It still amazes us when we make a decision that we feel so strongly about, and yet a few days or weeks later we have a relapse and it doesn’t seem as important. And that is what we mean when we say there are many lives in us, because parts of us like the old ways, and parts of us want to change. That’s why we need to get all of ourselves on board with any great changes we seek to make – or else the other parts can rebel and mutiny. And it can rarely be done by force; it’s best achieved through consistent talking to our systems about what we are trying to achieve and why. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: I just have one brief dream. In it I’m living like in the countryside, and it’s kind of a bright, sunny day. And then down the road there’s a house with some friends in it. One of them is visiting from England, or somewhere.
And the brother of one of the women who’s down the road is staying with me. We’re not really in a relationship, but he’s just staying in kind of an inner room in my house. Well, I have just sobered up. I have been an alcoholic, and I have sobered up. I’ve been sober one or two days.
But, her brother, who needs to sober up, is still drinking and I’m trying to get him to stop drinking. But he also has a gun and, you know, I feel like he’s now going to plot to kill me because I’m sobering up. And I’m trying to figure out what to do, like can I get him to sober up, too?
So, when his sister and my friend, who live down the road, come over it’s like I tell them that I think that he’ll have to move out because he comes out, and I look around, I see he’s got all these things on his belt, but I don’t see the gun right now. But he still isn’t sober, so I feel like unless he sobers up that, you know, I tell them they’ll have to take him out of the house before he gets violent. That was the whole dream.
John: I don’t know what that means. That’s a good one alright, because the direction of the dreaming had to do with something waking up from anew, waking up anew from inside.
But this doesn’t indicate what it is. It just indicates that something’s sobering up, but doesn’t indicate that there’s something waking up anew and that the indication is, if you’re waking up, you’re going to be… there’s something associated with waking up and being killed, or losing yourself.
Well, waking up into what? I mean it doesn’t point to anything in particular. It doesn’t direct your attention in any regard. It just indicates a condition, and that that condition has a treacherousness in regards to how it is that you’re able to be accepted.
In other words, you will be killed, or you will lose your way of being accepted if you come out of being asleep or drunk. The thing is, as I’m beginning to look at these things, I don’t know if that’s quite true. It’s true maybe from the sense in terms of your attachments and your addictions and such, that you learn to get free of that, or you become more freed of that.
We see a bigger picture and a greater overallness to life. So in that sense, I guess, you’re killed or you die in relationship to the narrower way of looking at yourself – but it’s not true that you actually are repulsed necessarily by society. I don’t think you have to be. I think you can figure out a way of creating a relatability. I think there’s always a way of tweaking something deeper.
When you don’t know how to do that, or you don’t figure that out, you’re taken in as bizarre or strange. I think it can be done. But for those that are in the outer world too indulged, that’s not possible, but I’m saying that it can be done.
The quality of dreaming last night had to do with various ways of waking up or becoming something. And the waking up, such a waking up, causes you to relate to things differently. But by and large, I’m not sure I believe that. I think that what also wakes up, what also comes up at the same time is a way of knowing how to communicate, or to correlate, the way you are.
Most people just go hidden, but I think it’s interesting to be able to figure out how to twine, how to tweak, and I think that’s all possible. In your dream, though, it kind of seems to suggest that you’re apt to become something so different that there is a degree, a lack of relatability or something. I don’t think it has to be that way. I mean I think you can be fairly open and communicate, too. I think that one can be in a waking up state and pull it off, and be okay. It’s around others that are totally entrenched in what they’re doing, and adamant about it and overly righteous about it or something, so that this is all that they’re able to see, and that they have no fluidity in terms of looking this way or that way. That is when you hit the grand rejection, but that isn’t very many, and you can sense and you can tell that sort of thing vibe-wise. It’s fairly straightaway
So I’m not sure I totally agree with the fact that when you wake up you put yourself into a condition of where you’re shot. Yes, you can be rejected by those that refuse to wake up, and parts of yourself that refuse to wake up, but I think you get to a point where something just flips and it has to be, and it kind of is catalytic all around you then. So that’s what I make out of that. You can’t throw it out; it has something to it.
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