Missing Parts

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Uri Dushy

Sometimes a dream provides the perfect metaphor for our spiritual journey. Here we have a father searching for lost children – parts of himself, because we are all the characters in our dreams – who are so estranged they may not even recognize him. To find these parts, and bring them back into safety, requires following a river, with water representing the unconscious life within, through a difficult landscape. Yes, in development we sometimes have to face some of our personal issues as a way to regain aspects of our lives that have been shut off from us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my first dream, which is extremely hard to pull out, I feel like I’m a man and I’ve been separated from my family, particularly my children. I think there’s three of them, who are traveling some distance away, and I’m trying to get back to them, or find them and bring them back. So I have to travel a lot of distance over rather difficult landscape.

And then I’m concerned that when I find my children they won’t remember me so they won’t know to come with me. But I do find the children, you know, but then I have to get back, and it’s almost like trying to get back following the Mississippi River or something. It’s a very difficult landscape, in a way, with some concerns about bringing the children back along that landscape.

I can’t have a lot more details than that because it just was one of those dreams that was extremely hard to pull out. It kept fading away on me.

John: Well, it’s one of the qualities and aspects of the soul is that it has to be able to take in everything that exists all around us, all parts of ourself. And it’s unable to do that if the heart’s afflicted in some fashion and, whatever that fashion is, always then is a fashion that has a renunciating quality towards something that is us.

In this case, you have a dream where you can’t catch up, or find, who you are in the wholeness of things; in other words, your children and such. And the Mississippi River is like a thread that goes through existence, through manifestation, as if it’s the means upon which you can resurrect yourself.

Well it is kind of true – on a symbolic level. You do have to be open and receptive to all parts of yourself and, if you have some reaction, or some huge woundology, about some part of yourself you’re going to shut it off. And, if you shut it off, then you’re not going to remember where it’s at. You’re not going to be able to find it, and then you find yourself having to follow the Mississippi, follow the thread back.

And that’s the nature of being in a human body: we come in with this dilemma, having shut off our connections to parts of our self, and that we have to realign and acquaint ourselves with those parts of our self – back in to the wholeness again, or otherwise we sit and we juggle things that are reflective, and we just juggle, and juggle, and juggle, and juggle and go around and around and around and around.

And the theme, and the key element, to the dreaming is the vibrational thread behind all of this that has to do with how it is that the heart is resonating. The heart can resonate with a certain joy. What’s interesting is that the feminine note of the soul is to try to have a comfortability in terms of the environment, and the thing is that’s like a materialistic thing in that you can never get it balanced, and it goes on, and on, and on, and on and on, and it can get to the point where you throw yourself into a whole other neuroses and another spasm about the whole thing.

But because it is pointing and aimed at something in terms of a wholeness to the huge overall, to all there is, so the feminine nature is always trying to find that cadence, that recognition in manifestation. And, as that is going on, is realizing that there are relatives, or parts of one’s self, that are missing, that you can’t find, can’t tell where they’re at anymore.

The key to understanding or recognizing that you get to a point where you can’t tell where something is at anymore is correlated to the fact that one takes and puts into their heart a reflective condition. And when that is in the heart, and in the way, then you can’t see the big picture. You only deal with the here and now in a physical sense, reflective way, of the reflection and so when it’s like that what you can perceive is very, very little, and thus you haven’t a chance at finding the missing parts of yourself when you are responding to the reflection – and answers for the reflection – as opposed to going back to the depth inside of yourself to see how it is that you generated that event.

It is also a barrier because you can take whatever is a little uneasy and try to just throw it in the hopper of that greater family-like balance and not confront certain conditioning, and certain mannerisms, that you have in your nature. And if you’re successful enough at that, then something really big can hit you and knock you for a loop that is a real blindside. So I think our themeing of our dreaming and the actions and mannerisms have to do with going back and contending with these sort of things almost as a biofeedback mechanism.

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