A Dialogue with the Soul

blog26-Nov.11-Internal_dialogue1Here is another good example showing how our dreams often are trying to guide us, trying to show us where we are struggling. In Jeane’s dream, she even splits in two, so she’s watching herself as she does things. Our systems do that as well, and our soul does try to guide us as best it can so that we operate at an optimum level. And operating at an optimum level for the human means being in service to what created us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well I seem to have a series of dreams about the same place, like I kind of wake up and go back into it.

It’s like you and I look like we’re in our 30s or something, and you’ve met me. You don’t seem to know a lot about me, but you want to sleep with me so you take me to this place that’s like a secret house of prostitution. So it’s kind of like a wooden building with an apartment within this building, and it has other apartments right above it.

Well you go in and you make a deal with the lady that runs this place that whenever you call and we come over she and whoever the women are that work there are to just disappear, and you and I can go use one of the rooms upstairs. But they’re all to leave when we do that, which she agrees to.

And so, one day then you and I go over there but we’re really excited to be with each other, and it feels like I split off into two people at that point – and you make everybody leave. And they leave so fast that the people in the anteroom when we go in there, I see that they were eating some food out of the cans, and they have just dropped four cans and left them there.

And you can’t wait to go up to one of the rooms so it’s kind of like you’re embracing me on the couch in the main room – but another part of me has split off and maybe gone into a bathroom, or an adjoining room, and it comes out and it sees you with me on the couch. It’s kind of strange. It’s like I have to get back in my body or something because the energy’s pretty intense.

That energy wakes me up a bit. And then when I go back into the dream it’s like I’ve gone over there one time with you and not everybody has left and I’m on the far wall of the room, and you’re wanting to play volleyball in this room. Now there’s no net or anything, so there’s an odd way that you play volleyball. And you assume I can’t play volleyball, but I’m actually a good volleyball player, in the dream, so I surprise you with that – when you’ve thrown the ball at somebody else, and then when I get the ball whatever I do with it it surprises you.

That’s one thing, and then I seem to come out of that a little bit, and then I go back into the same dream and I’ve gone over there to see what it’s like when we’re not there together. And I go over and I notice that the landlord comes through at one point and that he doesn’t seem to really be aware of what’s happening there.

He just goes into one of the anterooms and I’m observing what he knows, or what he doesn’t know, and I’m just looking at what the woman is like who runs the place, and observing that time.

John: So what you’re doing is you have a lower-self nature that is aware of how something is… well, in other words, in a lower-self nature you are inclined to have a perspective on what needs to unfold that is rather limited. In other words, it has a quality about it that doesn’t really open up to what it needs to be, and so it comes across distorted, or perverted, or out of sync.

And that that’s how it appears on one level, but that’s not how it is on a deeper inner level, that is what is important. There are veils and things that get in the way from that which is important, and that one is doing their best to try to set those aside, or remove those. But in a physical outer world if you aren’t accessing the connectivity that is natural in an overall capacity, there’s always going to be some aspect of differentiation, or perversion.

In other words, the theme of the dreaming had to do with trying to catch up and be in that place in which you’re addressing the actual need, and the actual need is a connectivity in which one isn’t going through this, or that, or the other as diversionary mannerisms, that they’re able to connect directly to what lies before them. And that when you don’t connect directly to what lies before you, well, it’s just bizarre. It’s just confusing. What can be takes on a distortion.

So what your dream is doing is it’s pointing out that there is a perception inside of you in terms of how something actually is, and then there is the reality of it in the outer. And what draws you to be the way you are, that is you are the way you are on the path of becoming this something more

What you’re doing is in your dream you’re actually sensing and seeing that something more, and then at the same time recognizing that you’re in another space with that. You’re moving towards that, but still in another space with that, which means that something more needs to awaken or open up because your perspective still has slants to it, or is deviated in some fashion, in terms of the bigger picture.

Now what else happens in there?

Jeane: There was one point where I find myself surprising you how I know how to play volleyball.

John: Ahhh, ahhh, yes. What’s going on there is that you have to catch up with a certain presence and power that you contain, that you have, that you have to embody that. You actually have inside of yourself everything that is able to make the connection and the flow and the linkage.

So what happens is it’s kind of like confusing. It’s kind of like a dialogue almost with the soul. It’s like there is one part of the soul that seems to have a way of trying to thread itself along to what it knows is a complete connection, and then there’s the part of you that’s kind of caught up in the particularities in the outer in which there are gaps and things that are missing, and there’s an awkwardness that exists and, as a consequence, one could judge themselves or even subject themselves to kind of a bit of a demeaning perspective.

Jeane: There was also one I had forgotten about. It was like when you get very excited so you have just kind of fallen on me on the couch, and another part of me has gone kind of into a brightly lit adjoining room that I seem to come out of actually. But a man accidentally opens the door to the room at that time, and you holler at them really kind of angrily and then they have to shut the door and leave.

John: But the important part of that is the sense of something that needed to get in the body of the connection. In other words, you have this quality of yourself that’s in everything on a soul level, but then when you come back to having to address or to work with this on an individual level there seems to be barriers, or problems, or peculiar things that get in the way.

And so because you seem to know this on the higher-soul level that is more expansive and intwined in everything, that’s why you are able to see yourself kind of in a light body or something. That’s why you are able to see yourself disjointed, even.

To take on and to properly appreciate all of that in the physical is difficult, and so you’re pointing out to yourself that you need to be in the body, you need to be grounded, in order to be able to assimilate all of that. And so what you’ve dreamt is your way of addressing the relationship component of what is being introduced, imprinted actually, as a kind of expression or mannerism that is of a shamanistic nature.

In other words, a shaman shifts things, and when they shift things you have a different sense of two places. And so left in your own ordinary devices you would have your idea of how to take and be in a relationship, and it would have a certain coloration to it that putrefies what it’s really all about. And, as a consequence then, there’s all kinds of commotion or reaction that occurs where you’re herky-jerky or… well, there’s just all kinds of strange things that occur as you try to quest in that manner.

But then what the dream is showing you is to cause one to be able to go into and access this greater dimension, to bring it into play in its subtle nature, because that is a dynamic that is always going on, that is behind the scenes, that is the true reality of what’s unfolding.

In that is the need, and it doesn’t have a characteristic or nature. It’s united, it’s combined. For some reason I’m having a hard time saying this because it’s actually fairly easy to look at. In other words, there’s the part of yourself that’s going through the gyrations of things, and then there is the part of yourself to which this part you are in a type of amnesia, and then there’s the part of yourself that actually has an understanding and realizes something so much more, and is unfolding into that so much more.

And in that process of doing that there is a type of intertwined merging that exists, that isn’t evident when you look at the physical circumstances. It’s not as evident. Instead there’s the peculiarities, and there are the circumstances, and there’s the setting, and there’s all of this, that, and the other.

But in the greater aspect of the soul, there is none of that; it just naturally comes together. And in the physical you’re having to contend with all of those aspects that are doing their dance, and having their peculiarity.

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