We’ve spoken in recent posts about the nature of a saint (a person with spiritual attainment). But it doesn’t have to look holy, in fact the only way to get real spiritual development is to go through the difficulties of life buoyed by the strength of your higher purpose. In this dream we see exactly that: there’s no road to get where the dreamer needs to go, and what needs to happen seems impossible, even crazy. Yet, the dreamer trusts in her guidance and everything works out well, even magically. That’s what becomes possible when we realize and accept that something else is in charge. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: Well, as the dream continues, it shifts a little. I’m in a car now, and I’ve made up the trunk of the car into a really comfortable bed that my dad can ride in. And I have at least one man and somebody else in the rest of the car with me.
And I’m trying to get somewhere now. It feels less like being chased and that I just have to get somewhere. Well I’ve driven the car and gotten up on this part of a mountain. It’s not all the way up the mountain. It’s partway up a mountain, and I’m not sure how I got there because there doesn’t seem to be a road.
Because there’s no road, then I look around and I see where the road is, but I suddenly realize that there’s no actual road between me and where the road is so, what I’m going to have to do is go off the side; it’s like where the road is across a gap from where I am, and in that gap you’d have to take the car just down the mountain, with no road, and some water has gone through and I see where some of the area can be muddy or it’s pooled. There’s a wild horse down there. I think it’s a white horse.
There may be even a place where the car would have to kind of leap across a chasm, and then when you go across you could either plow into a side that’s all muddy, or there’s a muddy track that goes up to the left a bit that you could get stuck in – but might work. And so I’ve just launched off because I can see on the other side of that is the road I need to go the rest of the way up the mountain.
So I’ve launched off. There’s this wild ride down that kind of leaps across the chasm. I see I could plow into the side, but I manage to turn and find this little track. It doesn’t get stuck in the mud. Then, finally, it comes to rest not far from the road. I mean like I can get on the road now. And I realize as crazy and insane as all that was, that I kind of like it that way.
John: Where was your dad? Always in the trunk?
Jeane: Yeah, he’s in the trunk – in a comfortable bed.
John: So the second half actually contends with a getting it, in terms of not getting lost in a type of spiritual illusion. In other words, the spiritual illusion would have been the going up the mountain, meaning the recognition of something that veils you out, which is like an aspect of the masculine, that can have an insight of bringing something through – but there’s still work to be done in terms of fully grounding what needs to be grounded.
And you’re far enough along in the dreaming process of the understanding of how this flows, and unfolds, to where you could have steered the dream, almost steered the dream, and that’s why it’s good sometimes once dreams are really amnesic, yet you could’ve steered the dream into kind of a spiritual direction, or the seeming spiritual direction.
But what ended up happening is you realized that you still have to contend with things that are a little mucky, and sloppy, and whatnot. You still have to contend with whatever the dynamic is that has a type of flow that’s in life, that isn’t defined in terms of where the road is, or the path is, still has a quality of bewilderment, or price of admission. And, when you go through that, you just suddenly find yourself where you need to be – as opposed to try to struggle so hard to get there.
In other words, you do the opposite of what your mind would have had you doing, which would have been to try to continue to go up the road. You recognize that you have to step back and go down, and up, and around, and through the much and such. And what you’re describing there, what you’re describing there is you’re not buying into a certain aspect of masculine projection, either, because the masculine projection would always have you trying to reach to something of more of control or power.
And you are in manifestation, and you’re responsible for that, and you accept that, and you go into that, and you hold your role in that, and you go through that, and as you go through that you reach the other – and you’d have it no other way.
That’s the contending with the price of admission of things in the outer. You’re not suddenly saying, okay, enough is enough, and then you take and make this about face. Yes, you had kind of the shadow of the dog, of the friend, looking out for things quietly, and silently. You weren’t’ inclined to realize just how important that company was.
And, yes, you got to a particular point where you started to recognize how you could find an inner guidance inside, but you didn’t get carried away with that. You didn’t go to a great extreme in that because you realized that you didn’t have enough of a connection with that to trust it, to be able to follow it. You still are in a daze and still have to pay the price of admission. You still have to relate to how things are in the outer.
In other words, the father of things is still in the trunk, asleep. You could have tried to wake, or resurrect, or contend with that other, reach to the other, but you didn’t do that. Had you done that, you would have on one level thought that you were speeding yourself up, but on another level, only later after the fact would you have come to realize that you had actually just slowed yourself down. In other words, the concept would have been deceiving.
By going down the hill and through the muck and this, that, and the other, where no trail exists you reach the road – and who would’ve guessed? And you would prefer doing it that way because why? Because that’s the way that it has to be done. That’s the way that you know that it has to be done in order to hold something in terms of the overall. That’s an interesting way of approaching it.
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