We all know what it’s like to have trouble downloading something from the Internet: if we don’t have the exact ID and password, it’s impossible to do; i.e., if we’re off by one number, we’re not “close.” Well, it is the universal nature of energy that like is attracted to like, so if we want to attract kindness into our lives, then we have to begin to radiate kindness ourselves – and that radiation will energetically draw in the frequencies of kindness as well. But if we say we want kindness, but radiate judgment and anger, kindness will not be able to find us. This is why “the rich get richer,” because if you already have a quality (energetically), you will always attract more of it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane:I wish I could pull more of my dream through because it felt like I was just struggling with it. And in the dream it was like I was downloading experiences, and I was doing it with somebody else, a man.
And then there was a series of experiences that I was having trouble downloading, or uploading, however you would consider it, and I had to get things aligned in order to do it, and then I had to judge whether or not it was kind of going to be an overload for the person, or not, or the sequence, or how they were stored right now.
And I just seemed to be struggling to get that right, wanted to get a certain balance with it, and I was trying to juggle it, and going over it, and evaluating it, maybe discussing it, just trying to get it right to download. That’s all I really remember about the dream.
John: So you were just going through, constantly trying to contend with the sorting of something out that stood in between two things from happening, or coming together – right?
John: Well, that was the nature of the theme of the dreams last night, was that there is a need to aspire to the vibration within, which pulls together, and aligns, on various levels.
And, in the outer, it is often times expressed as some insignificant thing that seems to be a complexity, or issue, and it’s generally considered fairly trite, you know, when you’re dreaming it.And if you can just resolve it, then the sensation is that a flow is then possible, or intertwining is able to happen.
It is easy to not see or notice the dilemma, or the small, trite issue, and when one doesn’t notice this the energetic condition that they carry is one of bewilderment. And when you walk around in a bewilderment you take on moods, and mannerisms, that weigh upon the heart because you are not in flow with the outer from within – and are instead caught in a conundrum of the reflections in the outer that predominate.
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Humans are diverse beings and it’s good to acknowledge and celebrate that. And there are many paths and religious teachings for people to follow, not because there are many gods and many possibilities, but because it is useful to have many paths to the same destination – precisely because we are all so different. Each of us can find a path that works with our sensibilities, and can give us our best opportunity for success. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: The difference between your dream and my dream is, I’m trying to figure out the correlation between the out-breath and the in-breath – as if there has to be one – because you don’t just have that shift to somewhere else completely. You don’t just have that. That isn’t the end all, be all.
There is something more than just that, or so it seems, or otherwise this is a bad joke. It does seem that the flip side, or the mirror image, just like there’s light and there’s sound, there does seem to be something correlated to sound to the light, just quite how that works is this huge mystery, how the wavelengths come together.
I suppose, most people start off on a spiritual path complaining, and what they complain about when they reach a certain sense of awareness is that there is something more, and that they’re caught in not being able to access that because they’re mired in manifestation. And so you have all these religions of the world that all take and go on their leap-of-faith approach to something on the other side, and sit and try to hold the line, or find an acuity or something, with some inner depth of themselves, as they fumble and struggle through life.
And so it really threw me into a mystery. The mystery it threw me into is trying to determine the correspondence between the out-breath and the in-breath, as if there has to be a correspondence in terms of a cycle of creation. You can’t realize something in just a totally transcendent approach, and you can’t realize something in terms of a total noodling down here just in the physical. It’s as if they work in a Yin Yang way. At least that’s kind of the sense that the dream started to throw at me because it pointed out that there were these two ways, and I started to look at these two ways that exist.
So, in the meditation dream, I am shown that when you persevere like in a particular way, like through the meditation and whatnot, and you’re actually letting go and you’re going somewhere, finding some sort of otherness of yourself as a depth within, that current way of going will take you deeper and deeper. It’s the way that you kind of transcend, energetically, with karmic barriers and veils that hold a person back. And it’s the way one’s identifications, which veil, fall away. And it’s the way you become empty.
Like in my meditation dream I was suddenly coming back from a place that was so far inside that everything around me was lifted, in other words, it was like a total in-breath or something. But then when you come back down with the out-breath, it’s like there’s another way, because you’re coming back into life. And so I took it as them describing that, as if that is another way. Or maybe it’s just part of describing the out-breath effect, because it doesn’t follow this kind of thread. It tends to defy this deeper and deeper within design, and this path is a defiant path that challenges everything constantly, and one is honed in this approach by the way you let go in the School of Hard Knocks.
By School of Hard Knocks means this approach isn’t necessarily pleasant. You’re radicalized from a lower-self, going through like a type of purging process, that tears at the fabric of the heart. So whatever you’re holding onto, until it blows up, or goes to pieces, or shifts, is an intensity that seems contrary to the other aspect of the depth that you went into, that went deeper and deeper in which that was just somehow or another you let go of that.
Yet both ways awaken, or appear to awaken. Maybe one is illusive in that it awakens you to a heart that’s trying to vie and feel everything. Even in the out-breath way of awakening it becomes a heart that is carrying a pain of a perception, and a reflection. Which means this is like they’re mutually exclusive, because when you’re really, really somewhere else you can’t find the heart necessarily. Your heart’s everywhere. You’re at a depth instead, and when you’re caught in the condensed state all you can experience is the calamity of the heart.
So the first path is the inner path in which the physical reflections, which afflict the heart, fall away, and you find yourself more and more in a deeper and deeper depth within. And in terms of trying to understand this, this is often referred to as kind of the Bhakti subjective approach, but that is overly simplistic, and if you just look at it that way you can just be something high in the light or something and not have any grounding. So it’s almost as if the other system has to have some degree of involvement in the process, in which, by calling it the other system, which is the out-breath, you’re putting everything including the reflective conditions into the heart trying to purge that in some sort of annihilatory way.
In other words, if you purge it completely enough then you can’t find the heart and the great expanse again. This is the approach that burns off the karma in a living it out kind of hard, heartfelt way. And being able to go along and live in the outer and, somehow or another, be okay in that is kind of the Raj yoga way – but it’s a painful journey.
In the dream I like the way that I was able to see myself suddenly lost, very very deep, and was coming out of that deep capacity. Under this scenario, or quality inside, or however, or even system, I seem to be at an inner depth as if I woke up there all of a sudden, or was shifted there, in one fell swoop.
The second scenario was pointed out to me as something with an entirely different sensation motif. It is also part of the out-breath and therefore has an intensity to it because you’re coming down into the multiplicity. Whenever there are identifications, of which there are going to be, by the heart to the reflective physical images, there is a lot of pain and collateral effect, which means that there’s the offsetting reactivity or reactiveness. And a reactiveness is nothing more than the heart have or the mind and the senses trying to figure out what’s going on, trying to create an understanding of the reflection.
The reason why I had this experience is to point out that it is so much smoother to let go and be taken. The other approach fights and struggles every step of the way. However, this predilection, being how I am in terms of contending with the outer, is a system whereby I suffer a lot in the outer – and hopefully do not blow myself to physical pieces prematurely.
A person who is too afflicted by the outer can have physical ailments, you can have a condition shut down that can cause personal injury. All kinds of strange things can happen. So if I’m able to handle this, I set the table for being naturally shifted in a letting go way, that’s if you’re able to handle it. If you’re not, then you just go around and around and around with it. The two seem to work side by side, or hand in hand.
The second approach, in other words, you know I can’t deny that there’s the out-breath right, so they have to be working hand in hand is another way of saying it, but I didn’t look at it quite like that. I just noticed that in the depth inside it was like when I saw the other, I realized that they’re both there, and they both have the same intent to try to get you somewhere, or try to awaken something up. It’s just that the second approach dials things up in one sense, in an outer context, so it’s doing it more quickly, or so it seems. And if I’m able to let go of the reflections that tear at the heart, and tear one up on a physical level, I can suddenly catch up with the inner depth, which maybe lucky, maybe not everybody can. Maybe some people just never can get out of it and the trauma just builds and builds until it drives them insane, or burns them up.
So I guess what I’m saying is that there are two versions to the process, much like flip sides of a coin. There is what I would call the Bhakti in-breath, and there is that which goes into life as an exhaled out-breath, which one could call maybe the Raj part, which has to contend with everything in the physical plane of reflection vying for recognition. Because such vying is reflective there is the appearance of multiplicity. The more I contend with that as being so, the more I afflict the heart with reflections that incite the senses and ego mind to intervene.
The definition of ego mind is a mind driven by sense perception, contracted from its true inner home in the overall essence of everything, everywhere. The true inner home is a piece in which time and space are incorporated within, and the without is located within at a quiet inner depth.
The subtle inner note is more alive, or so it seems, when the letting go Bhakti side prevails. When the Raj side is present there is the impression impressed upon the soul that there is work to be done here, in other words, caught in the illusion. You’re putting this stuff in the heart. The illusion veils until we reach beyond with the in-breath. We’re veiled by the limitations of a bifurcated, reflective physical plane.
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There are many examples of spiritual, or religious, or holy persons who have renounced the world for their devotion to their belief – the monk in a monastery, the nun in a convent, the lama on a mountaintop, or the fakir on a bed of nails. Yet we could say that those are all different strategies, of a sort, to extricate oneself from the temptations of the world. The journey that is most needed now is the one that is fully engaged in the world, yet just as spiritually connected as the lama’s or the monk’s. Spirituality today needs to look like everything we are already doing, but done with a purposeful heart. Of course, that will change everything. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: The only thing I remember is that it felt like there was some information that I wanted to get at, along with at least one other person, and there were things being done to block that information.
So I was explaining to them what we needed to do is we needed to set up like this program represented by, I think, these little orange or yellow balls, I forget what. And what we did is we would get this program, and we’d put it on this computer, and it would start dumping the information that was blocking the information that we wanted to get. And after it caused all the information that was misleading to get dumped, then we could get at the information that was real, that we were after.
And the other person was a little anxious about doing this, or nervous, they’d never really done something that caused this big information dump before. But to me it was what you had to do to unblock and get at the information that we wanted. And we knew it would work in one instance; there was another instance where I wasn’t as sure because it was like there were some forces working against it. And then we were trying to do this to get at what we wanted to see, or know.
John: So, the information that you were trying to get to that, was being blocked… what was the sense? How did you feel that it was blocked? Could you feel how it was blocked?
Jeane: It was almost blocked because it was being covered up with all these other signals coming in, in a way, like it was being smothered or covered up.
John: So those other signals, then, they were coming into the what, the heart? How were they coming in?
Jeane: Well, in the dream, this is almost all taking place in computers, so it’d be more like the mind in a way. And people, there were certain people that seemed to be blocking, so we were like forces almost.
John: Well ,I guess that’s in keeping with the theme of the dreaming that I had, too, in that there are kind of two conditions and, the way I was looking at it, was as if these two conditions were just two approaches to somewhere. But I’m just not so sure, because from your dream, it indicates that something is blocking it, and when it’s blocking like on a computer, it’s like blocking in terms of the mind.
And what happens is the mind that gets triggered through the interaction of the senses. Well, the senses get triggered as a consequence of a reaction in terms of the heart. And the heart is feeling a reaction in terms of having related to something in the outer, something in the reflection of the outer, and it has taken that in and is trying to sort it out.
In other words, instead of going somewhere at a greater, greater, greater depth, the heart has taken in something that is hitting and affecting the heart – and then that invokes the senses, that invokes the mind. And so you then are blocked, or veiled, from the deeper quality of just going somewhere.
Now, the dilemma I have is I don’t know whether you can just absolutely just go somewhere, where you can just totally let go and go somewhere. It’s almost as if you have to go through something… The in-breath takes you somewhere. That’s the destiny of the in-breath. It takes you to a home, or it takes you to a depth somewhere.
But the out-breath brings you right back down here again, and when you come right back down here you have to contend with the multiplicity, and then you get that multiplicity vying for the heart. You’re getting these reflections down here vying for the heart, and that creates a density, it creates a contraction, it creates a veiling that causes what you are able to perceive, and think about, and ponder with the mind, to be whatever that is blocks out what is important in terms of the greater beingness. So you seem to be looking and dreaming at that.
Well the conundrum, the question that I was asking and my way of looking at that is, because you have a full breath and you have the out-breath and you have the in-breath, to what degree are they flip sides of the same coin in terms of having to contend with things, where you have to contend with the reflection, but you have to polish the heart in such a way where you have to work with the heart that gets thrown around, that gets contended with things? You have to work with that in order to let go, or otherwise you kind of sit in a la-la land, you sit in a malaise. You don’t have any catalytic forces. You haven’t awoken more or less the Kundalini force of life itself or something, and you can have a type of life that drifts along.
What is that factor that causes you to probe to a deeper depth of yourself? What is that factor? I guess that’s a hard one to understand, or to figure out, because there’s no way that you can describe how it is that you can just be taken somewhere as if you can put together a formula in terms of how that works. It just seems to happen.
It also seems that if there’s enough pressure on the heart, in terms of contrast, that you can create a letting go, whereby something can sweep in, and you can get a glimpse of the greater part of yourself, only when you bring yourself to a stop or a quality that lets go.
The key is, we don’t know how to let go. We don’t know how to follow what it is inside of ourselves in an out-breath way. We know how to experience it at times at a deep in-breath. And we know how to discuss the issue from the standpoint of when we’re blocked off. In other words, it’s like when we’re caught up in something in the outer, and therefore the mind is spinning or, in your case, the computer thing is what it is, and it is therefore getting in the way from you being able to have an access to a greater depth in which there is that piece, in which there is that quality of yourself being okay in some condition that is okay, some deeper depth.
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