Month: November 2015

The Memento

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g3As we begin to understand what is of real importance in life, we find ourselves seeing beyond the surface allure of things. In this dream, a commemorative coin becomes the symbol for something else, something that is no longer there, and is something that no longer holds any real value. To see that which has true value is the journey of awakening. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well these two dreams, I don’t know why they threw me in such a deal. I kept thinking when I went to bed that I was going to have trouble dreaming. I had actually two dreams when I went to bed, but I couldn’t remember the second one because this one, that I did pull out, which I thought was doofus, actually kind of captures these first two vibrations just in a goofy dream like this.

In this dream, I’m handed a memento coin that is three or four times the size of a regular, say, silver dollar. It’s very light, though, because it’s made out of junk metal. It’s a memento coin. It’s blank on the reverse side. It only has the image on one side, on the front.

The person who gave it to me, this thing that depicts something that I suppose is the real thing but this is just an inflection of it, a memento, probably got it at a cheap price because it has no significance other than for appearance purposes. And the person probably bought it thinking, okay, he knows that I like the real thing, so he doesn’t know how to hand me or get me the real thing, so he gets me something that’s a memento.

And he asks me, “Do you like it?” Well, I can’t hurt his feelings, so I say I do, “Yeah, I like it.” But ordinarily I wouldn’t give it a second glance because I don’t like fake objects. Isn’t that an odd dream?

So this coin reflects something that was and is no more, in other words the way one identifies with things. It should be no more. The problem is it still might have an identification in some way that takes the attention from where it needs to be attuned, or aligned, and intertwined.

So I find myself, when I’m caught in a situation where there’s just this sort of memento imagery, nothing real or dynamic, I find myself feeling flat with no excitement or zest for life because I’m not good at trying to make something out of that which is fake – because that’s a nauseating way to be. And the idea that I would hold onto something like this is even demeaning.

And then I thought that was enough, but then when I laid back this sort of thing came in in that the purpose of a dream like this is to inflect an image that is intended to cause one to visualize what I really feel, and to visualize it in terms of how the heart needs to be – so that one isn’t clinging to that which is false. And so then if one wants to beat up on one’s self, the fact that one had a dream like this it actually isn’t proper to probably do this, but one is still inclined to do that.

And that actually is a wrongful thing to do now in dreams, but the wrongful thing that kind of closes the dream down, is to impute upon yourself the fact that you’re still playing games like this, even though you know this is illusory. You’ve got to be careful on the degree to which you shoot the arrow back. Seeing it you should be able to just, okay, and then just that’s just kind of how it is. Otherwise you put yourself in a position where you can’t keep progressing because you keep assigning, you keep putting some sort of judgment or sense upon yourself when you beat up on yourself.

That’s what makes for dourness instead of a certain excitement in terms of the way things are just laid out as a quality of a knowingness to be taken back into a greater heartfulness.

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Tuned Out

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maxresdefaultEmbarking on a spiritual path can teach us how to connect to our inner, or higher, guidance. Yet in the beginning these connections are tenuous, as we revert back to our old ways of viewing the world from our personal viewpoint. That is why a spiritual path can only be fully lived if we consistently choose it every day and make it the lens from which we see and experience life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So my first dream was like a type of continuous repeat dream that’s been happening for days and days at night. I go through some stage of this and don’t find a good answer. And the reason why I don’t come up with a good answer is, what I experience I can’t write down – because what may be true on that deep inner level isn’t true in an outer level.

So when I wake up and try to write it down it doesn’t come out. And the reason why it doesn’t come out isn’t exactly translatable from one side to the other yet – and it’s meant to be, but it isn’t.

So in this dream, meditation dream, I’m wrestling within and what I’m wrestling with within is an opinion that I have that less is more, in terms of inner awareness. And so I find myself trying to prove that. I’m trying to prove that to myself. I keep dreaming this inside, but I’m not exactly quite convinced, apparently, because I can’t bring it out, wake up, and write it down succinctly why that is clearly true.

In other words, in order to try to come to grips with this knowingness, I go within and I seek from within to have an experience to that effect, in other words through a dream or something, that is so clearcut that when I come out it’s obvious. In other words, to be able to come out with this, or to bring the vibration into a world which has drifted away from this as a truth. This is where I feel that I’m going to need help seeing because I can’t quite see it. I can’t quite get what I need to get. I still see that with mixed feelings. I can still see how there is something that isn’t quite right about this idea that less is more because there’s something about substance that still has its hold on me.

So what I’m doing is I’m reporting to myself where I’m at in terms of this theme, the theme of letting go like this of things. And I’m noticing that I’m not convincing myself, although I am still struggling to do so.

That’s an odd meditation dream. That can actually throw you off a lot because a person needs to have something codified. Even if it’s untrue, they have to have something codified. And something like this that doesn’t quite come together one way or another, leaves one in a state of bewilderment, which can actually throw things off.

An example of being thrown off is this dream, where again it’s a meditation dream, and I am trying to reach an inner consensus awareness with the dream group. I am having trouble zeroing in on that, in other words because they have a perception that is different. So I’m trying to determine where to go in my dream notebooks. In other words, I’ve gone to my dream notebook to prove it, to try to pull this out, to lay it out there, because the dream group is in a different state than what I can tend to be in, but I’m not always in a heightened state. So I get caught in the malaise of the dream group, but I know that something needs to be pulled out so I resort to my dream books where I’ve got things written down to try to bring it out.

But as you have said, who can possibly read that? And so what I read to begin with only causes a further disconnect. In fact, I struggle so hard to try to figure it out that I even have my back turned to them – as if that will help – because I don’t want to lose the attention of what I’m doing but when I do that I lose their attention and cannot find where to begin. I turn my back in order to try to zero in to at least get it narrowed down to where to begin, and I’m flipping pages back and forth and I can’t even find that.

And of course a dream like this means that one is at odds with themselves, in terms of understanding, or of what’s unfolding within, can put one at odds with themselves. And then I hear a voice that states the problem I’m having in doing this. And what it says is: it is because there’s gambling involved.

Gambling is an interesting term, when one indulges and gets caught up in things they tend not to zoom in and take what is literally going on in terms of a realness inside themselves, they tend not to fully address that. They get caught up in the motif of things. It’s like a game, the outer is like a game and you get caught up in it – and it’s gambling, gaming, gambling.

So when you get like that you’re tuned out, you’re tuned out to something that is more real inside and also, therefore, you’re tuned out to everything around you, too, that might have something trying to awaken in a real way because you’re dealing in this gaming or gambling sense. Which means by tuning myself out, I am not sufficiently in the heart for something to be brought through. You’re riding on a tangent.

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An Energetic Allure

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hqdefault.jpgWe humans are easily distracted. Whenever we put our focus and attention on aspects of the external world, we are treading a dangerous path of losing our deeper connections. But the point is not to hide from the world, but rather to experience it in a forensic way, i.e., by seeking to understand the psychologies at play in us, while also trying to see the bigger energetic picture and respond to that. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then in the next dream, what I remember of it, it seems like I have something like a little iPod but the connector from it to whatever device I want to either download it on, or play music on, is particularly short, the cord is particularly short so it pulls out easily. And this seems to cause me to have to memorize more of the music myself, at least that’s the impression I had from the dream.

John: Yeah, it’s taking away a freedom. In other words, whenever you’re tied to something, and you’re having to adjust accordingly, it takes your attention away from a sense of flow that is important because in the sense of flow you also have the sense of sight, and things inflect and come through you, and naturally come through you. But when you have to go out of your way to adjust, and accommodate, and contemplate, and make allowances for, all of that sort of stuff gets quite draining. And it’s either frustrating or nauseating. And if it’s frustrating or nauseating, it’s that way because deep down you sense how it inhibits that which is freer.

Jeane: Then I have a dream in which it feels like I have a boyfriend that lives… it’s almost like I live in one apartment house and he lives in an apartment house that’s just across the way. In other words, you just kind of walk down and out the door and across the street and up. He’s on the second or third floor with several roommates.

Well, it feels like with one of his roommates, I think he’s a Japanese guy, young guy, he seems to help me with my computer now and then, which is something my boyfriend might not even know because it feels like at one point I’m sitting outside trying to figure out something on my computer – it’s a little handheld computer, like an iPad – and it has music that started playing on it and I can’t figure out how to get it shut off from working things on the screen because it has a whole bunch of little marks on the screen and I don’t know which one’s the Off button. It’s not marked. It’s something I know his roommate could help me with.

John: In the very beginning what you’re doing is you’re portraying how you take and go off and establish the effort that you have to make to go off and establish a motif that you then are caught up in for a long, long period of time. What’s interesting and cute about it is the way you describe this effort of going off on the tangent, which you then hold. And that’s a long, long dream of being on the tangent then.

What this dream is doing is it’s portraying a pattern or a manner that one has to pay attention or buy into things that are in the atmosphere of that which they associate with but only as indirect aspects in terms of what they associate with. In other words, it’s like because I’m interested, you pay attention to that and factor that in to the way you look at things. Because we’re interested in going to Israel you factor in the fact that one could go and stop and meet my friend in Florida – because that is something that is interesting or vibrantly in the scenario of things.

So what’s happening is your dream is causing you to look at the fact that you do this. In other words, you have this relationship with something that’s out and about in another building and the whole bit but, at the same time as part of having that relationship, comes this whole thing that has to do with the byproduct of all of that which is my roommate that is into this, that, or the other.

All of that sort of thing has to be looked at, and has to be reviewed, as tangential mannerisms that carry an energetic allure like a type of excitement, but that keep one in a delusionary state. This has a meaningfulness, and you’re happy to find that there are those possibilities that exist from the general scenario in a byproduct way that can give you a sense of expansion or enhancement of the way you can feel the world.

It gives you means to fill a space with something like that in a side byproduct way. When you do that, you have a tendency to get indulged in that. And all of that is a type of emptiness – and the dream is trying to point that out. This is not an easy thing to see.

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