This dream depicts the dreamer walking around in a lost state, unsure of where to go or what to do – and no one around him can seem to help. This is the state we find ourselves in when we are disconnected from our natural flow. And, since we are taking in energies all our waking moments, we are susceptible to being thrown off course by anything that arises. So the image is pointing to the need to stay connected in any environment; spirituality doesn’t only happen with calm music and incense, it needs to be throughout. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: I start from a kind of an amnesia that’s really intense, and I have this amnesia hit all the time. In other words, just to describe kind of an outer, before we went to the movie, something switched in terms of a clarity and I was getting things clicking together and it felt wonderful.
When I went to the movie it was like just like maybe sometimes overindulging watching something on TV dumbs you down. When I came out of the movie, it was like I was dulled. I mean I enjoyed going to the movie, but the after effect of the movie was a bit of a stupid rub-off, a dullness, instead of a pristine heightened acuity.
And I notice that about things, and it’s not just the movie that does that. I mean, it’s my indulgence in terms of what I look at on the computer. It’s my activities of the day. All of it takes and detracts, or takes one away, from something that can be such a pristine state that surfaces within.
We tend to get this state that surfaces within in this kind of quality, you know, when we do our dreams, and then we have the journeys that we take within, meditative, sleep dreams, whatever you want to call it, and then when we take all of that energy, well, it just has a vibration of its own, when we take it then into the day-to-day in the outer it tends to get numb – but at least it comes back.
Well, in this dream I just start with describing the numbness. And in this dream you and I are staying at a place where the conditions of the area are seedy and marginal. The husband and wife couple that are in charge of this place, that are the owners of this place, barely get by and do not seem to have a clue that this could be more, in other words, about an inner consciousness.
Well, it’s like we’re renting a small row house, because they’re like rectangular things side by side that are pretty blasé, and that’s kind of like the way that appearance is for livability purposes, meaning that it’s very inadequate and a bit disorienting. It can be disorienting because it doesn’t have a cohesion about it. It’s just kind of seedy, and so you’re left in, and caught up in, and find yourself going along with dire outer conditions.
Like I say, it’s a husband and wife that’s there at this place, and this seems to be the only place that is rented. In other words, there aren’t other tenants there, there’s just you and me staying there, and we have something to do in the area.
Because of the nature of the environment, I’m not very clear about what that could be. You seem to be clearer about that. Also the woman at this place is not a happy person, and so it’s like the feminine nature here is such that the woman at the place is not a happy person and I am kind of going along and trusting that you know why we are here, and where we are, in terms of what has to unfold here in this dismal environment.
Well, even though I don’t have a good sense of anything, I just find myself in this condition, I feel that I need to get a little space the next morning, so I take a walk. So I have nowhere to walk to or anything like that. It’s just to kind of stretch out from how this is in kind of its blasé seedy marginal existence.
And so, when I come back, it’s as if there is another little narrow row house that you part the car in, and our car is parked there along with the car that the proprietors put there. When I come back, the car is gone. You’ve gone out on your own, and I have no idea where you went, or how to find you. And I figure that you’re probably thinking that I somehow know more than what I know and can find you, and that you have gone somewhere predictable that I can catch up with – meaning that I’m able to figure out where to look for you. But that isn’t the case at all; I haven’t a clue.
So I figure that maybe the woman of this place can help, that maybe I can rely on her to make some sense out of the situation. In other words, we did stop and stay there, we’re guests and such on a journey, and perhaps she has a sense of where we’re going. If she can say something to me, or tell me something, then I maybe I can catch up, or let go of this trance I’m sitting in.
So I go over to where the hosts reside. You know, I guess I didn’t look that closely the first time, but the second time I come to know that both cars are gone. So I go over to where our hosts reside and the wife has left. She has gone somewhere out, which, of course, compounds the problem because I don’t have a means then to understand what is supposedly going on in the unfoldment.
As unpleasant as she was, I just figured she still has an orientation that can give me some idea of what to do. But the husband’s still there, and he’s a nice enough fellow, but he, too, has checked out and is as helpless as me in understanding anything.
Well, the condition I’m in is, I have no way of calling you, and this guy is that way with his wife. I will just have to be patient, settle back, and figure that at some point you’ll recycle back to this place and pick me up. That’s how this started. It’s kind of a miserable image isn’t it? It gets better.
The dream is taking and placing my poorly developed sensation function in what is a state of imbalance. My repressed functionality has me checked out from any meaningful orientation. I’m going along with such squalor conditions, in other words, I’m not functioning with any kind of impeccability. It is as if I have lost my ability to sort out and cope.
So then the scenario is, is this is a vibrational state parallel to how I was yesterday, and at other times, when I go away from my inner awareness; which is my well being whereabouts having shifted from the outer to an inner awareness. But, of course, I can shift back into that density and lose track of that space within when I miss the reflections and get caught in the outer reflections, as if that energetic movie, or show, or whatever it is that’s going on, is what is real.
In other words, I get stupid and am disoriented in the surrounding outer environment when I allow myself to be taken in by reflective outer conditions and projections. The reason for the dream is to cause me to notice the importance of maintaining an effusive sense of well being. I use the word effusive because that’s kind of an auric overallness that you carry, that is the sight and the balance and makes everything kind of has color when there is that, and which is a state that is meant to be naturally there in that it is noted within and, in noting it within, there is this inner orientation.
When I lose this connectivity, I check out and become dysfunctional. It takes time after getting like this to bootstrap from the density, which is like in a consumed outer condition, a condition in which I have given up on life. In other words, life is from within, and I am just kind of hokey-pokeying about. Until I reinstill to a quickened inner beingness, able to relate to the environment I am in, there is no intertwined sense of well being. Isn’t that interesting? That’s the meditation dream.
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