True Closeness

m22aIn the prior dream we saw how trauma creates inner barriers that prevent us from experiencing the moment in an unbiased way (see The Trauma Effect).  Here the imagery of the follow-up dream literally puts the dreamer on a shelf, signifying what we can no longer access or make use of in ourselves when our defense mechanisms kick in unconsciously. Still, the system has tools and formulas for overcoming these issues, and it has to do with greater intimacy, or greater consciousness, in oneself.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my next dream there’s a man and I that seem to live in this large room. It has shelves all around. It has shelves on two sides of the room. It seems to be more barren, the middle, and he and I seem to live on a couple of the shelves. And I have a feeling that at one point he and I had a more intimate relationship, but now it seems to be more casual.

And I’m kind of looking at that, and sometimes I leave the room and it feels like I go teach a class to some young men or something, and I come back to the room. But I’m evaluating, on the one hand, whether our relationship should become more intimate again, and I’m also evaluating what contributes to that, like in terms of some objects around the room, or what we have placed where on a shelf.

And then there’s one wall that just has all this writing on it, and it’s all in black ink pretty much, or brown ink. Then there’s another man who comes into the room, and he’s brought a red pen and he’s making some almost like formulas, and lines, and connections on that one wall, so I’ve gone over to see what he’s doing.

And then I seem to kind of back up and again I’m going over to the man that’s up on the shelf and I’m looking at… It’s almost like I’m trying to look at what that means in terms of our relationship, and how you move it along again in a way? What’s the right thing to do or be? And it’s just a strange dream that way, because most of it all takes place in this one room.

John: So the first dream, of course, is telling you more about what’s involved to have a semblance in the here and now, in other words, in terms of the aspect of one confronting their own shadows and demons and mannerisms and habituations and patterns that are based upon conditioning, or traumas, that keep them from properly intertwining.

The second dream adds, then, the component of what comes about when one is able to drop a definitional modality and is able to merge, or intertwine, on the various levels of their beingness. And that is something that you can’t really put your finger on, in terms of describing how to do it and whatnot, although one tries. You try to work out the formulas, and the patterns, and the logarithmic correlations, however it is that you want to describe them. That gets in the way.

That’s the way we think that it should work, however. That’s what we take and attempt to do on a regular, readily-based schematic. However, the answer you’re shown is that you merge, or intertwine, and that’s what opens up a closeness and proximity that is natural. The other makes sense intellectually, but doesn’t take you to being able to access the levels inside of yourself that you see as shelves, or as steps that you take to get closer and closer, that is like a type of asleepness, but it’s more than that because it’s in the inner depth – and that is the true closeness. That’s the true connection, not the other.

Jeane: The other thing that I remember about that dream is that, although everything in that room seemed kind of brown and colorless except for maybe the ink on the wall and even that wasn’t that much, it seemed like the guy upon the shelf did have this little golden ball. It was just small, like hand size. I remember that was the only color in it, though.

John: Yeah, that component corresponds to what we went through at another point in time in our dreaming. It’s like you have a golden quality inside of yourself that is a wholeness, in and of itself, that is an aspect of the inner consciousness of it all, and that in the outer, you tend to not appreciate or recognize that. That’s a light that you cannot see when you function in the outer.

But on the inner you’re able to access that, and your dream is showing you that this quality, this trait, that sits there inside of yourself, that’s kind of like put on a shelf, and answering kind of a question you seem to have in your sleep, the connection to that is what the closeness is all about, or the intertwining, or the connectivity that brings about something. That is what is important. You have your notions in terms of what is important, and those notions that you have in terms of what is important is that other aspect in your dream that shows you looking at formulas, or whatever it is that you’re looking at, as combinations or something, and that dovetails all the way back to your first dream that has to do with the trauma orientation.

And the trauma orientation has you reacting and responding in a particular way based upon the bias that comes through from the trauma orientation, which then keeps you from accepting the naturalness of the moment, or of the present, because the theme of the dreaming, the central underlying theme of the dreaming, was this quality that’s in the present, that’s in the short-term of which the longer term schematics of things are yet veiled, because one first of all has to work on being in life, bringing the inner into the outer, and then, maybe later, or at some other point in time when one has taken the first step in kind of an unfoldment process, maybe then you have more of a sight of the Book of Life.

But you have to work upon the bringing through of the immediate, or the inner, or the naturalness, the wholeness. You have to maintain it in both levels, or on both planes, the inner and the outer plane. You have to do that. You have to make that conscious step first, which is impossible if you’re carrying traumas, and it isn’t possible if you develop any kind of set mannerism, which is another aspect of my dreaming. You have to do that first, before this other is able to unfold. And yet a human being, because they have this mind that probes out, is constantly going asunder – as if they have a right to do that. And that’s acting out of the norm, and is not putting first things first, which is the immediate, the present, the near term.

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