Melting Away

furnace-fireThe idea of cleaning up loose ends in a dream is a potent symbolism for our journey. In John’s dream, the urge to put things away is a good one, but his methodology is suspect. Some aspects of our inner lives aren’t put to rest by dissecting them (chopping them to bits), but rather the best way to handle them is to let them go totally – in a way that prevents their return. The image of burning them in a furnace shows the transformative nature of the process required. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And then in another image, I’m looking to clean up a project that has some loose ends left. To begin with I think that I am to chop up what remains; just going to take an ax and chop it into little pieces and deal with it that way. It doesn’t really quite get rid of it, but it chops it up.

As I stare at what remains I realize it is not something that you can chop up. I actually think I take an ax and I come down on it once and I realize, oh, this is not going to work. This is the wrong tool for the thing, because what I’m seeing is all of these pots, there are a bunch of pots and they’re all different sizes and they’re made out of aluminum. I mean you use an ax to chop wood, but you don’t take an ax and hit metal with it and expect to chop it into pieces; these pots are made out of pure aluminum.

So I’m situated in a place where there are others around. It could be like kind of a catalytic area, or something like a kitchen or something where you deal with things there, so I turn to others who are in the area and say, “Because this is pure aluminum, I think I will take it out of this area and into a much larger area in which there is a furnace and throw these pots back into the furnace and melt them down.”

That’s how you get rid of them. And the very idea is exhilarating to me having come up with the solution that resolves the issue. It is too much strain trying to chop them up and deal with them. Just haul them out there.

So the only thing that’s left up in the air is, I’m very familiar with this furnace area – do I throw them in the furnace myself, or do I go to the furnace man and let him work them into the furnace as he deems necessary? That part I don’t sort out, but I know that that’s how you deal with it.

And the meaning of the dream is that a stigma exists over that which is still affecting me as unfinished business. This tears away at my psyche. So I have to put the effect upon me away or, as shown, melt the aluminum containers by throwing them into a furnace so that everything about their existence goes away.

Can’t chop it up, can’t keep fumbling with it, can’t keep moving and shifting things around. That doesn’t work. The reason is because one has got to clear the slate because something is about to happen – and whatever it is that you’re doing is a slippery slope.

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The Semi in the Room

bncmurewyiPersonal and spiritual development doesn’t require that we resolve everything within us that isn’t “holy.” But it does ask that we come to know ourselves, or face the psychologies we use that don’t support our choice of a spiritual journey. In other words, we need the awareness of what is working within us, and sometimes awareness alone can get us on the path of neutralizing any negative effects. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my dreams I seem to be doing a lot of that same sort of thing in which I first of all am denoting how the overall flow was not received by the outer world and, as a result, I’m scrambling to find or figure out a type of unfoldment that will be acceptable.

In other words, what I have is two images, one in which there’s the great big expanse and overallness of things in which there’s a lot of collective, and people and everything, and that’s really out of whack. And so because that’s so out of whack, it’s like I’m trying to scramble around to something else that might be acceptable.

And so I turn my attention to kind of a personal, now, in other words, an alternative energetic, and I feel that I can bring that into the equation in some fashion. But the appearance and effect of the outer stimuli is so overwhelming, comparatively speaking, that I notice that my demeanor is influenced by that, in terms of what could happen in relationship to what is happening in the collective overall – so it is effecting me.

So I notice that I went with the overall flow a little bit by siding with the image to a certain degree that then carried the contamination of the collective that was overwhelming as it was unfolding. In other words, I took a step back from the collective but it was still in something that is a personal overwhelming that is putting me into a weakened condition.

And as a consequence from this dream you can gain an appreciation to cater that which satisfies your individual focus, first and foremost, that is very hard to do because to what degree is that contaminated. You can’t stay in the collective, but then whatever you formulate in relationship to the collective around you is still trying to satisfy your individual nature. In other words, it has a personal orientation.

So to act according to this individualistic positioning is to embrace that which is being projected by the outer that’s in a state of decline. The consequence of that is rubbing off on you, the collective force is rubbing off on you, and they are to such a degree that the tendency on a personal level is to fumble back to what you hope is a balance, but you’re actually still part of that same general issue.

So there’s a loudness in that personal that’s affected by the collective, but then as the night progresses the image of that which is affected, or personal, in the prior dream that’s having to react to the environment around it, or have a reaction, starts to shrink more and more. Eventually it’s at a size that is hardly visible.

So as this has changed then the issue then also becomes addressed in a dream in which I am in a work area and am dealing with that which has been abandoned by me, that needs to be put away.

Now at first I don’t notice this, all I notice is I’m in a work area and I felt I’ve done what I needed to do, and in this huge large yard work area is all kinds of things that are kind of lined up and placed there. And I went at it little by little taking care of things, but there was one thing that I left feeling I didn’t have to take care of – and I even blanked it out of my mind.

And this one thing is a large, unloaded semi-truck that sits in the lineup yet with these other objects. It’s gotten to the point I can’t get to it anymore and I have adopted the perspective that this which remains is somebody else’s responsibility. In other words, I no longer even see it as something that I have to contend with. And a work area has been filled up with, because I dealt with my stuff, the work area is now filled up with other objects and my attention of course is moved from that.

Suddenly I see a crane which lifts this semi from where it is parked amidst these other items and is airlifting and swinging this over to where I am at so that I finish the work.

So what is happening is, the difference in the dreaming, the aspect that’s being brought in, is that what you’re putting your attention upon is secondary to that which is real inside that is trying to come through.

And in my dream, because one is always having to sort out thoughts and ideas, I have conveniently let go of, or released, or taken my focus away from a certain attentiveness of thought of the process of action to the point where I’m actually convinced that it’s no longer at hand, and yet it is still something that, at a deeper depth inside, has to be contended or dealt with, that fits with what my nature is really all about – and I can’t get away from it.

In my particular case, because I’m off the ground with thoughts and nature and whatnot, I’m trying to just let it go, and I can’t just let it go because it has to be grounded or brought down into a magnetic focus.

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No Place to Turn

Chaos-PatternsThis is Jeane’s third dream of the evening (see A Magnetic Aliveness and An Apple a Day). And when we look at the way the energy is flowing, we can see that, instead of going from chaos to order, her dreams are heading in the direction of hopefulness to greater disorder. It shows how our dreams are trying to make connections for us, but we don’t always accept them – and that’s when things go from good to worse. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in this next dream, initially I’m with someone that is my mother in the dream, although she doesn’t look like anyone I know. And she seems kind of young actually, is blonde, and we’ve gone into a department store where she’s obviously known, kind of a high-end store, and she’s gotten something plus a little something for me from the cosmetics department.

And then as I go up to the counter she’s already buzzed out the door. Well, when I get over to the counter there’s a little confusion about whether some of the things in this little bag belong to the other lady there at the counter, or they belong to my mother’s purchase. And we can’t quite sort it out because she’s already on her way out the door.

So I just pick up the purchase and follow her out. She seems to be known to the people at the store and it’s a large store. And we go out and we go to the house which is my parent’s house and it’s in Wyoming in the dream, although the area looks more like Jackson Hole.

And as I go into this large house she’s already gone somewhere upstairs to do something, and I go over to a room that’s a very large room where there’s a shower in the middle of the room, and at kind of the end of the shower is almost out into a shallow almost like marble pan that comes out a ways. And there are two little fountains near the bottom of the shower, and then there’s the shower head up near the top.

And my mother already leaves for somewhere. I feel like my father’s going to come home before long. I feel like I need to take a shower and I go over. I’ve set the little bag that had her purchases on it near the end of the shower. It looked like six feet of shower pan past the shower or more, and like I said it is kind of open and right in the middle of this room.

I go over and I’m wondering about taking a shower and I notice when I turn on the little taps that are right near the bottom of the shower there’s actually what looks like some oil that comes out and then some water that starts to run clear. And the water at the top of the shower that’s coming down is clear, so I feel like I need to take advantage of having the clear water up front because I’m not sure what is happening with the water. So rather than dither about making decisions, I just have to wash my hair and take a shower.

I’m doing that and then as I get out and walk away from the shower and I go to the end and I’m realizing that there might still be enough shampoo left, or some new shampoo, in things left in what my mother bought at the store, but I’m not sure how to sort it all out.

Meanwhile, another woman that I knew from high school, who is gay, has wandered in and she seems to need a shower, too. And I just indicate where the shower is. I really don’t know where anything else is. I’m not relating to her a lot because I had seen my father in the dream, who looks a lot like Charlie Sheen or someone, go across the far room and I feel like I need to catch up with him to ask a question.

What was odd about that dream, when I was in the department store all I had on was a shirt. It didn’t even close in the front, either. It was just like that’s all I had on, and I just had to kind of brazen it out because that’s all I had. Also it felt like Dick Cheney was lurking somewhere in the background when I was at the house, I mean outside, not inside the house. So it was just kind of a confusing dream.

John: It’s a dream in which all of your usual faculties aren’t working for you in a way that you think that they should be working, that everything is far different than you’re inclined to have expected or anticipated.

And when something is that Twilight Zone peculiar, it means that something else that’s not in the scenario is meant to emerge – but hasn’t emerged yet. So, as a consequence, everything that you find yourself trying to probe out, or relate to, or identify with as an expected or anticipated result or flow, only leaves you even further spaced out, or estranged, because you can’t take and lay it out. You can’t bring the component pieces, together anymore.

There is something out of twang with how things are, in terms of the setting, and you’re still kind of groping about, but you’re realizing you’re not able to find what the connection needs to be. And you have to look at this in relationship to the first dream, which doesn’t have this bewilderment to it, in which you have a type of sense that something is at work on some deeper depth trying to come through – even though your ideas of what that might be are off, or just reflective of something more yet to be.

Because when you get to the third dream, it’s like there’s no place that you can turn, or you can look, in terms of usual understanding and mannerism without there being something that isn’t misplaced, or lost, or doesn’t have its usual hold or connectivity – because it’s not meant to be that way, which means that everything is all flip flop.

And in the second dream you’re indicating that what is needed is something that brings back the state of health because, even though you have the basis of your beingness in terms of where you’re at, you can’t do anything, something is frozen over, and you have to come back to the state of health.

The flow of your dreaming is a flow that is going from what has more hope, to what has the feeling of a greater disorientation. And to generate a flow that is like that means that you have to be spinning in terms of trying to get it together. Your first image had hope in it. Your second image had an element of something that came over and revealed that what was missing was the state of health when the apples spilled all over, or otherwise something remained on a slippery slope and failed to quite be as hospitable as it needed to be.

But then in your third dream, no matter what you did, wherever you looked, however it was, there was a disconnect. So you can look at it as a breaking down, but dreams tend to actually flow in terms of a waking up. And so the challenge of that dream is: are you able to be in this state that is no longer able to find its bearings, or its balance, in which everything is against that state?

Are you able to be okay with that? Because deep down, like from your first dream, you know that there is something else at hand that’s meant to come through, that you embody at some depth inside of yourself. And that in the middle zone of all of this, however it is that you’re attempting to be helpful tends to keep things slipping and sliding and whatnot, and that the attention towards that which is healthy – the spilled apples – leads to a type of greater meaningfulness.

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