Dreaming into Knowing

Karen Casey Smith

Here’s a type of chase dream, except this time the main character is doing the chasing. And the idea of a woman chasing her mother points to the effort to make a connection to a greater feminine principle. Yet, as we also see, that connection is not easily made, and it continues to elude her as she gets distracted by the oddities of life, one after another, which is something that can prevent us from reaching what we aim toward. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My next dream I could probably never get the sequence right because it was so long and involved, but in this dream there are two things going on, one is I’ve started a new job, or I have started a job where I’ve changed offices maybe, and I’m going to have a new boss the next day that will be coming in, a guy.

Meanwhile, I’ve gone home and I live with a woman who I think of as my mother, and she lives in this kind of complex house with several levels and it’s easy to lose her, so sometimes I have to go through there looking for her, and once I start looking for her, or following her and trying to catch up with her, it’s like we seem to have a lot of levels that we pass through, or complicated things that happen.

And so I’m looking for her, or even when I catch up with her, we seem to start on this journey and, as we go out the door, it’s almost like you slide somewhere and then I find us at this complex building where I don’t look for a second and I don’t know where she’s gone. And I go in this one area where there’s someone I get a very bad vibe from, and I have to go around several corners. They’re wearing blue, but they don’t feel friendly. It’s like I don’t trust them, almost like they’re bewitched or something, or could bewitch people.

But I have to keep pursuing their space and whatever they’re doing there to try to find if my mother’s hidden there. I finally get out of that room and I go down a long hallway and I see her in the distance, and it seems like just about the time I catch up with her we’re outside and we go to a beach area. By this time it’s like there are several trials we’ve had, and then when we go out on the beach I’ve almost caught up with her, and suddenly I turn to my left and there are these huge waves coming at us almost like a tsunami-type wave.

It’s almost like enough is enough at this point, so I actually rage at the ocean, and so it goes around us rather than hit us really solidly. We still end up in the water, but we don’t end up hit by the tsunami because I was just so angry. It was like, enough was enough here. Then when we get back on the shore, and I’m following behind her it’s like we go to this house and I see that my boss – and by this time I realized it’s so late in the day I’m not going to make it to work today for my new job – but my new boss is at this house. I’m not even sure if I keep following my mother like this until I catch up with her whether I’m going to make it to work the next day.

And as we go in this house there’s a man there who owns the house and he’s sorting through some pictures and I notice one of them is a painting by Nicholas Roark, and I point out that I really like his colors. He was a Russian mystic, and I get a little distracted by that. And as soon as I get distracted by that my mother’s out the door. And this time there’s someone I think of as my sister with her, and I’m on the trail again.

But those few minutes I got delayed by this guy who then kept wanting to talk to me so I couldn’t get away, when I come out the door there are two or three different paths and I don’t know which one they’ve taken, and I can’t look down them and tell from the people in the distance, so I just have to choose one.

And I choose one, and I don’t know if I am catching up or not, but I keep going but at some point I come close to a building. As I go into the building and I’m on my own for a few minutes I get captured by an indian, Native American Indian, and it feels like I fall under a spell of his a bit. And I’m with him for a while and he’s going to be a speaker at this meeting that everybody’s going to. I’m on my own for a few minutes and then I find the room where everybody’s speaking and I go in and I choose a seat. It seems like now I’m a little entranced by waiting for the Native American who will be the speaker.

John: So what this is pointing out is, again the theme of all of this is, there are various ways of going into the spiritual illusions. And there’s only one way to keep from experiencing it to some degree or another, and that is to have a really, really, really always present, very deep, heartfelt connection. And when you have a really, really, really deep, heartfelt connection, you’re naturally in sync with everything that’s going on around you – or otherwise you become indulged in one direction, or the other.

So the dream starts off with you being on a new job with a boss and all of that, and what happens is you actually get indulgence in that direction, which is kind of a masculine flow connection.

Then you try to come back and catch up with life, and so you’re following your mother and following your mother, trying to close the gap of coming back into a grounded, rooted, creation into manifestation. And just when you see that you’re on the beach, basically almost there, there is the roar and the activity of things in the outer that break up the closeness or the approximation. And so you have to rage at that and, of course, at this particular level of raging you actually can have a sci-fi kind of effect upon things, or at least you do in the dream because that’s what it’s really like in terms of your separation, thus it throws you in not being able to reach that kind of simplicity.

When you go back to a house and such, and there’s something there to pay attention to that catches your attention again, you’re again thrown in a wayward state so that then to keep up with the feminine principle in life, that being represented by your mother, you have no idea what trail she went off on. This is yo-yoing you in terms of things, and you’re yo-yoing in order to see the essence of the theme, which is this really, really deep heartfelt place that you have to reach, that is outside of how you see yourself – because as long as you keep seeing yourself as having to check in with a boss, an employer, or do something with whatever you had to do with whatever this other guy was about, and how his life was or whatever that was, as long as you keep seeing yourself as this way or that way, then the main thing that was missing in this dream is you weren’t quite connecting as fully and as heartfully as you needed to connect, and be able to hold onto that.

You have to be able to handle and accept and to relate to all of the other things that are going on in life, and you have to be able to see them. You hold that principle in something that needs to be touched and awakened, but you never really fully quite take it on because one is still being engulfed with, and enamored by, this or that.

And the spiritual illusion comes in all kinds of different directions and the only thing that enables them to go away, as far as the impression of the vibration goes, is if you truly, truly accept the human experience – which you can’t do unless you have this amazing connection of the heart to all that there is around you. Because otherwise you will constantly be trying to play with the chemistry in some fashion or another, and you can find yourself being able to do some amazing things.

The idea of shaking the walls of Jericho down is no different than the idea of roaring back at the sea, or the conditions that happen in the outer, instead of seeing how all of that plays and strokes the heart chords all the time. That’s why you have the principle in Sufism that the enemy is your friend because, technically, there’s a way of seeing that that deeply touches you and in the end results in you staying in a human orientation.

It’s all part of being grounded and being grounded in a way that can handle this, in other words, not to the point where your sensitivity’s blown apart, such that it results in a whole other schematic of things happening that are chaotic. When you see that sort of thing happening you kind of know why, you kind of say it’s not properly grounded. Grounded, yes, but not properly grounded.

You have to maintain the heartfulness. The heartfulness keeps the strength of the body going. It keeps the vibration, the electrical currents of things the way they need to be. And that you have to connect to that, and then that keeps you properly oriented – or otherwise your energy races in some direction or another.

This is kind of like noticing this quality, noticing this trait. This is not something that you readily notice when you’re just taking and dealing with, for example, the limitations and inhibitions that everyone initially finds themselves under. But at some particular point you realize that you get wafted back and forth by the way things change around you, so to speak, the wind of life blows, and you have to know how to handle that. And you’re not going to handle that because it is so much more than you could possibly grasp or contend with, unless it’s all captured in an element of the heart.

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