Doesn’t it always seem the biggest hurdles lie before us just before we make the biggest breakthroughs? On an inner level, that can be because we have traveled the path of least resistance, letting go of what we find easier to face first. So then, when we are ready to move on, the last hurdle is what we have been most hesitant to face. It’s a normal part of any process where we need to grow in ourselves to accomplish something. This dream shows this scenario in very stark terms. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: Well my last dream was so loud I lost some of my earlier dreams. In the last dream I’m like a young girl in high school. I’m a senior; it’s near the very end of the school year.
And, for some reason, I haven’t gone to school that morning. I’m at home. I’m downstairs and my mother’s gotten a new little couch, it’s almost like a love-seat size that she wanted for a dance room in the house. And so she’s kind of put it against one wall, and then she’s moved some other chairs out in front of it so that you kind of create a room inside of a room.
And I’m looking at that and wondering in a way why she got that one because I knew there was another couch that would’ve worked better, that was going to be available, that would’ve pulled out into a bed if she wanted a dance studio room – but she got that one.
I’m feeling some tension, and I go upstairs, and there’s like a wide open room upstairs with light coming in, and there’s two beds in it. And I have a younger brother who’s like a toddler, who’s in the other bed, and I seem to just be resting. I go over to the bed nearest the door and I’m just resting for a few minutes there with my boyfriend. It’s like I’m wondering, in a sense, why I’m there, but I can feel this tension.
When this man who’s my father in the dream comes upstairs, that’s when I feel all this tension that I’d been feeling in the dream. And he goes over to the bed and he starts to molest my brother, who’s just this toddler, and suddenly I’ve had enough. I realize his status kind of held the whole house captive, had everybody in fear.
So this time I go over and I make him stop, and I slap him really hard, and grab my brother. It’s like I’ve kind of had enough of whatever was going on in the household. And then I must have gone to the police after that. I don’t see that, but I see myself a day or so later being at school, and kids at school were wearing the same colored outfit in support of me because it’s like the case is being heard in court that day.
My attorney was down at court, I guess so my dad gets prosecuted. And I’m waiting for the attorney to come and tell me how court went. And I’m realizing it didn’t matter that much that I had missed school that day because I was a senior, and it was close to the end of the year, and that was all I remember of the dreaming.
John: It’s an interesting scenario you’re presented with, in that you’re coming to an awareness in an overall environment that you’re in, meaning that something has been opening up and maturing as a process, that has gotten you to a point where you’re basically on the verge and ready to be able to very shortly go out on your own.
And that there’s very little left yet for you to have to study or do, in other words, you’re at the very end of more or less a cycle of learning, from which you’ll then be able to be independent and on your own.
But you’re not quite independent, and there is still something that is still holding you back, kind of a mannerism in your environment – in your family – something that hasn’t been dealt with, that needs to be contended with before you can come into your own. And it has to do with an aspect in which you are abusing, and doing, something that is damaging to your process of unfoldment.
And, of course, this is a part of a process in which something needs to have been caught up with, contended with. I mean it has the appearance of something that’s pretty dense, and really quite out of place, especially in comparison to the fact that you’re ready to graduate and go out on your own.
And yet there’s still this very backwards thing that exists, that holds something back a lot from being able to have a strength to be on its own, keeps it repressed from being able to come out and be free. Something that you were able to kind of ignore, or go through, and get to the point where you got to, but now that you’ve gotten to this point, you have to break that spell, as well, as kind of a last thing before you can actually fulfill the last little tidbit of your education that has you being free, graduating out on your own very shortly.
And, to do so, you have to take a stand, and that stand is not a type of position that is easy to take because it requires you to go up against your family, to a certain degree, in order to cause it to be more responsible, in order to get it to drop a way of being, a waywardness that is destructive.
All of this is actually part of your process. In other words, you can miss school, the last days of school, you can miss some of those last days of school in order to do this, plus the whole process of your schooling is something that involves not just you, but it involves the whole evolutionary class which is there to support this breakthrough process, which is a process that is a breakthrough for everyone.
Interesting huh? So the question is, what in the heck are you talking about as the breakthrough process? I mean the dream doesn’t say what it is. The dream doesn’t indicate in what regard or way you’re emerging in terms of a newfound inner-to-outer freedom, because it’s an outer freedom in that you’re going to be graduated and free. It’s an inner awakening that causes you to contend with something that needs to now be contended with. And it is something that affects the whole, because that process that you’re involved in all gets involved in its support of you making this threshold breakthrough.
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