A Degree of Separation


This is a beautiful example of how a chase dream works. Jeane is trying to get away from some bad guys, and in escaping must leave a part of herself behind to enable the freedom to leave. She drives through a hotel, upstairs and downstairs, and then exits, ending up in a completely different place. But she is not completely free because what she left behind is catching up, and what is ahead may require more than she currently has with her. Isn’t that exactly how we move through our lives, trying to let go and add what is needed when it’s needed? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well my dreams last night were affected by the fact that I had a headache, I get sinus headache sometimes with air conditioning. It feels like they were nearly all chase dreams.

And in the main chase dream it’s like I’m with three other people, maybe a couple of women and a couple of men that are friends of mine, but it’s like we realize the people we’re with are bad guys so I get at least three of them away with me. I think there’s maybe someone that stays behind, or the bad guy just because he’s confused or doesn’t move fast enough, or maybe he has some affiliation with him.

I also get away because it feels like no one seems to know how to operate a gun except me, so I’m able to take one or two of the guns and bring them with me. I know that some of the bad guys could operate them efficiently but they’re not there right then.

So when we drive away it feels like I get people in my car and go across the street and into a hotel driving, kind of go drive up the steps of a hotel and into a hotel where there’s a large conference center going on. So I’m able to sneak in and then we have to go through some of the upper floors of the hotel and then find a way to get down and out, and I finally am able to get them down to like a basement loading zone and get the little truck run down the steps there and out in the street.

And then it feels like we’re in California, which seems somewhat familiar to all of us. Then I notice that for some reason it feels like the bad guy is going to be very close to us, and there are army trucks somewhere up ahead, and I don’t know which side they’re on in a way, so I’m trying to check the weapons. And I can see how inept the people I’m with the weapons are, so I have to almost take the weapon to use myself, but I also have to try to steer the truck.

So it just feels like I’m always trying to get us to go fast and stay ahead, but you feel like the other people are going to be right on your tail all the time, and then the people coming towards you up ahead you’re not sure which side they’re on. I know I had other chase dreams during the night but I really couldn’t hold onto them. I just know they were chase dreams all the time.

John: You’re describing a process. A car is a means of motion and transportation. It’s also your self, and all of those parts of yourself are in the car.

The hotel represents kind of a general where-you-are-at kind of thing, that you have to go through. Because when you go through the hotel you suddenly find you’re in California. You started out across the street from the hotel. You go into the hotel. So you extricated whatever it was that had you bogged down and weighed down.

You are in, most of you that is, and you you’re in a flow or a car that has to go through a process, which is through a hotel, but something didn’t get rescued and that something is important in terms of an aspect in which you perceive yourself. It’s not in the occasion of the process. In other words, you’ve taken it out of the process. It’s gotten left behind, and is in the hands of something that’s trying to catch up with you or have its effect upon you.

You’ve already thrown off the effect knowing that it held you back in order to get into a motion that had a process that caused you to go through, and in going through you ended up in a whole new place, but in the whole new place you have the apprehension of also something coming towards you as you’re driving – as well as that which you are leaving behind coming at you.

As you’re driving in a singular focus then the other parts of yourself is going to have to make a way so that you can get through. Well that is the dilemma isn’t it? You can get to a process to where something is awakened, but then if something happens that changes the conditions so that you have to take into account both coming and going… Things may have been strained when you were in the process proceeding along because there was always something you couldn’t get totally away from, that was still able to haunt you and act as a kind of catalyst so that as the process unfolded you were always aware of that affecting your environment. But to then have to take into account that what lies ahead, that you’re proceeding towards as you try to pick up even more speed or something, the idea being initially to try since you have shifted and the other parts are still there behind you, that you can go now faster, that you can create a breakaway, but then you get shocked by the fact that up in front is something else that you are going to have to contend with.

And do you have what it takes inside to just penetrate through that, or are you going to hit some sort of, or be stopped by something up ahead? You’ve gotten away with it so long, and you’ve even shifted and gotten into California and all. You’ve invoked the process. I can see where you might think, okay, yeah, I’ve gotten this far, it should be possible that I can keep on keeping on. But it sounds like you’re not so sure. You’re not so sure that pedal-to-the-metal kind of thing but you’re not so sure that that’s going to get through there for you.

Well, that’s reporting on what’s happened. That’s I guess the beginning. What does it mean? I guess it means that there’s more to the process than meets the eye, for one thing. And that there’s something insurmountable ahead that you can’t take for granted – even though you would like to. You feel you’ve come this far, things have worked out, surely there’s going to continue to be relief. But you hadn’t anticipated that, as you shifted and even found a way of picking up speed, that here is this whole otherness that wasn’t supposed to be there, that you didn’t take into account as being there, anyway, is suddenly in your way.

The thing about this dream is you’re still something like a substance. You still have some sort of physicality to have to contend with. When you see something up ahead it seems like you almost had the audacity to think that somehow or another you just flash through it, but that knowing from within is a little presumptuous. You’re not quite there to just be able to have that quality that can do that, so you have to try to figure out how to contend with it and yet still try to maintain the pace, the speed.

And the consequences of that aren’t very reassuring, in your opinion, but what else can you do? It’s not a good prediction is it? It suggests a process. It suggests that in the process there is a degree of separation that’s in the way. There always is going to be this degree of separation in terms of the inner being everything, and us in an outer being somehow or another of a definitional way of being.

I think your dream is pointing to a greater fluidity because how you had been able to get by up to this point… In other words, you could continue doing this chase dream forever, but you’re not able to do the chase dream forever. You’re actually able to shift your awareness to some degree as part of the process and that can make it seem where you’re picking up speed, but you haven’t absolved yourself of some part of yourself that isn’t all there.

And so there comes a point in time when that part which hasn’t been absolved gets the best of you. In other words, you need all of that to go forward. That part of yourself is what would enable you to just know that in going forward that it will all be able to be okay as you continue to go at a faster pace. So the question is what is this pace that you’re going at, and it can go through all obstacles and barriers. I think it’s a type of light, and it has something that still has a type of physical nature to it. It has a physical nature because it hasn’t gotten all parts of itself assimilated into a wholeness.

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