We all spend so much of our time worrying about our relationships to other people and other things. Yet in this dream and its analysis, we see that what is most important is the process within ourselves, because, as an operating system, the human design always seeks deeper connection, and greater alignment to its creator. And, as we have noted, that connection and alignment is a choice that the human can make, it’s not automatic or forced upon us. Which means we have to continually say yes, yes, yes to the development process. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the next dream, it’s like I’m on an island. I must be on vacation or something because it’s a large island. And it’s got a casino on one part and it’s kind of made out of rock that is lava-like, kind of black.

At first, I feel like I have a place where I’m staying with some other people. I’ve even gone out and walked through a casino and I’m looking at maybe finding where I’m wandering around a little, looking for where maybe a grocery store is so I can take some things back to the room.

And then I’ve wandered a bit further, so now I’m thinking about how to get home. I can see kind of a highway and lava rock around me and I need to know how to get back to where I’m staying. Well, this guy comes along and he shows me that there’s a path back to where I go. But this path requires going down this really steep hillside, where it looks like these big rocks could fall on you. And I see a few people down below, but even they look like they could fall off where they are, and I know I don’t deal well with heights. And that’s apparently the shortcut, but it looks very, very rugged to me.

So, then I look and I could see I could walk along the highway, but he says that it takes a lot longer and it’s getting almost dark. So, I think, well, even though it might be a several hour walk along the highway, I’m pondering it, but then he says I can come with him and now he’s become like Brett Michaels, the rock star. So I go a ways with him and we meet up with some other people. We go to their house. He’s going to play music with some of them, so I wander off to another room. Well, before long, I find a room where apparently they organize Sufi meetings, just like we have on Thursday nights.

Well, I go in and actually everyone’s beautifully dressed. They’re very social. They’re very nice. It’s kind of a very mixed group in terms of mixed race and everything. They actually have an overflow into three rooms. It’s a really, large group. Well, I’m kind of excited, but then as they sit down, it’s more like a social group, or a Unitarian meeting, or something. And so I wander up to one of the other rooms. I don’t know where the hostess is and everyone’s nice to me in this, but you also feel like they want you to approve of what they’re doing and I don’t know if it’s a Sufi meeting.

I mention to somebody in one of the other rooms, “Well, you don’t meditate and then be social, and then go over dreams?” I see someone in a corner, but she’s very pale in this group compared to everybody else. But she nods her head at what I’m saying. She knows what I’m talking about, but I almost feel like they’re going to attack me because I want to do things traditionally and they obviously have a wonderful, large, social group, but it’s not what I think of as like a Sufi group. So I realize maybe it’s better if I start trying to walk home.

So I start to walk out and then there are some people that come to offer me a ride, but the ride they want to offer me is in this Volkswagen, where they’ve got a bunch of things, like a Volkswagen bus, but it’s kind of got a glass top, but they’ve laid sleeping bags out in it and stuff so that when you crawl in you actually have to lay down and you’re facing the ceiling. And maybe there’s one place where I think maybe I could open up the window on the ceiling. But I almost want to even get out on the roof because again, I just feel terribly confined, so I wake up.

John: First of all, you set the tone of the fact that you’re bound or chained in the first dream, by the fact that you’re caught up in a quality of manifestation in which you can’t access the greater part, or more, of yourself. And so then as you start this dream off, instead of the traditional Sufi image of it being a journey in which you climb a mountain, you have it as an adventure in which you’re bringing the spirit energy down into creation, or bringing it down to yourself, to awaken yourself. And you’re pointing out that there are kind of two ways of doing it, bringing it straight down, or taking a long, stretched out route that is a little easier and less hard on oneself.

And then, apparently, you’re taking your route or decide to take an easier route. It’s less hard on yourself, which means that you’ve got a bit of a blend or a mix between something that’s still in creation versus something that would like to experience something more. And so it’s like you’re going to a rock group. And the rock, of course, is a rock and something very dense, and yet at the same time it’s supposedly a Sufi group. It’s a drawn-out process where you’ve got a blend of all this stuff going on, the chitchat and the carryings on, but that isn’t in keeping with your understanding of how you want to break free from the confines of things. You know that you need to have an orientation to a greater part of yourself that rises above the limitations of how you experience yourself as dense in manifestation.

So that then progresses to you being in a vehicle, but a vehicle with an open top, meaning open to the ethers and the overall of things and wanting to orient in that capacity. You’re not interested in being oriented in something that’s mundane. The rock group and that whole idea, that slower approach, that basically went off and chitchat and bizarreness that nauseated you.

So, it’s almost like where there is a discombobulation in this is, it’s like you had the part at the beginning where you could come down, and then you had the part where it could be stretched out and go the long route. It appeared that you decided maybe to try to go at it in an easier way, like the stretched out route. But then when that took place, or when you started to work that way, you found that you couldn’t stand that. That it was too mundane. That it was too shallow. That it was too nauseating. And so you react to that and, in the reaction, you’re throwing yourself back out to where you’re aspiring to the openness.

So, what’s interesting is to look at kind of what is taking place in that the energy is something that you see as coming down or coming down into you. And you can either take this long stretched out route, or go straight down into the depths of yourself or bring that spirit energy down into the depths of yourself.

What is interesting is that you’re doing that as a counter image to something that aspires to rise up. In other words, the feminine energy aspires to rise up. So you’re attempting to work with the masculine energy. You’re attempting to bring it down into you. And then, as you attempt to do that, you attempt to do that in a slow, easy way. But something about that is nauseating because then there’s the other part of you that wants to aspire or go up with the energy. You have the top open and something go up.

And you come to that part or realization or quality of yourself, when you leave that rock group that doesn’t quite give you what you need, and you get into a vehicle and you’re traveling again, and you’re leaving yourself open. You’re laying back, asleep to the outer surrounding, with the top open to the ethers of all that there is, which is back now to the—a bit like more of the image of something that aspires to go up, or the energy comes out of the feminine and rises up.

So, this dream that has both of these directions portrayed makes one wonder if there is a confusion in there, if there’s a conceptual confusion. Are you doing something unnatural with yourself?

In other words, I think it’s the feminine nature to just subjectively wake up, and it subjectively wakes up by some aspect of kind of the spirit energy, somehow quickening in its nature and waking up. But there seems to be two different speeds going on here. The idea of that masculine spirit energy waking something up inside of yourself seems to be a pace that’s slower, as that aspect of the process is slower in terms of how you want it to be. But in terms of how you want something to wake up, you want it to wake up faster. So you can’t stand the groups that are associated with a slower pace approach. And it’s almost like you’re being kind of aligned to being able to be open to the atmosphere of the whole, like a rising up.

And so, is the spirit energy coming down cluttering you in some fashion? That’s what one has to wonder. The fact that you have the reaction and whatnot within the rock group. And that causes me to reflect upon, again, another image that you had where you’re able to somehow stand almost ambivalently with your hands out and your feet stretched out, and let the energy of the universe pass through you. That’s a subjective image. Everything passes through you, nothing sticks. That’s a very surrendered, passive image in terms of a connectivity to the wholeness. That’s more in keeping with laying back and going to sleep in the car with the top open, and a connection to the wholeness of things that rises up from within.

So, there’s something going on with this chemistry flow. And so you have to take this all the way back to the struggle. And the struggle has to do with you feeling like you’re chained or bound in manifestation and you need to, somehow or another, break free of that – and how do you do that?

Now the dilemma that the feminine has is it has to take in the spirit energy, but it has to figure out how to align it and balance it, so that it works within a wholeness of it all. And, at the same time, let all of that go, so that it’s open to the wholeness of all of life. Like being able to lay back and something then aspires to whatever the infinite above is.

So, you’re playing with this dynamic, in which apparently what you seem to be focusing on and drilling down upon, is the heaviness of things, or the clutter of things, or the awkwardness of things, in a physical body, in the manifestation of things that are still bound up and isn’t able to be as free as it needs to be, or as connected or as flowing as it needs to be.

And you’re looking at this in different octaves. I mean, a while back you looked at it from the standpoint that outside of a connection to the spirit energy, you get really dense. And then with the spirit energy, where things are going on, you can tend to get reactive, or have trouble in terms of what you consider aligned properly. You know, the so-called Sufi group is too slow or too something, that just doesn’t quite sort itself out for you.

So, what you’re doing is, it’s hard to describe, but you’re playing with this whole dynamic, this whole wheel of opening up. You’re playing at it almost with a different pace of yourself in each kind of area. In other words, there’s a part of yourself that can just totally let go in a kind of quality, feminine nature and be open to something that releases going up. And then there’s a part of yourself that is trying to be measured in terms of what comes in, and then there’s a part of yourself that can’t handle the degree to which something is unfolding because it doesn’t resonate right in terms of how you need to be. You’ve got those variables.

They’re kind of like a mood friction and whatnot that’s going on, that one cycles through their nature. You must be doing that, right? Continually rolling that kind of quality. So, it’s an interesting dream reflecting upon how it is that you are in process with yourself.

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