Against the Grain

imag0909esIn our journey to become reconnected to our source, we learn to surf over the events that might slow us down or prevent us. But it’s also more than that. When we become spiritual in our life, everything we do becomes spiritualized. That points to the idea that it isn’t what we do in life, but the reasons why we do it. Is it being done for our benefit, or for the benefit of something greater? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I like my first dream, which was the most powerful. It feels like there’s this water with rapids that’s flowing towards almost into the ocean, like a river that goes into the ocean. And it feels like I do something that surfs over it. I was trying to surf over this river section. I never really see the ocean. I just have the sense that it does flow down and open up into something.

The river isn’t really behaving like a normal river. It’s more like it has rapids that go from one bank to the other, but it’s also flowing downward.

So I have something that it feels like I can kind of surf from one side of the river to the other on. And the rapids are huge, you know the waves. It seems like I can actually even at places where the rapids are really big, that I can get across, or even go across the top of them for a while.

I’m going from west to east. It feels like when some guys want to try to do this with me, but I can’t get that figured out. There’s something off when they try it, whether it’s because they have guns, or whether it’s something that makes it off, that’s all I can say. And so it’s frustrating.

What I have to say is it feels like the rest of the night went like that then, that whatever I was dreaming, which I don’t necessarily recall, I would get frustrated and wake up, and have a slight headache, and feel too warm, and so it was like I was trying to do something that just wasn’t quite pulling together. And so I just kept getting a headache from it.

John: The flow, whenever you’re in a flow and you’re progressing towards something, you’re going to the north. The north is considered the spiritual north, and the river of life eventually goes into a wholeness, or into something that takes in all that there is, which would be represented by the ocean.

But as you’re flowing in life, you’re also contending with the action of things, and you have to contend with the action of things again in a counterclockwise motion. In other words, if you’re in a river and you’re flowing you’re going to the north. Everyone else in life goes to the south. Everyone else also goes from east to west, in other words something comes into life and the west becomes the images and the reflections. Everything sets in life to the west, in which the affairs of the day are established. You also do that counterclockwise, which means you go all the way back to where something is coming in. And things come into life from the east, so you’re flowing from west to east.

What you’re doing is you’re portraying the means by which your overall beingness takes things in. It’s in a flow going somewhere, like following a thread, but it’s in life in which you are coming to recognize and realize the innerness that is happening first in life. So, instead of the innerness just being there and you just taking it into reflection after reflection after reflection, which is what occurs when you’re going from east to west. When you’re going from west to east, you’re reconciling the reflections to what it means in terms of an inner recognition or realization.

In other words, you’re bringing that into being. And so you’re doing that, the waves so to speak, of the ocean that go east to west, as you’re caught in the rapids, the whitewater, of a journey that is going to the spiritual north of yourself – or the mystical side of yourself.

You can’t do this just in one direction. In other words, you just can’t set your sight in terms of attempting to do this like going straight to the north. You can’t set your sight to straight do this because that would be just the masculine without the feminine. When you’re able to reconcile what is taking place in the outer, in terms of awakening the inner essence of things that you carry, that’s the ability to go from west to east and that’s the feminine nature that is able to work in manifestation. In other words, it reconciles everything that exists by the inner essence that it goes back to.

And the masculine can go and set its sight in this northern way. That’s what’s natural for the masculine, but it’s unnatural for the masculine because this is going from west to east in the terrain of a feminine use of energy. It’s a little unnatural for the masculine to do that because its attention would be more on the flow of the whitewater, let alone trying to navigate within the overallness of reconciling and intertwining back to where the inner and the outer come together – as using manifestation to do that. This is what the feminine is better able to do.

You had a portrayal where you’re working with both. You’re naturally being carried along kind of like a masculine unfoldment, or you might say the will of God kind of unfoldment, and this will of God unfoldment in that flow is things that are awakening, the reflections of things are there in manifestation that you then reconcile back to the essence, and where they originate, or come into being. You’re bringing that back.

It’s an image of going to a complete emptiness, but it’s an image of letting go. It’s a process. You’re in the process of that, however. In other words, you’re not at the ocean where there’s a nothingness. You’re not indulged in the ways of the masculine conceptualization of advancement, yet you’re in the flow of that with your attention being upon your role and responsibility, which is in manifestation, reconciling manifestation. In other words, not trying to make something out of it, but to reconcile it and bring it back to its essence.

The masculine is always trying to know what’s going on, know where it’s going, what’s going to happen, that whole bit. So it would be paying attention to the rapids. That would be the excitement for the masculine. It would be a lot of kundalini energy and whatnot getting caught up in the whole fervor of that.

But for the feminine it’s a matter of denoting what is taking place, and knowing how to leave it behind, to go from those reflections back into the emptiness, to know that everything is an indulgence or, as a teacher might say, it’s the play of the Great Mother, or the Mother Maya principle in all of life. And if you get caught in the reflections, you’re caught in the delirium. You’re reconciling that. You’re taking that back. You’re going back to whence it came, to the east. Everything rises from the east. The whole thing starts as an essential essence in the east, and then sets in the west. It’s a great image isn’t it?

The reason why it causes is a headache is the way the mind/senses work, is they work in one or the other but not both, and you mix both of those things together. Well, it’s almost impossible to do. It’s like having to go up and down at the same time. You’re mixing both of those together. In other words, your mind and your senses is confounded with things that invoke a flow into life, and things opening from the inner into the outer is by means of reflection. So now all of a sudden you’re going against the grain of that in order to reconcile backwards so that you don’t get caught up in the illusoriness of manifestation.

So, you’re going to the north, you’re following the thread back to yourself, to the emptiness, and you’re catching up with the essence behind everything that is manifestation as a reflection. You’re going from west to east. You’re doing that on a natural soul level, but when you bring your mind and senses into the equation you’d be doing the opposite in the outer, you know, left to your own devices. That has to be nauseating. That has to be difficult.

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