of the human being inside and they let go and, as they let go, they breathe in. By breathing in, if they breathe in the quality of this we’ll call etheric and they breathe all of that back in, then it is said that it is like taking something back, taking something home.

In other words, if you don’t fully breathe it in, then you get caught in the sorting out, and then you get caught in the dynamic of trying to grasp where you’re at, and then you get caught in a dynamic that’s kind of like outer trying to find the inner.

The fact that everything is intertwined, that means that there is a way, of kind of on an etheric overallness, in which you can feel everything in the outer, everything that’s there.

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