Experiencing Completion

15bdAs we can see, it doesn’t always have to be a chase sequence for one inner aspect to catch up with another inner aspect. Here, the main character is serendipitously led into a situation that puts his own inner struggle on display, as a way to illuminate the issue for the dreamer. The intensity and drama of dream images is often a measure of inner resistance to what is trying to occur. When we are open to it, or less resistant, the images can take on a more magical quality. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I should probably do my second dream first, because the second dream coincides with the theme that you’re hitting more directly. My first meditation dream is such a mystery to me: it still talks about how to catch up with the quality of a spaciousness that is needed, but the second dream doesn’t get into that so much, but gets directly into a peculiarity of things, and it does it in kind of a bizarre way where you don’t know what’s going on.

Because in the dream, the beginning of this is to try to show how there is some sort of feminine imbalance in my nature, and it has to do with some sort of internal pressure or something that I’m holding in a way that isn’t quite right and, therefore, creating a barrier or conflict in terms of myself with it.

The first dream portrays that barrier in that I have a tendency of trying to feel that everything is always about something and therefore I’m not able to just sit in the spaciousness in which there doesn’t need to be anything going on. And as long as I perceive that there’s something that I have to defend, or withstand, it limits and keeps me from bringing this quality together of the inner and the outer. The dream of course is showing this evolving quality.

In the dream, I’m in a hallway waiting for my mother who’s in the doctor’s office. To begin with I see a painting up on the midlevel of the wall, and I look at it. It’s kind of interesting and then it disappears. And then I notice another lower one, and this lower painting that I look at is that of a woman’s foot with the toes and kind of something around one of the toes and stuff like that.

Suddenly there’s a woman who comes out into the hallway into this waiting area, and I notice that she has the same foot that’s in the painting. So I ask her if she painted that and if she has any other paintings besides the foot and the other painting that disappeared. I’m not really sure that I’m interested, I’m just making conversation. But she directs me to follow her, and I figure well, my mother could come out at any time but this shouldn’t take long, she’s just going to go and show me what she has in her gallery or something, and instead she wanders around, and she can’t seem to find anything, and she’s in a communal area where she lives like a gypsy.

And first she goes to one workshop that’s more in the outer and there’s nothing there to be had, and then she goes to her other sanctum which is amongst all of these other gypsy-like people. I don’t really see them, I just know that this is kind of a communal area where they all seem to somehow live or coexist together, which takes away the ability to have a certain kind of spatiality because there’s no privacy and, as a consequence, all of her paintings are in storage. She looks in various places including under a house, and all I need is just one because from that one painting I can replicate as many as I want.

I ask her about how she is able to get by around so many people. How does she have a life of her own? Her bed is separated from others by a couple of drapes that she has hung and she says she has a boyfriend who comes and visits her at 6 o’clock. And then something happens and everything disappears, she disappears.

And now I find myself shifted and I’m in the country. A person has driven this car out into the country as if we’re looking for something, maybe looking for her. And we look at what we thought we came to see, and then we’re to go back to the car and everyone else takes… you know, there’s a couple others, they all take and follow the driver back under one particular route back. But I seem to try to do this, go around a different curve or something, and go back quite a little bit different route as opposed to following everybody else, and I run into running water and stuff that I have to delicately bounce around to keep from getting my feet wet.

And before I realize it, I’ve meandered even further away from the car, and I come to an area where this woman is with this guy, in a room of some sort, and she is leaving out the window as if something just isn’t working out or isn’t right – because the guy isn’t understanding what she wants.

I’m able to see this and I suddenly just become the vibration as if time is displaced and I’m in her, or intertwined as being her, so I can tell what she feels and I could tell what I would feel as a guy separate. And when I notice this it’s like such a completion of coming together, but I have to leave because I do not want to miss my ride. And I realize I’ve wandered way south so the person driving the car, when I finally get back, he describes the phenomenon zone I was in and he gives it a name. I can’t remember what he called it, something similar to Kryger. And so I go back to where I live and try to understand more about this, this phenomenon, how it comes to pass and whatnot because it actually is a real thing that can happen in life – and that’s when I wake up.

The meaning of this is there is an aspect of my soul that has gotten lost. Glimpses and experiences of it are fleeting. To have an experience of completion, just one taste of it, puts me on a mission to reach this again and break the trance I am in. Such access enables me to penetrate barriers that hold everything in manifestation in a state of suspense, and I am able to make things happen in manifestation, or in other words, touch manifestation, work with manifestation, as kind of a spaciousness as opposed to some sort of disharmony – which isn’t otherwise possible when I make this kind of connection because there’s a knowingness in this connection.

In other words, one can function, then, in manifestation as a reciprocal effect of bringing the soul quality energies together so that they complete the kundalini power needed, the full power that’s needed.

And so then there’s like an outer example as I settle back, and the outer example I am shown is that I am able to gauge the up and down cycles in life, such as like maybe my commodity account, and recognize the possibilities here-to-fore not recognizable when I am functioning in a connected way instead of separate from the wholeness that exists in such a union.

So that shows when you bring the two together you create a possibility and then you actually hear something, and that’s where I started to realize that maybe you could say that the kundalini energy has one other little power to it because you can actually then know something. First you reach the state of spaciousness. Now, to understand this one keeps having to understand the full meaning of spaciousness, and that’s where this meditation dream comes in – and it’s very confusing in terms of seeing it.

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