Spiritual development is an incremental process. Awakening implies that new energies have been triggered or connected to, and that almost always requires an adjustment to the new aspects. This dream shows that process in terms of personal relationships: one relationship (state) feels disinterested and lacking energy, and another is more compelling and intriguing. Yet as soon as the new energy is sought out, an internal fear arises in the form of losing control. But this is really the way we gain new territory in our journey into unknown depths. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: So in the one dream I pulled out, I’m in a city where it feels like we live in brownstones, that’s a certain type of housing you see more back east, and I almost feel like I’m even visiting the city, and I’m staying in a room in a brownstone.
And it feels like there’s maybe an old boyfriend that stays with me, and I’m visiting some other people there, and we’ve gone to a party someplace else. And as I’m mingling around at the party there’s this one man, who I think teaches somewhere, and he showed me this book. I think it’s even a book that may have been about the Third Reich, but it’s a thin little green book and some things even seem to be underlined in it.
And he’s mentioned some things about it, about why I should read it and what’s in it, that I really find intriguing. And he even tells me his name, and I actually find him kind of intriguing. And then he and his roommates leave and I go back to the room I’m sharing with this guy, and it seems like it’s the next day or something, and I feel like the guy I’m with seems kind of indifferent to me. But he’s already talking as we’re going to do this or that, but I’m thinking about the book and the guy I met at the party.
So before I feel all trapped in whatever the person I’m with who’s quite indifferent has set up, I decide to go out. It feels like I go out once and I find the brownstone where this guy lives, but he’s not home right then. It feels like I talk to his roommates and maybe I get a glimpse of the book, but I’m not sure I see it right then. Then maybe I think I’ve gone back and that’s when I feel like my partner is all indifferent.
So I go out again, and this time I go knock on the door where they’re staying. I thought I’d go borrow the book, and the guy actually comes to the door. I think he doesn’t have a shirt on initially, so he shuts the door and he comes back out. And actually this time he doesn’t have his shirt on, but where he’d had a bathrobe on before he’s at least dressed, except for no shirt.
And he had recognized me, and he comes out with the book, and it’s like he wants to read it to me. And he takes me around to the side to a little alcove where it feels like there’s just a little cot you sit on or something. I sat there and he sat beside me, although now he’s kind of leaning over me and he’s reading to me from the book. And it feels terribly intimate, but it’s also a little overwhelming because, you know, it’s all happening fast, or I’m not really sure about all of this.
And as he’s reading to me from the book, then it feels like somebody else comes up and that they are supporting my being with him, because he’s really kind of leaning or lying over me almost. So I step aside for a minute and it’s like I’ve been handed this bowl. And this bowl looks like some inner woven wires, almost in a pattern like on a little grid, but maybe about four inches square, and some other wires and things. And then there’s a liquid that’s put in the bowl and, as I swish the bowl around, what must have been dirt and stuff on the wires falls off and I realize that all these pieces of what looked like wires or little patterns in the bowl are actually all gold that’s been all polished now.
And at the same time I’m looking to the side where this guy is, and where the men that were with him, and I realize that I don’t really know the rules here. For all I know they could go behead my ex and marry me off to this guy, because there is something that’s happening but I haven’t a clue about what it means in the place where I am, that there’s just no way I understand the rules. So I wake up.
John: The theme of the dreaming last night was the process and means by which one gains access to a different part of themselves, or to a part of themselves in which they’re meant to gain access and, in doing so, a shift occurs.
In other words, it’s not like you’re on the way or aspiring even. It’s like you’re gaining the information you need and then, in so doing, it’s as if a shift naturally occurs. And in the first part of the dream, you find yourself in a scenario in which some things are kind of blasé, in which you can denote inside that something more needs to be, because the sense of the environment that you’re in is something that no longer has the catalytic, or feeds you, in a capacity in which you need to be fed in order to grow like you need to grow.
And this becomes obvious to you when there is something that happens, in terms of a book so to speak, or an aspect of accessed information, that opens up inside of you, that creates an intense longing for more that is possible from this place. And, until that happens, it was almost as if you hadn’t realized, or it just hadn’t occurred to you, or it hadn’t opened up yet, or you weren’t ready yet for this something more to spring forth anew.
And so the dream is portraying this in a manner in which your attention is inclined to work, in terms of trying to access and assimilate that which is meant, and is quickening in its awakening inside of you. So you use a dream process that has a thread that is a lot like what you might imagine, or contrive, in terms of outward mental kind of directed, or directing, of one’s self type orientation.
However, the dream is just using that as a symbolic reference, and so you look at the symbolic reference, you notice what is important in the symbolic reference. It is not the guy, per se, that is important. It is something that is able to be revealed or quickened inside of you that is important, that has been sitting dormant for a long time. And that when that is quickened and enlivened inside of you, something changes, in which you are now shifted in a whole new capacity.
And to denote that you’ve been shifted is that you suddenly see that, as you are now observing the new energy lines of things, that there is this golden result. And you still carry a quality, because this was a dream that is portraying using outer imagery in order to reference something that is changed, you’re still carrying, based upon the fabric of the imagery, you’re still carrying some stigma or quality yet with you, and thus there is the sense that something can take a step back or that something could get imposed upon you against your will. That you could get married off to this guy, or that there are new rules here that you need to be afraid of or something that could still happen – which was the case in the previous place that you were at before something awakened inside of you, or was awakened inside of you.
In that place, what had happened had put you into a kind of blasé kind of reference, in terms of yourself, that you were lucky to find out that there was so much more that was possible. And you were grateful that that suddenly opened up as a means by which you could now access it and, in so doing, shift.
And because you use the symbolic imagery of something that is of a denser quality nature, within that denser quality imagery is stigmatic energy, a fear in which you, in this new place that you’ve been shifted to, could be affected or impacted in some way, against your will, almost as if what is happening is too fast, too overwhelming, or outside of what you are accustomed to as comfortable.
So the dream is a dream in which it not only shows a change that is occurring, and a shift that is there, but it also shows the potential issues and negative effect that yet remain in terms of the shift.
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