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IMG_6087It’s is made clear in the Bible how hard it is for a wealthy man to gain the kingdom of heaven, and there is also a long history of self-denial, poverty, and chastity throughout the religions of the world. But those are coarse proscriptions for simpler times. The point that is trying to be made is that everything we get too focused on, or too obsessed with, or too personal about, deepens our ties to a planetary life, to our physical being. And our physical being is just a house for our spiritual possibility. To live a spiritual life is to align and integrate with the universal; to align with the energetic, not the magnetic. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I’m losing the details on the second dream, what I remember most about it, and it’s like you and I were living in it felt like a two-story apartment house, two or three story with our neighbors, and we had an apartment maybe one level below them, as well as another place where we stayed.

All I really remember about the dream is kind of a sensation of moving back and forth, and I was trying to work something out about that. I just can’t remember the details.

John: I think you’re still working with this way, this quality. It’s easy to try to call it an expanse, but it’s not an expanse, because I think you’re working outside of the characteristics, the shape and characteristics. You’re working more in relationship to there being a same/sameness about above and below, north, south, east, and west.

And so you can be in a north/south alignment, so to speak north/south alignment, or you can be in a type of above and below, or east/west, or whatever kind of direction that is alignment. It really, in terms of the way of feeling things in an overallness, does not matter. The image of how you see it tends to get in the way.

So I still think you’re working on understanding a kind of spatial letting go quality in which something is there that can’t ordinarily be there when there’s any form of cognition. And that you’re using a type of cognition to note that there is this kind of bewilderment inflections.

It’s a kind of dreaming that’s very similar to the way we first used to dream in which it was hard to understand the dynamics between a shadow aspect and the shadow aspect if you’re trying to reveal and that we needed to bring that shadow aspect into a wholeness with ourself because it really was ourself and, in doing so, come to see the energy that existed behind that.

Now it’s as if one is doing this in a whole other octave in which, instead of a shadow dynamic, you have everything that you could possibly perceive and see as either this way, or that way, above or below, expansive or contractive, or east or west, or north and south, or however it is that you could possibly characterize it, you’re having that being put up against an emptiness, a true total letting go, which means that you’re having to feel, and denote, what it’s like to have any kind of viability, visual sense oriented, or way of perceiving, one’s self viability because that gets in the way of something else, something somewhere else.

In your first dream it’s like the third way, and in this dream it’s like can you see that it doesn’t matter what kind of unit you have, or what kind of place you live in, what kind of spatiality you have, and this kind of catches you by surprise because you’re accustomed to seeing an orientation. And now it is like there is no such thing as an orientation. You could be just fine, and just as complete, and just as ordinary and be just fine and turning the page in some other regard.

This kind of understanding of things, to try to put it into kind of a different framework of perception, this kind of understanding of things is often used in relationship to the idea that those who were born in the west were born into a different kind of conditionality of opulence, and the prosperities that the west has. Our old souls, that are accustomed to having to live in a type of penance or way of being, let’s say, in the east, in which the attention was placed upon a minimal set of conditions in order to try to accentuate a depth of experience within. And that way of being in the east has the same kind of flip side limitations as the way of being in the west in which you can have a certain opulence.

Both are perspectives that are geared towards a sense of well being. The sense of well being in the east that’s like this could be something that leads to a certain unfoldment, or progression, and inner growth that goes to a particular distance but it is also, like I say, it’s a flip side of the great achiever in the west who is subrogating that energy, and aiming it into the outer, instead, and both are working with an aspect of concentration.

And so you have to get beyond the concentration in order to catch up with something more. The meditating guy that came in and thought he could be a singer had accentuated the art of concentration, but he couldn’t take it to the next levels in which things opened up and expanded again. He was caught within a progression that was accentuated with concentration.

And those who take and clamor for great, great wealth in the west, and push everything else aside rudely in order to attain that are doing that with a concentration. Those in the east that were Sadhus and such that took and moved into caves, and attempted to access something from deep, deep within, are also trying to grab something, but they’re grabbing it in the opposite direction. And there is an intent of concentration there as well.

To really break free you have to recognize that both of them, both directions, are one and the same. They’re both part of a process. You can be attached to your poverty, or attached to the quality in which you’re trying to approach something within in terms of what they do in the east, or you can be attached to how you live in the outer in the west, in terms of all the toys and aspects of things around you. And you have to learn to let go of them, or otherwise you’re caught by the conditions of that.

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i3332sOne of our early moments of consciousness is our realization that we are a separate being from everything else around us; that there is an us and a them, an individual and a universe. And in that separation there is our way, which is personal view of the world. And then there is everything else that is going on in the universe, seemingly unrelated to our journey. But this brings us to the point of it all: we are meant to find our unique way (not personal way) to interact with the everything; to be in process with everything. In this way our separateness recedes, and our connection is made. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the first dream it’s about wanting to fly somewhere, but the cost of airline tickets is really high.

So there’s two or three ways one can get a ticket. One is you can enter this contest and, if you win the contest, then you get the ticket for very little. But, if you lose the contest, you have to pay the full price, which is like $13,000. And I’m deliberating what to do because it feels like there’s a middle way, too, but you have to be careful because I think someone else can enter you in the contest.

It seems like there’s a possibility somebody else can kind of toss you in the contest, and then you either win or you end up paying full fare. I’m looking for a third way that maybe you can get on the plane for a little less, too. That was the first dream.

John: What is happening is you’re trying to figure out if there’s a way of balancing expansive and contractive states, which is a condition that everyone goes through, has to contend with in life.

Often the way it’s experienced is you’re trying to find a state that’s lighter, that feels lighter, and then therefore is more conducive to one’s nature, and that can be a type of expansive state. But what you’re noticing, in terms of feeling the parameters of things, is that this is all still within the realms, or the domain, of a mind that creates these kinds of images, and causes one to aspire to something more by reconciling those images.

In other words, there’s still motion there. There’s still motion. And the third way, that’s the non-motion way; it’s the instantaneous way. It’s not going to make any sense to the mind and, if you don’t do it, then you’re thrown back in to having to contend with this either this way, or that way.

So people in the outer world, who have a recognition of a soul moving around inside of them, are caught up in having to try to understand, or come to grips with, this quality of beingness that they can denote inside of themselves in various ways. Some ways are denser than others, some are subtler, but all of them have to do with a quality that one sees themselves as having in relationship to existence.

And whatever that quality is, keeps one from doing it this third way, which is kind of a way in which the fun of the outer and the inner is taken out of it, and something can just be in a kind of overall oneness where you don’t have any personal prerogative or such moving around, and you don’t then have it going into a greater density, or some scopality, of spiritual illusion.

It was like the guy that is on American Idol that came up and was kind of the meditator, or something, and worked in the world with voice therapy, and the idea that he could use sound to penetrate things and to cause an effect, or a change, in the environment. And he worked with people in relationship to that because he noticed that the dexterity upon which they were able to be, in terms of sound, had a lot to do with awakening.

The problem was he heard something from deep, deep, deep inside, but he didn’t have any ambidexterity with it. He was still trying to play with it in some modality and, as a consequence, he couldn’t know what he couldn’t know. He couldn’t realize that his understanding of how voice is only goes to a particular streamlined parameter that he was capable of looking at, and therefore he didn’t have the dexterity to really know what singing is all about, and using a voice in a whole other melodious way, that also is penetrative, and effective, in terms of opening something up.

He was caught within his spiritual illusion, and he was not able to shift, or change, and therefore was veiled from actually recognizing this whole other way. This whole other way to him, he heard it differently. Now what’s interesting is he did hear something, and he did hear something really, really deeply, but in order to be effective, in order to bring it through, in order to be all penetrative, he needed to let go further.

So the theme of the dreaming has to do with a quality of letting go, and that there is such a thing as a letting go to where there is a third way – and it will not make sense to the mind. In other words, something can roll off of a roof and hit the ground, a body can roll off the roof and hit the ground, fall from a great distance above and, with the right focus and attention, be uninjured, or can lay on a bed of nails and be uninjured.

There is a third way, but it is a different kind of conditional… is a different place to be, that isn’t noodling around in a sorting-out fashion of this, or that, of expanse and contraction, of sense of inner, sense of outer. You have to get beyond all of that in order to have the full ambidexterity, because if you’re looking at this or that, this or that, you’re imclined to be making choices, or distinctions. And what if everything, no matter how ridiculous, is also sane? It’s just that we have come to define what is sane, and, therefore, have put ourselves into a kind of perdition.

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Ben Tolman

We may feel like we are a lonely batch of humans on this blue planet in the middle of endless uninhabited realms. But it’s more useful to think of ourselves as participants in this universe. We are here to help. And that means finding better ways within ourselves to do things, and adding to the best of life and giving a boost to what struggles. Still, it all begins with wanting to help everything, which allows us to drop our ingrained desire to only help ourselves. Said another way, we are designed to work through things, on behalf of everything that is trying to happen. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So what is going on? What I just described is the Gambler archetype. The other three are Thief, Prostitute, and Drunk. Each human being has to go through these four archetypes which control them, personally speaking. Another word for them is the Four Doors. And, in me, the Gambler archetype is the loudest door.

And, in my meditation dream, I come directly in front of this door again and, to overcome this, I have to let go of personal predilections. Until I do I will keep spinning and spinning the pattern in an infinite number of energetic deviations, telling myself that I am on the verge of a breakthrough, so I must keep spinning it, and telling myself that the next time things will be different. That’s the meditation dream. Interesting?

So now, as I come to bed, what I have kind of dreamt in the meditation dream is something that seems like… it’s like an, oh my gosh, kind of thing. How does one ever overcome it? And it’s also looked at as if its whole force and effect is one that’s deleterious in terms of one’s well being. But in this dream I take and I do something that in the outer looks completely ridiculous, but its effect is interesting in a kind of way in which something is able to be changed – even if it’s momentarily.

So I come into a town, in other words, it’s like I’m a traveler and I come into a town in which there’s kind of a lottery being held at the local café. This occurs once a year at the café. So the steps in order for this to happen is that the café is given meat from some animal or something that is sacrificed or slaughtered, and then the meat is made available to those in need.

Because this meat hasn’t been inspected or anything, you know you can’t let the local establishment know what’s going on, but this café then will cook the meat for the people that come in to enjoy a special meal once a year that is free. And, as part of all of this, there is a charitable event auction and lottery tickets to support the cost and whatnot, in which there’s a big winner of all of this.

And it’s also done quietly because, again, this is probably something that’s illegal to do in terms of what you’re allowed to do in terms of the powers that be. So this occurs quietly without any fanfare that would cause the authorities to have to act to stop this.

I come into the café at the moment of the auction, or of the lottery; it’s not really an auction. And those who bought the various lottery tickets are up front waiting for the result. I’m sitting there and, for some reason, I’m in a space where I’m anticipating who the winner might be of those standing up there. And the winner turns out to be someone that no one expected, who had taken and mortgaged their house to get as many tickets as possible, and this person lucks out and wins the $1 million.

Meaning: The meditation dream talked about, and went into a depth about, the Gambler archetype, and this was presented from an outward perspective as a kind of unconsciousness, or ignorance, or being overwhelmed or under the control of that sort of thing. In this dream, the Gambler energy is given another spin.

In the dream a gambling sacrifice is done each year in order for a special feed to be put on for everyone in need that day. Symbolically speaking, for those in true need there is a special flow that makes itself known in manifestation. This inner flow is veiled from the forces and powers who are not in the congruence of such a graciousness.

Those who make the benefit available to mankind are willing to let go of everything they have to roll the dice, although such behavior is reckless in its outer appearance, and isn’t officially sanctioned, as a real act of gambling which the deeper meaningful effect comes from inner into outer with it, even though you wouldn’t think so, there can be a redemptive transformation.

There is a hidden quality about this in which this is not understandable to the outer, so to keep a good thing going it is best to be conducted silently so as to be within the veils of the outer amnesia.

This dream points out a virtue behind a Gambler archetype principle and, in doing so, indicates that there is always two sides to a scenario, the outer and also the hidden inner. In terms of what is going on it is important to not lose track of the inner, and the greater hidden value behind such an innerness, which is always seeking to make itself known in manifestation. In this dream this is where the Gambler archetype pays off: when it’s done in a non-personal way.

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