In his last dream, John couldn’t take the fish that seemed plentiful and there for him to have. Here is a similar scenario where what he tries on does not fit him. In both images, what is available is not his to take. And it is a reminder that the bounty of the universe is not gained by our desire to have it, but by our commitment to being aligned in a way that we can receive it. For us to be in flow with the universe, we must vibrate on Its frequency. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: Now, the next dream builds off of this bright colored jacket, so to speak, although I didn’t notice that until just now. The next image indicates, or shows, or begins with me having access to a room where there are special blankets that are everywhere.
I don’t see the special blankets initially, though, when I come into the room the only thing I see is what looks to be a brightly colored jacket that is made from blankets. So my idea in seeing this is that someone errantly left it behind, didn’t mean to leave it behind, and so it’s just lying there out of place.
So out of curiosity, even though it isn’t mine and is kind of a lost article belonging to someone else, out of curiosity I decide to try it on. Upon putting it on I realize I have to take it off because one, it doesn’t fit, it’s overly long in the arms, two, it belongs to someone else, and three, it just doesn’t feel right wearing it. And that is when I am suddenly, as having taken it off and reached that recognition that I can’t be taking it, that is when everything opens up.
Now there had been a person in the other room who knows that there are valuable things in this room, that if I go into could be tampered with, or unprotected, but he is okay with letting me go in there. And only after I tried on this jacket made out of these blankets and realized that I couldn’t have this jacket, I can’t take this jacket because of the three reasons; it’s not mine, it’s too big, it doesn’t fit, and it doesn’t feel right.
It’s after I let go of that, you know that kind of clutchiness or overreaching or something, that is when my eyes open up and I suddenly see in a corner a whole pile of Pendleton blankets. In other words, this jacket is made out of these Pendleton blankets and that is when I realize that something about this, the wearing of something, the coming together of something, the component, it has an energetic slant to it. In other words, it opens something up. It starts the flow of something that is taken on in life.
The meaning is that this is a dream in which there is another aspect of having to release a mannerism and this one apparently has to do with kind of my opportunistic nature or something. The doing of this, even though my mind would get in the way because I scope out possibilities with the mind, the mind can get in the way, but if it doesn’t, and I get beyond the opportunistic nature, this enables me to catch up with an aliveness that wouldn’t normally be noticed.
And I can’t be amidst this special energy if I am unable to hold a center of balance. In other words, on an energetic level it’s like I have to prove to myself that I am able to appear before an aliveness, fashioned out of the special energy, and leave it alone before I am able to see the special energy in the room.
Now each of these dreams keeps dealing with some little hiccup that I carry. I mean, it was really loud and strange and overly powerful in the first dream, and now that each one of them has little nuances towards awakening. And this other one looked like it’s a completely different dream but it still has to do with how you contend with the way that you’re stifling yourself.
This next dream puts me in touch with an awkwardness in how I am visibly being self protective. The image is, is I am carrying around an object with a knife that protrudes out, that sticks to this object and protrudes out, and I can’t seem to hide that. In other words, when I take the object and put it in the backpack on my back, I can put the object in there but the knife has to stick out of the backpack, it’s visible. I can’t conceal this weaponized abstraction that is a distraction.
So I wake up realizing that going around like this is an unhealthy state to be in. And the meaning is that this is yet another way that I stifle myself from coming in touch with a consciousness that is able to let go, that carries the quality that is able to let go, so there is a wholeness that is possible, that is reachable.
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