Seeking You

what-arngWhat does it tell us about life that our dreams are always trying to help us – in an impartial way? They don’t scold us, or punish us – the images are neutral to the subject, it is our reactions that we experience – but they do show us where we are and what we are wrestling with inside. It implies that there is some reference point that we are seen as being close to or far away from. And that reference point may have to do with our human possibility and purpose. Our inner life may know more about us than we consciously do. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the next dream, I’m actually living in the airport, and it feels like I go out into life and come back to the airport a lot. I’m living in the airport with a number of other people.

And then there’s a point when it feels like we’re going to have some downtime, and I’m kind of observing what different people want to do. And I’ve gone out at one point and I realized I wanted to go across kind of a chasm, and there is a railroad track to my right that goes across, like a railroad bridge. And then where I am I could actually take a board that goes down into the chasm and kind of ride it, almost like a swing, to the other side and then it will swing back. You know, it sways to one side and the other.

But I realize it’s so far across that, although I could do it, I even have the sense I’ve done it before, it isn’t really the wisest way for other people to get across that space. So I kind of drop that idea, and then I have several men that seem to want to go spend some time with me; they’re going to take me out with their car because we have this downtime.

And then I’m observing one man who actually wants to go hang glide, and I’m telling him a place to go hang glide off Nova Scotia where it feels like I even know people who’ve done it in the past, or there was a point in time when I could do it. And then although I’m going to go out with someone later, it feels like I’ve taken someone else’s car for a minute and want to go down to a spot, but it’s a pickup.

When I get into it I don’t have a key, but I seem to be able to get it to start anyway. Then I go down the road and I kind of go down a hill at one point to almost like a picnic area, and I want to turn around and come back because I have a date for later, but I can’t get the pickup to run anymore, but I do get back somehow. I don’t know if I get back with the pickup.

Now that I’m back, and I have a date in awhile, I start talking to a couple of women in the house because I notice I have this problem with the heels of my feet, and the heels have suddenly become like a lot of little layers of skin that have become completely mushy. And I can even pull off one layer and underneath it it’s going to be very mushy, but I realize this is a condition that actually has a name, and one of the other people in the house that hasn’t left yet, or in the airport, is a nurse, and because it’s a condition that has a name I know I can kind of go to the nurse and probably figure out how to fix it but I have to go do that before I can go out on my date.

So I’m going off to find the nurse and I think that’s when I woke up.

John: So the best way to understand this dream is to look at the saying, that one of the definitions of God is: God exists between the perineum and the heart.

And so what you’re using for your in-between condition is living at the airport. And so when you then go out of the airport, initially you can take a little light with you and start a vehicle. But then that light quickly dissipates when you go away from yourself into the outer, and then the vehicle won’t run anymore.

And so you’re finding yourself… you have your notions as to what it is that is drawing your attention in the outer, but you’re meant to be at this in-between zone at the airport. And when you sit in this in-between zone, when you’re able to be in this in-between zone, you instead of mixing it up in life and getting involved in the activities of this, that, or the other kind of in this no man’s land, actually not really existing. You’re not able to actually exist in terms of a persona. You have to invisiblize yourself, or become empty.

When you’re able to do that you find something of value. You come back to this because there’s something of value there, and you’re not meant to go wandering off trying to do this, that, or the other. Your feet aren’t designed for that. I mean, yes, they’re designed to be caught in the illusion of wandering around in the outer, but just like you lose your light, that breaks down doesn’t it? Things break down for you, and you come back to this zone in order to get healed up again.

It’s an unusual dream in that you have to now put this together in relationship to the other dream. In the second dream you’re kind of like using the airport scenario as this emptiness place. In the prior dream you’re using the scenario between the airport and the airplane as the emptiness place. So when you put the two together, the zone between the plane and the actual airport is the place where you need to hold onto an invisibleness, or an emptiness, so that you’re not seen in some capacity that affects the well being of anyone, so they actually then have no problem looking at something about you, and seeing something about your light that they like, and you’re not going around trying to make the light glow because you’ve taken yourself out of the equation. You’re not pushing anything.

And so they then can easily come across and, to the degree to which there’s something about you that affects or touches them, to the degree that there is somehow a reflective process, that process, that quality, that aspect is really said as they being able to be in your heart. And that the experience is not one of trying to perceive outwardly, but the experience is one to reach a point where someone can actually be in your heart. You are such a non-threat or factor that they can abide in that, in terms of themselves, and that is what causes a coming to know something to happen.

But then you’re in the airport, and so in the airport you’re kind of on the cusp of this deeper awareness. And then in the airport where you’re coming and going and beating yourself up, tearing your feet apart, tearing your feet up, kind of knowing it doesn’t work that way, but not completely – as opposed to on the tarmac where your focus and attention is on avoiding the process of having to be something in terms of acceptance and relatability.

So the importance of the dream is to understand where this quality that flickers around in you is aiming at and coming from. So when you go around and you feel that deep down you really don’t want to relate to this, or get involved in that, and you want to feel more alone, where is that space coming from? That’s a vibration. That vibration is kind of coming from the fact that you know that what is best is when you don’t have to act out in any capacity one way or another. You don’t have to be on cue, because that is not what I’m about; I need a greater quietness, a greater silence.

For you to see yourself like that means that you’re going to be immediately exhausted and drained and confused and out of touch with yourself. So when you feel that kind of quality of a vibration inside of yourself, it is like a tuning fork inside of yourself. It’s like an echo of something seeking you, trying to access, trying to reach you. It’s like a quality, it’s like a hint in terms of how to be.

So that’s the importance of a dream like that is it tunes you in to kind of the energetic vibration that makes more sense than the vibration that’s always looking outward and trying to feel itself in relationship to the outer. That’s quite a dream. Gosh, it’s amazing that these dreams can be like this.

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