An Expressive Quality

Paul Kuczynski

It’s interesting to ponder where good writers get their story ideas from. Some, certainly, come from life experience, but how many stories that we’ve loved over the years have come from dreams? This dream has a love affair between two women, a new job at a city newspaper, the helping in the arrest of a dangerous man, and then the running along a roof top to find some new clothes. All these cinematic images involve inner aspects of the dreamer, and show how her unconscious tries to summarize a state of affairs between different elements within. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my dream I’ve moved to the city. It’s nighttime and I’ve gone to a woman’s apartment. She’s a young woman; it feels like she’s my lover, but she’s also a lover to a number of other people, several other people there also.

And it feels like I’ve been with her, and then she’s going to be going to a party. So I go with her, initially, to a party at this man’s apartment. I’m just there briefly. Then I come back to her place, and I think she tells me that it’s like we can only be together every so often, we can’t have too much contact.

And I’m informing her I’ve gotten a job in the city at the newspaper, and then I go from there to the job. It’s a part of the newspaper that’s being run by a fairly older, almost elderly, Chinese woman in this part of the newsroom, and it seems to be part of the newsroom where you go out and gather and check facts, behind other people writing the stories.

And even though I’ve just started there a short while before, she’s already pulling me in to kind of work as her right-hand person. I realize some of the other people there are a little miffed by that, and it also means that what I thought was a temporary job I’m beginning to feel I may be doing a little bit longer because it seems kind of important to do.

And then I leave, and what I get involved in in this next part of the dream is, it feels like the man whose apartment I had visited earlier, who is throwing a party, is wanted by the police or other authorities now, because he’s doing something that’s poisoning the atmosphere, or hurting people. And I help them catch him. And he has some kind of an instrument that he uses, that’s causing the harm, and it’s like I go in and unplug this.

Plus I’m trying to find out what things he might have contaminated that people could touch, and it’s like a white powder or something he sometimes leaves on the wall, and some of it falls in the water and poisons his own pet. So I help the police capture and hold him.

And then there’s a slight shift, and I seem to be going somewhere on my own, except instead of being down on the road, I find myself on the roof of this large complex building – like I go down to the edge and realize it’s too far to jump down. Then I notice there’s several doorways that lead into the building from the roof, so I reject the first doorway, and I go over to the edge of the building where there’s another roof and I go in.

And the first thing I see is a shop, and I realize if I’m staying longer I might need some more clothes, but the first shop I go into everything seems too fluffy or frilly or for parties or things, so I leave that shop. And I suddenly see a shop that I could walk into, that in past dreams has always been on the ground floor of any dream I’ve had, but I recognize it because it’s a shop where I can always go in and find something that will fit, or work for me, except now it seems to be on an upper floor. That was the whole dream.

John: You’re working with the polarity of a closeness, that is a closeness to kind of a feminine understanding of things. You’re working with that, and so you have this quality that enables you to be touched in some way, and then that quality then opens up to where you’re able to resonate or reflect in a particular way; project out in a particular way.

So basically what you are seeing is that your adherence to a certain quality of inner balance has led to a certain kind of expressiveness, that you have in your nature, that can exude out, and be visible, and reveal things, and it’s a direct correlation to having gone to a certain inner depth inside of yourself for you to be able to do this.

However, as you do this you jar and you shake things up, in terms of the masculine side of yourself, that is still guilty of something, and that has a certain quality of imbalance. So when you have a certain quality of imbalance, the typical thing to do is the feminine tries to figure out how to please that, but you’re going back and forth has opened up and revealed something to which you recognize there is this imbalance, in a certain masculine way, and you have learned, instead of trying to please it, you’re recognizing the imbalance and can denote how it is that that needs to be dealt with, arrested, or whatever.

With this dream you’re going backwards and you’re pointing out that, for example the first part, this kind of corresponds to the feminine side of your nature having in the past sat in kind of a quiet-tudeness, basically working on the ground floor of things, and was able to develop a certain sight and balance, or access a certain innerness of your own being.

You had to do that in order to catch up with things because you had them misaligned. You had a misaligned understanding of how the masculine was and, as a consequence, it affected you in strange ways, which is how blind-side things work. And after developing a bit of that which is actually difficult to have to stay on the ground floor because it’s quiet and out of sight, you have developed a certain understanding at a depth of motion, of movement inside of yourself, and so now you can basically express this, or do this, at a higher level in a more dynamic scenario of expansion.

So what’s interesting is you had the part of yourself that has to delve down at a certain depth and that’s called into manifestation. That’s where it was feminine, or into catching up with where it is and how it is that you really need to feel. And that’s kind of almost a condensed quality. And then from that condensed quality, then you have an expressive quality that’s able to come out in which you’re able to shine certain feminine values, and views, and beliefs and whatnot that have a nice little twang to them.

And so your higher self is saying, okay, this is the scenario you were in, this is what happened when you were natural, this is what you need to now see, and this is a greater freedom that you now have because something has shifted and changed in terms of how you’re able to be. That’s a psychology dream.

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A Side Issue

communicateIf we could sum up the history of the human race thus far, it would be hard to sum it up more concisely than to state: they put almost all their time and effort into unimportant things. And that’s a problem, because we’ll only progress at the things we put our focus on (think: money, military, sex, etc). Said another way, we humans don’t spend enough time trying to understand what we are, why we are designed the way we are designed, and what our lives should really be used for. And, even if one doesn’t believe in the universe having a higher purpose, shouldn’t humans devise a purpose for themselves that’s better than what we currently see? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And so the dream is a dream in which it’s very much similar to the second part of your dream in which you have all of the various aspects. You even have the play or whatever it is that’s the central piece, that’s the overall, and then you have all of the various component pieces. And they all are significant in their own way, but they don’t go anywhere without the central play and that’s how this is.

In the dream, I start off where I take apart various saws that had been assembled, thinking I could use the blades only in a better capacity. The saws that were of different sizes that were put together, and there four of them, cost $70 apiece to creatively assemble. And so I’m realizing a lot of value is getting lost by having to strip something back.

And then I come to realize that the setting I’m in is I am actually a person who has been hired to take a product that the family has established, and this is like a particular family of which I am to live with, or I’m taken into the family, and what this family has produced is a whole number of things that have won awards, mostly books and stuff that have won multiple awards in terms of the amazing qualities of what they depict. And so I’m hired to try to facilitate this coming across better. In other words, it’s one thing to get the recognition in the select circles, but it’s another thing to disseminate it.

So to start off with, just to kind of go at this slowly, I take a product of a lesser stature, one of the books that wasn’t considered that serious of a subject matter, and yet this is one of the various books but it’s not one that won any awards.

Well, I take this one and I attempt to mount it as if in a permanent display, so I drive a nail through the book in an attempt to permanently mount it on a display stand, but I can’t get the nail to go into the stand properly. And the nail keeps bending, and I’m holding it, and pounding it, and it’s just very, very strange.

And I look at this and I’m thinking this nail’s a cheap nail that’s bending, and I hold it with my fingers to keep it from bending, continuing to try to hit it. And even the top cap of it breaks off. So the whole thing is ridiculous.

And then a member of the family comes over and says, “Yes, there is all of this other, and why display this item when there are all these other books that have won all kinds of recognition and awards in terms of the subject matter of what they bring out?”

So I take the nail out and I realize that I had driven it through the pages even, which is again ridiculous, because even if this lesser whimsical book was important to read, how can you do that if you drive the nail through the book. And so I was fortunate however, and no one seemed to pay much attention to that awkwardness. No one was upset. I guess they figured I just didn’t quite understand or get it, you know the fact that I was looking in a way that wasn’t paying attention to that which could be integrated more fully, in terms of an overall acceptance, because it had already been recognized to be important.

And so they take me over to where everything that was created by this family, to which I am now part of the family, but it’s my role to get it out there, or to market it, for them, and among the creative products there was a chess set they have for sale for over $700. And so they’ve shown me all this stuff and then here we go to a secondary item like a chess set that was created kind of as a whimsical thing again, and I look at the chess set and say, “You know, I can buy a chess set like this from an antique mall for $200.”

So even after the fiasco that I had been in, in which I had taken some crazy item and was actually beating it up by putting the nail through the center of it, they didn’t seem to be phased at all by what had occurred before and they were interested in my input. And so then a whole discussion ensues as to how to integrate the point that I made that this is priced at $700, and you can buy it for $200, and someone mentions that this is new and so that should matter. And in the end, as I’m waking up, I’m saying, “Can you make a profit if you were to sell it for $500 and, if it’s a slow mover, then we don’t ever do this again.”

So what is going on? The dream is indicating that I am part of a large overall family, it’s a family but it needs to take what it has opened up and reached to which there is a high recognition in terms of something on an inner level of society, and that needs to be disseminated into the whole.

And, in the dream, I have not yet found the way in which that is best accomplished – which means I’m not dwelling properly upon what is the dynamic, the overriding and overall dynamic. And so to highlight the fact, first I immobilize that which has been done, you know pounding a nail in something that’s fortunately insignificant.

So I’m looking at the wrong thing, and then actually going into a denseness with that – and that’s the book – plus, I’m also taking apart the means originally devised for splitting things into finished products, taking the saw and just taking the whole caricature of the saw that’s various sizes to be able to do various kinds of cuts. I’m taking that off, so I just have the various sized blades. So everything is in a state of a kind of flip-flopping and, eventually, I am shown what needs to excel, that needs to be held in high esteem, in terms of the world. And instead of sticking on a side issue, to instead look at this which stands out.

The meaning is, that which is most important to the overall of life, deemed by life to be most important, is not presented in a way for all to see, appreciate, and enjoy. The amazing creativity lies dormant. It is established with the family, but needs to reach beyond that and into society. Society has already acknowledged that it’s important, but doesn’t have the means to fully take it in.

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Pulling Together


If we follow the analysis of this dream, we can see how each element adds to the overall picture and understanding of what the dream is trying to communicate, yet it is not using images as literal messages, but as the essences of the images. For example, a dynamic redhead represents an inner catalyst for something to happen, and she helps the action move forward. And everyone is going to a play at the theater, and a play, in its essence, is a troupe of individuals working together to create something greater. So as dream imagery unfolds, it speaks to us through the essences of things we already understand – because our unconscious creates them for us personally. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In a dream, in which I’ve gone from where I’m staying to next door, and there’s a lady there that’s a seminar leader I’ve known in the past, who’s kind of a dynamic redhead, and she’s scurrying around. She’s always rather high energy, and I’m kind of pleased to see her, and she seems to want to see me.

And she comes over at one point to show me something that she’s bought, that she’s going to hang on a wall. And I’m trying to figure out whether she got it for herself, whether she’s actually living there and she’s going to put it up on the wall there, or whether she got it for someone else – I can’t quite hear clearly.

And then she suddenly has to run off, but I know everyone’s going to the theater later, I think, but she pulls me with her as she starts to go out the door because she has to run and catch a cab or something, and she whispers to me that she wants me to meet her at this, it’s either a prosecutor’s office, or an attorney’s office, in the morning. I think it’s a prosecutor’s office.

Obviously there’s something she wants me to help her with, that is legal, but that’s all she whispers to me and I don’t know anything more about it than that. So I go back inside.

And then the dream continues, but in a slightly different vein. It’s because I heard them drop the thought that people were going to the theater, and it’s a play that’s being at a place called the Hawaiian… something like the Centennial Hawaiian, or Celestial Hawaiian something, Casino. I decide we should go because my sister’s there, and I think it’d be fun if she and I went to the theater to see a play.

John: So the dream is looking at two parts. It’s looking at something that’s very amnesic and something that’s very dynamic. In other words, there’s the woman that’s come into the building that’s high energy, and then there’s you and something about you knows something, or acts it. Nothing comes together in terms of what is there. Everything’s kind of in a swirl.

And yet there’s all these component pieces that are there. There’s the high energy woman, there’s you that supposedly knows something in relationship to something else that needs to unfold, there’s something artistic that’s there, there’s the play that one can go to that would have an affect. A play is something that has an affect in terms of an overall. It’s like none of the pieces are coming together.

Jeane: So the next stage in the dream I realize that since there’s a play that night, now she and all the other people would have their tickets, but my sister’s with me and I thought, well, why don’t we just go down to the theater and see if we can get tickets? Why not? The worst thing that’d happen is she can’t get in, right? Or you might not get the best seat because it’s a last minute decision.

And I know that the play is being put on at the theater that’s at this casino that’s called something like either the Celestial or the Centennial Hawaiian, and that there’s a great big sign on the freeway that shows you exactly where it is.

So I go down to get in my car. Meanwhile my sister has rushed ahead of me, hopped in her own car, and sped off. And I’m hoping she knows where it is. I’m wondering if she drove right by the turnoff for it, because I look up and there’s this huge sign as I’ve gotten in my own car and headed down after her, and I see there’s a great big sign over the road that says Celestial Hawaiian Casino, right. I know the theater is in there, so I just have to hope my sister figured it out.

And I drive to the theater and I don’t see her but I get in line. There’s three or four different lines. I figure out what line to get into and go down and ask for tickets, or buy some tickets, and I think I buy three tickets, one for her and me, and one for my dad, even though up until now I hadn’t been aware my dad was around.

Well, then I go to wait. I go and find a table to sit at, just in the foyer or something, and suddenly my sister shows up and plops down, and that’s when my dad shows up, too, but they have bought their own tickets, or actually she’d bought her own ticket, and so I don’t know about dad. It doesn’t seem to be an issue.

So now I have an extra ticket, I have to decide what to do with, or do we take her ticket and turn it in? Meanwhile the play is going to start before too long and I’ve suddenly gone up in almost like a little bit of an elevated area, because it feels like for some reason to go to this play one of the things is that you sit down, and you did something with your shoes, and you attached your ticket to the shoe.

So I’m up there sitting down trying to make sure I get the ticket attached right to my shoe, and then I’m wondering if I have the ticket on my shoe if I’m going to be able to tell where it is that I sit. So I’m trying to study the numbers on it, and I think that was when I woke up.

John: So the whole thing centers around the play, and the thing that is interesting is everyone has to be independent. In other words, they have to take what it is that they contribute, and what they do is they contribute their involvement, their interest, their attention, they aren’t carried along, they step into it, they buy the tickets, they buy their own tickets, and that enables something then to proceed.

But when something is handed to them, or bought for them, the idea of it having to function like that doesn’t seem to be what causes and enables things to unfold – in terms of coming into the play. In other words, the motion, the involvement involves a ticket that is put into motion, in other words, tied to the shoelaces or the feet so that something then can proceed in motion.

The first part of the dream shows everything is kind of in a swirl, that there’s no way of sorting anything and everything out, because there’s this and there’s this, and there’s that and there’s that and there’s that, and all of that leads to a kind of a bewilderment.

And then in the second part of the dream, there’s the succinctness where something comes and constellates, or gels, in which there is a recognition, or realization, or understanding that people take on. In other words, in the dream you may have been trying to do everything yet, but what really works, and what really causes the play to happen is the people show up with their own tickets. They come committed in their own way.

And the fourth ticket still remains to be seen, right? Like your sister, your dad, and you have a ticket, and then there’s a fourth ticket.

Which is like: do you give up on something? Do you call it a halt as it is and go in and appreciate the play? Or is that still something yet to unfold? But in any event the format, the template, for it unfolding is people have taken and mobilized their interest and involvement, that being the ticket. That ticket is put in motion, and there’s still the fourth, and how is that to be handled? Because the tickets are attached to the feet and put into action.

So what’s this kind of saying? Well, I guess it’s kind of saying that the energy that you’re feeling, in other words, we grow in our consciousness by the way the outer conditions touch us, confront us. And the outer condition that you’re feeling is that there’s dynamics in this area and in that area and all around, in the first part of the dream – but so what? Where does it go? How does it come together?

It seems to be a little interest over here, a little interest over there, and it seems to be an around, and an around, and an around. The underlying thing, in the first part, is the play. Now the play is something that is an evolvement that is for all to see, that’s in the overall. But the play is also you, which means that that quality of yourself participates in the overall. However, it has to participate in terms of each of those qualities being and finding their own way of functioning or holding their own. You can’t attempt to do it all. You have to work in relationship.

All of these parts has to work in relationship to its own individual focus, and so you exist in a life in which you have all kinds of things that are there, but nothing can be properly appreciated unless it’s brought into a motion that is embraced, that is taken on, and so that it then embraces or enhances the overall.

And the overall is always evolving, and that’s the fourth ticket. But you’re not going to get to that fourth, or to a stage of completion, if you have this stuff not quite constellated or gelled. And the way that it gels is it comes into a recognition of what’s important, in terms of how it perceives, and feels, and experiences things.

And so that second part of the dream is like an answer to the first part. It’s an answer to the first part from the standpoint that it is showing that in order for something to come out of that maze, that there has to be a recognition that steps forward on its own volition, and that each aspect that’s you, meaning that you are everything in the environment all around you, those aspects all have to come into a focus, a centering, in which there’s no disarray.

The first part of the dream indicates that things are intriguing and interesting, but are running into a kind of general disarray because something isn’t pulled properly together. The second part of the dream shows that something can flow because there is, and has resulted in, a pulling together.

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