The Steps of Life

ma0sdefault2For a person who finds themselves on a spiritual journey, there is often a moment when, in looking back at their life, events that didn’t seem to make any sense suddenly could be viewed as being a stepping stone on a bigger path. And events in a life, as well as the dream images, are constantly trying to nudge a person, first toward the purpose of life, and then toward their purpose within that. Why would it be like that? Because humans have freedom of choice, so it’s not automatic for us to respond. We have to agree to it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in part of my dream, the part that I remember less well, it felt like that I was going into a room I maybe saw my old friend, but he was there with somebody. But as I would go back and forth into that room, I didn’t necessarily want other people I was with, especially if they were younger, to see him because he smoked. It’s like I didn’t want them exposed to the smoke – but it didn’t seem to bother me.

In that same sense, it felt like I was trying to help some people find some places to park some vehicles, and there might be some horses that would park there, too, but the way it was laid out there might be a bus that would come, then there might be a little parking area and you might have to park it directly across from each other. And, again, I was concerned about whether people would be able to breathe correctly if they were right across from something that had exhaust.

But the main part of the dream that went on and on and on had less images and it was more like I was either going back and forth, or up and down, all the time between two areas. And again kind of concerned a little with breathing right, and maybe concerned a little with whether other people saw some of what I saw, not particularly wanting them to, but mostly I remember that sensation of going the back and the forth or the up and the down all the time, and that seemed to be what I was doing most of the dream. It didn’t have images with it, it was more of a sensation.

John: You’re doing the technique. I’ll tell you the dream behind the technique thing. I wrote up the technique and then you just were describing yourself trying to do the technique.

So, in the dream, there are superimposed designed steps that unfold. Of course you can take and try to walk through the field of those steps, because you are that whole process that’s evolved. Or you can just look at this in the generic terms that there are these steps that unfold.

In other words, as you go along, and you’re doing things in life, you are in the outer. You don’t realize that there’s something else going on inside of you, and so things just keep unfolding for the longest time. You’re not aware of there being something else.

But then there comes a point when you realize, and this kind of hits you by surprise, that everything that you do is part of a designed plan, and practically all of the steps that you take, what you’re thinking that you’re doing that generally is associated with some particular perspective or situation that you’re living in, behind each unfoldment is something else that’s inflecting from more deeply.

So what’s happening is there is this master design over things, and each of us then goes through these steps that are all in conjunction with this master design. And first of all you start off as a demerge. That’s a step which means you don’t have a physical body or anything like that, you’re just a vibration, and then you just keep evolving with these vibrations, going through things with these vibrations.

Well, initially those steps are an unfoldment design, and that what they do as an unfoldment, as a predestined unfoldment I should say, the design comes into place after you get to a particular point where a signature note has to be imputed into the human being. And that step, then, is the me, you know the quality or the characteristic within the whole that is you, that is a little different note than something that is just ordained, predetermined to unfold.

So the way to visualize this, and the way you feel this, is you are a type of will that’s unfolding that hasn’t yet constellated, at the very beginning it hasn’t yet constellated to anything that has a type of consciousness. And then when it gets to the point where it is meant to have a consciousness, then there’s the imprint that takes place, and then after the imprint takes place, then there’s a whole bunch of steps that occur as that little imprint then is part of what unfolds.

In other words, you’re biased based upon the signature note that you came that you had as one of those steps. And each signature note is a little different. And so there is a design, or master plan, or predestination in terms of the unfoldment, but with each person taking and going through each of those designed steps veiled, or biased, by their own little signature note.

And then as you get towards the end of the process, in other words, it’s like there’s a little beginning, and then there comes the signature note that’s your definition, and then there’s a whole sequence of steps. Within that sequence of steps are steps that you’re taking that a teacher can see is the journey of that soul in relationship to its quality or signature note.

And for the longest time that whole process in between, that whole process in between is kind of a bewilderment because you’re buying into everything that happens at each of those steps. Then when you get far enough into that, when it’s determined that you need to start to inflect back to what all of that was about, you then have two steps right together, one step and two steps.

Then you have these two steps way far in the process and those two steps wake you up, they may start to bring you back. You start to for the first time realizing that there has been a design and, as a result of those two steps there, you’re at this point of where you’re starting to recall. You’re starting to realize that if you were to look back at the whole unfoldment process and all of the steps that you’ve gone through in life, that you thought was about this and thought was about that, you come to realize that you were completely wrong. It was about something else too at a much deeper level, and you took it to be this way and it was about that.

So now you’re able to tell that you’re part of something that is an unfolding divine. Now that that is waking up, now that that other is there where your attention switches to the whole – because you’re actually starting to look at yourself as a component of the whole, when before you had a kind of conflict of interest introduction there.

That was the mood and the tone that you unfolded by, so for the longest time you didn’t realize that there was something of a deeper depth underneath that signature note that really inflected what was the design, and how you’re part of the design, have always been part of the design, and that there is this preordained, or predestined quality to your being.

You come to figure and find that out when you hit those other two “me” steps way, way, way down the way. That’s when, to your shock and surprise, you come to realize that there’s a meaningful synchronicity, there’s a meaningful coincidence, to all of this.

When those steps come in that is when you’re able to then kind of bring the future to the present. What does that mean? What that means is that now all of a sudden you start to see that this has all been a design, and that you have been living in accordance with the design. And now all of a sudden you are able to ask the question, what’s going on? And kind of have an answer in terms of your connection. You can kind of see a linkage, an intertwining.

So the steps of life, then, instead of being a bewilderment, become something that is knowable, something that you can accept, something that you can go along with. And so now what continues to unfold is a closer and closer recognition into the overall, into the meaningfulness of something that is the big picture – outside of the alienation of the original one signature note that still has to sort itself out and be rescued. And as this gets more and more pristine, that is when you start to catch up with the vibration that is in keeping with the orders, that turns you back into the process of traveling in God, we’ll say, where you’re connected to the design.

When that opens up, that’s when it all starts to make sense. Every bit of how you’ve been starts to make sense. You can accept that. That’s when you can then accept your true inner power. That’s what it means to accept your inner power is to know the wakeup of those two steps of Kundalini energy inside of yourself – and then you follow in those footsteps, those footsteps follow out in terms of listening and abiding in that.

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Being Engulfed

engulfed0It’s much easier to talk about the idea of surrender on a spiritual path than to actually do it. These dream images show that, and the form it takes is the image of being stalked by a murderer, and then of being suspected of being a murderer. The seriousness of those ideas shows how serious the concept is to the dreamer, and yet we know that when we are being chased in a dream we need to stop running and allow ourselves to be caught – so a deeper inner connection can be made. If spirituality is to become part of something greater than ourselves, we’re going to have to find a way to let go to it.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well I felt like I had two dreams I pulled out, and I was having some problems with a little bit of cramping in my legs when I straightened them out, so it was like that would pull me out to the surface more than I liked to be.

But I’m not sure of the order of the dreams, but I think in the first dream there’s some guy that’s maybe killed a few women, who’s stalking me. And he tries to do things like come through a drainpipe into the house, or some kind of a pipe that goes into the house, or at the office or somewhere. But I kind of know that he’s stalking me, but I have to keep checking all the time when I go places to see if he’s showing up or not – so I can keep him away from me.

And it’s also like trying to sometimes convince other people that he is doing this, so they can get him. I do seem to be able to get away from him, or to expose him if he shows up. And that was that dream.

John: That dream causes me to remember another little dream that happened inside, in which people are taking on a particular demeanor inside – and they’re not allowed to take on that demeanor in terms of what’s coming.

And it comes right into the house and it completely disorients you, and it’s like this huge presence that can completely engulf you. I have to jump off to one side, you know, and I’m inside trying to, before it comes all the way in, I’m actually even trying to warn people that whatever’s going on inside there doesn’t need to happen, that something is impending. And it’s just like this energy and, for a split second, I even stepped into it and all frames of reference are gone, all frames of reference. It was an engulfing thing.

Then I stepped back away and woke up and realized that this is going to engulf every… This is here. It’s coming inside. It’s going to engulf everything. And so what is stalking you is similar to that vibration of something that swallows the density and the nuances of one’s makeup – once one drops those mannerisms, ways that they project themselves, and carry themselves. Then you can function, but until you do that sort of thing kind of plays upon you and drags at your attention all the time. And everyone has that dragging at their attention in some fashion or another, and that’s just how they are. And that is not what is supportable anymore, because when you support that that takes you away from yourself.

So what’s behind everything that is pushing people to do this, and to do that, is this deeper vibration that is trying to come through. And if they can screen out the outer conditions, and the outer mannerisms, of things, but they still carry in their being as a vibrationalism as if it’s important, if they can let go of that, then they can be engulfed.

It’s an engulfing energy and, instead of allowing that to happen, it’s easy to just settle for something that you can make a big deal about, as a dharma, or frame of reference, or the idea of being stalked. That’s all a doing, and that all has to do with pointing one’s attention towards something outwardly, because inwardly it would be all-engulfing. And who can allow the all-engulfing to happen? Because that will take away all frames of reference, frames of reference that people cling to for their own idea of getting by.

Jeane: In the other dream I have it’s almost like a flip of that one. Almost like a flip side of someone stalking me. In this dream, I’m more being spied on because they think that I’m the one that’s been going around killing people. They think I’ve been going around killing people, so they’re trying to catch me doing it.

And I have a boyfriend who’s a detective, and then there’s a girl that maybe I work with or something that I know, but they’re always popping up places trying to catch me killing someone. I just think this whole thing is so absurd, I just want my boyfriend to, like, get in the car and we’re going to go where we’re going to go.

And yet they keep popping up around the corner, or doing this or that, trying to spy on me to catch me doing what they think that I’m doing that I’m not doing. So my feeling in this dream is just one of kind of exasperation, like would he just get in the car so we can get on with it because what they’re looking for is not happening.

John: That’s an interesting way... The first dream is projection, too. In other words, something is coming, but it doesn’t come all the way through, and it hits some little thing where there is something that you still feel or contend with, and when you contend with anything you have to contend with it in relationship to how it is that you’re designed, in terms of your challenges, your veils.

You have to contend with what that is like for you yet, and when you are caught in an energetic vortex like that, and then have a sense of something so much more, it’s a sensation of being stalked. In this case, you had the good sense to just stop and observe. When you stop and observed, you realized you were creating all of this. That’s what your second dream was doing.

Dreams that I’m classifying dreams in terms of the way they’re coming from and such, as energetics in manifestation, this should be a little like a Vishnu dream. And your dreams are more of a Vishnu nature and, oddly enough, mine are too only slightly differently. They’re Vishnu acknowledging the Brahma energy that is imminent and is rapidly approaching, and soon to be all-engulfing. And in order to hold that stillness I can’t be caught up in anything in particular – or I will be in a trance over having done that.

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Lifting the Stigma

airgarten13An impending marriage in a dream speaks of a union that needs to be completed. But the dream is speaking of deeper levels, beyond events in waking life. So the union is an internal one, but we still need to feel worthy and accepted, inner part to inner part. In these images we see the dance of letting go that is needed for two inner aspects to complete their union in a way that is free and natural.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So the dream I had this morning, when it started out it’s like I have a guy I’ve become engaged to and his name is something like David Cook. His family doesn’t like me. He takes me to meet his mom and dad and I can tell they don’t really like me, and they don’t like him getting engaged.

In that same early part of the dream it feels like I wander off somewhere and I’ve gone into something like an antique shop and there’s an old lady there. She has some things in this antique shop including this one kind of collage painting. It’s not quite a painting. It’s like a combination of a painting and collage, and it’s kind of interesting and ugly, both.

Well, then, I leave that, and I find that I’ve flown away to another country. It feels like Africa somewhere. I’m in a very nice city, and I’m going to stay in a nice hotel with a couple, it feels like aunts or female relatives, and a guy I really like, it feels like you, and we’re staying together. And because we’ve been out roughing it up, when we first get to this hotel and it feels like one of the bellmen comes actually and gets up on the bed and pulls a whisker off my chin – because I hadn’t been able to pluck it because we’ve been out in the wild roughing it.

It’s almost like a hotel suite, like we’ve got a common living area, separate bedrooms, and the women that I know in the family are in another area. Well, I get up and I walk around in the neighborhood by myself. I see there’s kind of almost a dangerous area right next door, and there’s some kids walking into it. I wandered in there and it’s kind of dark, but they seem nice. I just was a little intimidated because the area looked dangerous.

I’m starting to go back to where you and I and my aunts are, and I suddenly realize that the boyfriend’s mother and maybe another relative are in town and they’re coming over. So they’ll see that I’m actually with you, which means I’m going to have to tell him the engagement’s off. And, at the same time, I’m just struggling because I can’t remember their name. I don’t even know if I can remember his name and I have to introduce him to these female relatives and I don’t want to feel like I’m so callous I can’t even remember their names, you know. And I’m struggling and struggling and struggling and finally I remember like his name is something like David Cook, so their name must be Cook.

So once they come over I realize they hadn’t been happy with the relationship anyway, so once they see that I’m with you or whoever it was I was with that I’ll still have to tell him, but that’ll be handled.

And then, in the middle of this trip, I seem to suddenly fly back to the States. I go into the antique shop. It felt like the older woman that I had seen before had died. In the antique shop I run into my cousin and he’s kind of curious because he’s traveled in Africa, too, so he knows what it was like where I went.

And I almost knock over this collage and painting that that woman had from before. It’s really kind of ugly so I’m wondering if I should buy it or not, but I decide not to because I notice that the new owner of this antique shop is looking at me because he saw I had an interest in it, but I decide not to buy it.

And then I’m flying back the next day to where I was in Africa, or whatever the foreign country was.

John: The first part, the very, very beginning, is where you put a stigma on yourself in which there’s something that’s not approved. And that something that’s not approved causes a repression to occur that you fight, by way of trying to get out of the equation, but you still carry the quality of whatever it was that was taken in and deemed unapprovable.

So you go into an antique shop, so in the antique shop you discover something that inflects, that inflects. In other words, because of some sort of rejection, or some stigma, that was placed on you, you have taken and now repressed, in your being, as a consequence of that. But just because it’s repressed doesn’t mean that it still doesn’t cause you to come across something that stands out, so when you go into the antique shop enough of that surfaces so that you see this old collage that’s got all these paintings or colors and stuff on it, but you don’t know what to make out of it necessarily because you have it repressed.

So then you’re able to fly off, or you’re able to be removed from that which is suppressing you. In other words, all you know is you can fly or you suddenly had to get out of the scenario you’re currently in.

And so that’s where something opens up inside of you. So, what it means is it’s like you’ve extricated yourself. See, this is a multistep dream. The first step has to do with the stigma that’s placed on you in some sort of rejective mode, that sets the tone to how it is that you can be.

And that stigma continues, but like all stigmas that cause you to go into a denial state or whatever, or into a reclusive state, all these stigmas have something that you can see through the stigma. You can’t see through the stigma, but the stigma is visible in terms of out of conduct. And so it leaks, in other words, stuff that’s suppressed. I mean you’re still doing a good job of keeping it as the stigma that is covering up something that’s important, but there’s leakage when you come into an antique shop and you see this collage that’s just a bunch of dirty old paints and whatnot, but it’s interesting to you. And just enough of that has come out so that you now know that you need to be oriented in a different way.

You need to break free of whatever it is that’s bouncing around inside of you in a capacity that’s repressed. You don’t know what it is, you just break free, you just break the stigma. How do you put words on how you break the stigma? Well you broke it, and the next thing you know you’re in another country. And you’re now able to live and be in this new state the way you’re meant to be. And whatever it is that gets in the way is removable, can be plucked out.

Jeane: That was when I went outside. I kind of saw a rough part of the neighborhood, and then I realized that the family, of the guy, that didn’t like me were going to be visiting and it’s like I couldn’t even remember their name at first.

John: So what this means is the stigma has suddenly become empty. So now you could go up and relate to that which is peculiar, where the stigma is, and it just has no effect on you whatsoever. You can’t even remember why it was that it was such a peculiarity, or problem, for you.

So you go back to the antique shop, and now you recognize the value of what it is that’s opened up inside. And now you can take this to wherever you need to take this. You know, you no longer sit in the mystique area where things flicker because of the stigma. You’re now able to go where it’s free. And the stigma that has followed you to Africa is to the dark place of yourself, is also no longer an issue. So you don’t go back into your old way. You go into this whole new dynamic in which the stigma that’s lifted.

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