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imagesIf we can agree on the idea that the universe is refining, that it is in a process of doing “something,” then we can project forward and see that at the end of the process everything would come back together – with the gained experience of the process itself. And that’s the way it should work for humans, as well, for as we develop and refine we want to include more and more of ourselves in it. This is how the “as above, so below” concept applies, because we each follow the same processes as the universe – just in a smaller outplay. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I really just remember one of my dreams. In this dream it’s like I’m a therapist, and I’ve gone back to work at an office. I’m going to be conducting some group therapy, and some people that are going to come to the group are talking to me first, and they’re actually people that work in a therapy office, but it’s the main office which is in another building over from where I work.

So I’m speaking to them for a few minutes beforehand, and then I’m helping them, showing them to go in and sit down in the group. Well, it’s kind of an odd group in that it’s almost shaped more like an eight, you know, like two circles that are joining rather than just one circle. So I’m focused on the circle right in front of me. The other circle almost at times seems slightly invisible, and I keep thinking somebody else must be running the therapy there because I’m focused on the woman in front of me.

And I realize that because they worked in a therapy office then they’re going to know some of the therapists personally. I’m trying to tell them they’re going to have to separate that out in a way, when they’re in therapy, that what goes on in a therapist’s private life really doesn’t reflect how the therapist might be, in terms of their ability to help others. So their focus has to be a little bit more outward into the group and, you know, maybe not into what they hear in the office on a personal level. That’s about all I remember of that dream.

John: The reflective pattern of how we’re made up is such that when you go through something, let’s say that you lived or conducted yourself in an outer mannerism, and this is how you had to live, and how you had to go through things, and how you had to pay the price of admission of a quality and manner of unfoldment that took, you know, a lifetime even to gain an understanding, and then a deeper inner appreciation that was apparently needed to be reached in this fashion or way.

You come to a point, however, and each of us comes to the same point where you have to kind of go back into what it was that you did, the energy that you did. In other words, you’ve come down, and let’s say you’ve retired from it, and then you have to go back into it.

The first thing you have to contend with when you go back into the energy is whether you still have the addiction to things that drew you into making those kinds of outward expressions and unfoldments, in terms of yourself, in the past. Usually, when you go back into it you find out that you have lived it, you’ve done that, you’ve let go of that. It doesn’t have its hold upon you anymore.

However, when you go back into it, and you go back and you look at it, you may have freed up kind of a main inner power and focus of yourself, but you will find that there are other components, in your case there were the other therapists or something, there are other aspects in which there is still some adab or something that is necessary in order for that to be aligned, in terms of you, as a process of unfoldment.

Because when you go back into that, those other parts are parts of you. This is like kind of, you might say, a quality in which there are the similitude components that kind of live, or are more closely aligned, in terms of how it is, and who it is, that you are, or have been, as an energetic expression – but may still have mannerisms and characteristics that plague them, or get in their way, thus maybe have to adopt adabs, or establish an understanding, so that there is an alignment, and then that can shift as well.

The theme of the dreaming is a very, very Buddhist concept idea. The theme of the dreaming dealt with the principle that, ultimately, and you look at it in a big enough schematic, nothing actually reaches a state of completion until everything gets there as well. That’s why in really, really deep esoteric thinking you have the bodhisattva mentality in which the idea is, until everything is able to, so to speak, go home, that the bodhisattva stays behind, is constantly working towards everything speeding up, or coming into an attunement, upon which it emerges into the oneness and becomes no longer differentiated, or bifurcated, from that which is its real essence, which is an emptiness, and a wholeness, in terms of an intertwining to all that there is.

So that’s the really, really, really deep seed thought, but in your dream you’re working with similitude. First of all you have reached an awakening inside of yourself so that there is nothing for you to really go back to and have to relive. You’ve done that, and you’ve made that kind of a journey with a key aspect of your beingness. But there are other parts of yourself that you support, or that look to you, that you have to provide an empty space towards and for, so that that can unfold. In other words, it’s like the bell ringer, meaning that you have to lead something forward that can’t find that on its own, and you have done the heavy lifting already, so you have that sense on how to do that.

It’s almost like you’re talking about this in terms of using words of separation because that is how we are inclined to perceive everything in the physical manifestation modality, and for things to go home there can’t be any physical or spiritual illusions that stand in the way. And so when you are going back, you are actually going back to further align yourself with bits and pieces and components of a wholeness, of a oneness, that is you.

In other words, you can have a spark that can follow a focus and attention, that can open up to something more than just what is seemingly available based upon the outer characteristics of life. But as you come to realize that this is an awakening with an aliveness that shifts you to other levels, you then have to work towards continuing to reveal, and awaken, and unveil.

And you’re doing this in terms of, you might say, the lesser aspects of your beingness. Because you can be under, say, a given scenario in which things work out, but if you throw in a crank or a mechanism that is a bit askew from that, things will tend to fall apart. They fall apart because some lesser aspect of your beingness is still carrying some commotion, or something, that skewers the sight, the knowingness, the merged essence of a beingness meant to be.

A journey isn’t really complete without all parts of everything. In other words, there can still be conditions in which something can blink, and those are parts of one’s self yet, and they are all findable, they’re all part in a oneness, they’re all part of manifestation. You can attempt to pull that together. You can tend to rescue that and, in doing so, you create a merging. The merging, the part that is rescued, becomes part of that which is awakened; everything, always, it all wants to be like that. It all wants to get to the point where everything goes back to its essence.

And in terms of that taking place, as that happens, it happens at stages and levels. To begin with it’s kind of like the gaze of something upon life can cause a parting of things, in which, you might say, the karma is altered or changed. It flows differently.

So this is part of this going back and forth that occurs. There’s a reason for it, and the reason is to make for a greater wholeness, to create a complete redemption.

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aloudTaming a wild horse evokes the perfect image of how we harness a natural power in ourselves. At first we won’t have the skills and abilities needed. Yet with continued effort in the right way, slowly we will gain control over the wildness. And it works both ways: we gain the skills of how to act and be, and the energy (horse) moves toward us as our repetitions show our devotion. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in this first dream my brother, who is about four years old, or six years old or something, races straight out, and there’s a horse that’s standing looking straight out, and he runs up to the back of the horse, and he just jumps up, from the back, from the ground. It’s almost like he catapults himself right onto the back of the horse, so he’s positioned on the horse to ride the horse.

I’m stunned by what I see. This is like a wild horse, but it’s a horse that hangs out, or that is part of the environment. In other words, he’s in the backyard, and he’s standing next to a barn that’s there. If I hadn’t seen this whole thing happen with my own eyes, I wouldn’t have believed it to be possible. I mean that was pretty big, a person 4 years old and running up, and then jumping up, and kind of catapulting themselves right off the ground, right onto the horse, and just suddenly then, boom, as if, you know, in riding position.

And so the horse… when this happens the horse is appalled, and it immediately bucks the boy who, you know, is too young to have a good handle at staying on the horse. He bucks the boy off, so the boy goes falling off almost in the direction where he’d come up and, as he’s going off the horse then kicks with his hind feet and propels him. He goes flying and smashes into the ground, and he extends out and he smashes into an object.

But instead of my brother just taking this in as kind of a realization or recognition, in other words realizing that this idea that he had of just jumping on the back of the horse – it wasn’t a good idea. He gets up, and the next thing you know he’s back on the horse again. Well this time the horse is really mad. The horse this time is not going to put with this anymore, so he’s going to rub against the barn, and this time he’s going to injure him so that he doesn’t do this kind of goofiness anymore.

The horse knocked him to the limits of his senses, but didn’t actually hurt him. And I’m sitting there and, even though this whole thing is bizarre to me, and I would not have guessed that it could even happen like this, that my brother would do something like that, my little brother, doing it in some sort of blind stupidity without any common sense. Nevertheless, seeing that the horse has developed a mannerism that could injure him, I step in to protect this from happening.

Very deep dream actually. The simple part of this is, as if I am invincible, invincible meaning like in a quality or characteristic that’s pure or, because it’s in the physical, not yet mature, conscious, or old enough to know that you do not go up against raw power over and over.

You can’t keep that up, especially if you’re not conscious what you’re doing, and know what you’re doing, because from the eyes of an innocent observer, which is a part of the whole that is impervious to my plight and how foolish things are… in other words, there’s a knowing better, there’s a knowing how it all comes together as one.

But when you’re in this amnesia, and you’re seeing this stuff, and you see it in the outer, you don’t see what it really means on the inner. In other words, you don’t see that this is how power is, how there’s a power that penetrates over everything, and instead you’re seeing it in some sort of literal, reflective sense. You know, even the inner has its reflective way. When it’s like that, you’re just kind of stunned and, to begin with, you just stand there frozen. But as you come out of the stupor, you come to recognize that you need to close a gap, bring something back into a union, which is a form of rescuing yourself, i.e., through your brother, doing unto others, to keep him from being hurt. And as long as you see things as separate there is always this condition of something getting hurt.

The deeper meaning of this image is that there is an inner power I feel in my beingness, that wells up inside of me, and in that there is an all-encompassing characteristic and quality that all comes together. And thus it’s like an invincibility because there really isn’t anything going on. It’s when you create the separation, or the bifurcation, that you get all of this other acting up that does it in kind of a defensive reactive mode – when instead it’s meant to just come together as a wholeness, as something that is created in perfect harmony, that doesn’t know that, is still misaligned.

Well, it’s like that on a vibrational level that is, but in the outer world, the collective is committed to keeping me subdued and unconscious. I take a stand on the side of the bold and beautiful, in other words, the innocent, the quality of that 4-year-old, to overcome the power of the collective outer system and flow.

And, of course, we understand this outer system is held in place in its illusory way because of the gravity of things that kind of create this whole appearance that there’s things going on. And now we’re at a point, you’re at a point, your dream is really, really pretty poignant in everything you’re doing you’re doing unto yourself. You’re creating your own spells on yourself. My, oh my that’s a hard one to accept.

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push-big-rockHere is a fascinating dream image and analysis that digs down to the depths of our inner psychologies with a simple message: everything that happens to us, we do to ourselves. And the importance of that becomes clear when we remember that we are the only person who has been with us for every moment we’ve ever experienced, and all moments, great or small, leave an energetic imprint on us. Any psychologies are then created by us, and continue on as an aspect of our lives – first as a protection, but ultimately as a veil. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Okay in the next dream, I feel like I’m in an old building, one made out of stone, and I’ve gone up and I’ve gone into a bedroom and our friend, Rav, comes in dressed kind of in a suit. And I think I do some work, and I bring some money in, to buy this big rock. The rock isn’t there; it’s like a rock that’s more like the size of a bed or something, you know, a big rugged rock. And this big red rock is something that’s going to be moved from some property near where he lives somewhere further north, in a way, onto some other land – and it’ll be my rock.

So I’ve paid the money and given it to him for the rock, and then we both laid down on the bed. He’s dressed in this kind of very formal three or four piece blue suit, and he rolls off the bed. He’s kind of sleeping on the floor, actually rolled up in a sheet, because it feels like some other family comes later. I’m under the impression that Rav will actually die before he can get the rock moved onto the property for me, but he still seems to be alive, which almost is a surprise to me.

I’m not sure what happens, but it feels like then I decide I’m going to go visit where he lives, and then I also want to see the rock. And I seem to climb up through, it’s almost like an old castle-like building. I get up near the top and there’s a lot of rubble and stuff I have to almost step over, and I can look down, I could fall down if I wanted when I go from the room where Rav lives. I look over an area that’s almost like a quarry, where it’s maybe part of the building that’s broken down, and I see the rock down there.

It hasn’t been moved yet, and next to the rock is a partial dead body. And Rav is a scientist; apparently people sometimes bring bodies there and he goes down, he picks it up, he carries it out somewhere because I guess it’s his job sometimes to dissect, or figure out about, dead bodies. I just notice it smells a lot.

Then some of the people maybe find an easier way down, but I decide to climb back up and go in the way I came out. I mean it’s kind of treacherous and some are not sure if some of the bricks and stuff are going to hold, and there’s a shelf with different things on it outside Rav’s window that kind of start to fall down and I have to pick them up and shove them back on the shelf, because I don’t necessarily want to disturb what’s his, but I still have to climb over this rubble to get back into the building, which I do. And then the dream shifts a little.

John: So you’re doing something very tricky in that you’re introducing something as a challenge. In other words, you’re given the imprint that there’s an indulgence, in terms of identifications, that you can do in terms of the framework of outer life in which, when you do that, the bird, or the innerness, gets lost, gets veiled, is hidden.

So what surprised me is you’re now going through motifs about that, that don’t necessarily have to end in some sort of delirium, that there is an option for you to breakthrough, that your focus and attention is seeking to breakthrough.

However, the environment of the situation has a way of keeping you in a trance. And so you’re using a person who has this way, energetically, of conducting themselves, that leaves a knot or a impingement vibrationally in the unfoldment and awakening process. And you refer to that as a rock. Apparently you’re still affected by what has happened when we were living in a situation in which there was kind of like an environment that had been taken in, that we had adopted as part of how we had to cope, which had an atmosphere to it, and about it, that tended to contaminate the quality of a process of awakening. In other words, it violated, you might say, a sacred space.

So perhaps that was a bit of a blindside, for you to see just to what degree that was inappropriate in terms of you relating to yourself, that you were relating to yourself in a way that kept you in a spellbound trance. And so time was provided for that to settle a bit, and it’s almost as if you’re now going back to something that is still malingering, that you weren’t prepared to understand then, or didn’t understand then, but now are being shown the effect of how that has been upon your beingness.

So it appears that you’re doing this in response to something that must be still malingering in your nature, and keeping you out of sync with something, in some fashion, and you’ve been carrying this, and carrying this, and carrying this, and you tend to carry this stuff quietly and can actually even appear to be okay unless one looks at you really subtly or carefully.

So you appear to be addressing that which you’re carrying in terms of the meaningfulness of this as an energetic vibration, per se. And so, in the first dream, you start and you set the context from the standpoint that it has a killing capacity to it, in terms of it obliterating, slaying, that which is divine, or sacred. Alienating you from that space in which there is the treasure within and it’s almost as if you’re doing it with some sort of fervor. You know, you are knowingly doing it with some sort of fervor almost as if there is a kind of latent rage. In other words, it’s a very interesting use of indulgence there, but it’s just an indulgence in an ignorance.

There’s some sort of indulgence that is rooted in an anger or rage so you’re purposely stabbing yourself with this almost. It’s almost as if you’re in a spell and that’s why you’re doing it is part of something like that but that additional information that it is like that is provided in the second dream in terms of the rock that has this knot about it and so you spend this dream not able to pluck this out yet but it seems that that’s what you’re working on doing and as long as it is there unplucked out it has a quality or a characteristic that predominates through that continues to create a kind of blasphemous effect upon your sense of who you are.

So where does this come from? I mean one has to go back, back, back into some chemistry in which you’re made up. You are everything, and you do everything to yourself. So, apparently, a long, long, long time ago, it’s as if you took liberties that you shouldn’t have taken, and now you’re paying the price of the liberties you took, that you did upon another aspect of yourself. In other words, something that’s intertwined and interconnected with you, and you now have to pay the price of that, almost like a type of guilt. And so now that which was seemingly perpetrated and done in a capacity that, at that time, would be something you could construe as being outside of yourself, that really wasn’t outside of yourself because everything is entwined, intertwined.

It really did have something to do with who and what you are, you just didn’t know that at the time. You, in what you did, placed the spell, and you actually placed the spell upon yourself. And because you decided that this spell could be placed long ago, the fact that you now find it placed upon yourself, you’re in kind of a strange Catch-22, because how do you take and contend with this as something that you have done?

When something like this is done, in which you are catching up with the root of it as being something that has to do with a mannerism that you have done to yourself, on purpose, thinking that you were actually just going along in life and doing things towards an outer that was separate. But all along, it is part of you. The degree to which you had done things to yourself, as an outer, has caught up to the point that now you have reached an acuity where you can see that this is all interconnected, and that you are really stabbing yourself.

So how is it that you take that back? How is it that you let go? It’s kind of along the lines, this is an outer way of saying it, it’s kind of along the lines that if you think something that’s one thing and you can kind of sit with that and it will resolve itself, but then when you say it, sometimes it can’t be taken back, and it sets in motion a process and an unfoldment that can come back and be haunting you and haunting you, almost as if it’s in a cursed situation that’s been created because of what took place. And it kind of like, in that second motif, in terms of yourself, but done so in an energetic, inner way.

In other words, you did this. The violation, if you were to state it as a kind of adab, and use a way of speaking that is out of the Bible, “Do unto others as you would do unto yourself.” And then you come to find out that what you are doing unto others, you are doing to yourself. And then what you have done unto others, which is actually done unto yourself, how do you remove that spellbinding condition? In a higher octave of looking at this outside of the moment, or time and space, in other words, looking at a wholeness of energy, what you’re having to do is contend with, and admit, by way of approximate recognition, how you have abused energy.

Now this is very, very hard to do, and for some people when they’re confronted with it they can’t actually see it, and take it in, straightaway. Generally to take something like that straightaway, where you’re the perpetrator of all that there is, on an energetic level that’s what’s always going on, that you somehow or another have shaped everything that there is – that can be a big gulp, and if you fully took and understood that to too great of a degree, it leads to psychosis. It leads to strange, almost schizophrenic mannerisms, even.

It’s easier to pretend, and to believe, and to work through veils that have things retained, sustained, maintained in a separate mannerism. But when you can no longer pretend that way, it can get almost too literal and then everything about yourself almost is like it flips back directly at yourself in every way, shape, form, and regard. There’s nothing that isn’t there of your own manufactured nature.

And so you’re inclined to think, like a relationship for example, that has taken place in some other octave, hasn’t it? No, even that is something that, in the deepest aspect of a oneness of seeing yourself in an all pervasive sense, even that was created as a means of playing with yourself, and even that is an aspect, or function, upon which you hide. And the removing of that can also lead to too great of an acuity that can send you into a warpage.

So what is happening here is you have dreamt to a point where you have come to a decision point where to what degree are there mannerisms, that are like indulgences, that are like aspects of a density veil, to what degree are they to be? Because if they’re not there, will this affect your sanity?

Your second dream is really one of those psychosis kind of things because you’ve hit kind of a level of awareness where you’re on the verge of having to contend with the fact that you did all of this to yourself, and how is it possible to do everything to yourself? That’s where the big league comes in, because you are, and have been, and always have been, everything, from the get go. And it’s just been a game of pretend in terms of there being a this, that, or the other.

And so when you take back the this, that, or the other, you find that how you’ve conducted yourself unto others is actually what you have done to yourself. You’ve always been doing this directly to yourself. That’s a hard note to notice because we always like to have the space of pretension.

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