Postponing the Awakening

l-AwakeningLiving in the moment or going with the flow are popular ideas, but why are they important? Well, when we personalize life to be about us and our small world of friends, family, and career, we leave no room in ourselves for the unfolding of universal things. When we react to timings that don’t suit our world view, we are rejecting the greater processes at play. And we will never be able to control the world around us (the personal), but we can align ourselves to what the universe is doing energetically – and there is freedom in that, as well as the safety of things unfolding as they should. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the next dream, instead of having to sort this out as a kind of masculine bondage, I had to sort it out as a feminine bondage. So in this dream I’m a woman, and so I am used to feeling myself in a particular way, in other words, in how I relate to my overall environment.

And another woman takes advantage of that and bumps me inappropriately. My sensitivities react, and this keeps me from responding indifferently. In other words, the feminine always feels the aches and pains of things, the moods, and everything. I cannot respond indifferently because I am indulgent in experiencing myself and life around me in a predictable way.

Well, the significance of this dream is that this is another aspect of an indulgence, but in an opposite way instead of with particularities. In other words, it’s a misholding of the overallness in the outer that keeps you from letting go. And the way I’m holding the overallness, which I think is okay, I come to know as not okay if I’m violated in that way, in terms of how I’m holding it, which means that the overallness is bigger than that if I’m subject to being able to be affected or reactive.

So my way of feeling myself and the world around me gets compromised when I am off to some degree and, consequently, then I’m not able to hear and see life from within. The reason being a reactive indulgence is in the way.

And this time it’s in the way because of the way one feels one’s self. In other words, you can be off in terms of how you see yourself in manifestation, just like you can be off by the way that you’re unable to sort through what is in front of you to know that that’s limited and more. In other words, you’re letting certain things vie for the heart, and then you get to the point where you can’t let that vie for the heart anymore, and then you break free and there’s a certain danger then.

That’s the masculine sense of danger, and in that there’s a battle, and in the feminine sense there’s the degree to which she’s always trying to hold onto things being such and so. That’s the limitation of the feminine, always trying to hold onto wanting something to be familiarly oriented.

And so in terms of kind of going back and forth and back and forth, and then also pulling things together, with each dream, with each aspect taking a step, in this dream I am now the patriarch of an extended family.

In order for my grown-up sons and daughters to comfortably visit, I must accommodate them in terms of who and how they are, not who and how I am, but who and how they are. If I don’t, damage is done to the overall, and then a natural intertwining suffers.

If there is an imbalance with my brothers and sisters, and sons and daughters, there will be a problem in the future with intertwining, that being as aspects of myself, to the grandkids. In other words, it keeps going. It’s meant to keep expanding.

So, the reason for the dream is, after seeing the polarities, which interfere with the acceptance needed for life to unfold, I am then shown where this is meant to go in the above dream. See how that expanded, added more?

And in the final dream, I am shown the importance of being able to accept everything that occurs in the environment I live in. When I am unable to do this, there is no inner into outer unfoldment. Well, none that I’m aware of, and participating in that is, and consciously.

So my wholeness in life is repressed when I am unable to accommodate and intertwine. Until I learn the importance of naturally bonding all aspects of myself, I will suffer and be postponing my awakening.

See, what this dream is doing is it is showing why and how it is that you stay in an amnesia for what could be long, long, long periods of time, maybe even lifetimes, because something doesn’t open up. And it doesn’t open up because you hold onto a conditionality of how you perceive or see yourself.

It takes a long, long time for certain things to shift, and change, or to emerge. Such a postponing affects the generations of myself on a subtle inner unfoldment level, which is the flip back of the sons and daughters and grandkids and all of that, brothers and sisters. And it’s like it says, you know, there’s the saying that as you become more conscious you affect generations going backwards and generations going forward.

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