If you’ve ever tried to drive with a full cup of coffee you will understand this dream, because, when you try to do that, you suddenly become aware of a hundred bumps on the road that you were never aware existed. For the purposes of the dream, the dreamer is trying to keep an innerness intact, but everything around it, front and back, is trying to disrupt that inner state, all while the inner state is trying to impose itself on the outer situations. This is the struggle of trying to bring our inner life into the everyday of what we do. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: My earliest dreams seemed to be more about almost like just forms, and it was like they come together and they shift. I can’t remember that much more about them. It wasn’t like anything was happening as far as people. It just was forms and shifting.
In the second dream, it’s like I’m looking for someone, and I go into an old theater building. I have to go down into the basement and through this kind of maze of rooms, and then I keep going past people but I can’t find the person that I want. I come out the other side, and I decide I have to go over to the next town.
And so I hitch up a horse to a wagon, a horse and a buggy kind of arrangement, and I head over there. And I have somebody else with me now, but then I get distracted, or not distracted, I’m going there, but there’s a man that is behind me that’s trying to pass me, also with a horse and buggy, but he’s trying to make his horse go too fast, and is kind of in that sense abusing the horse.
So I’m trying to get my wagon to block that so that he can’t go so fast that he wears out his horse, or abuses it. And then there’s another horse and buggy that comes in front of me which means I have to slow down a bit, too. That’s okay because I’m trying to get the guy behind me to slow down and even to get him to stop and ride with us, or go at a different pace, because his pace is way off in terms of how he’s pushing the horse. That’s all I remember. It was just a night when the dreams were kind of jumbled.
John: The theme of the dreaming had to do with being able to pull and integrate into a wholeness, into a oneness, all aspects of inner into outer, and the outer effect being recognized as a quality coming from an innerness.
And when you were like looking at that, or contending with that, or in the swirl of something like that not having pulled it through with a clear-cut understanding of where this was all at, what it all meant because you were, in terms of the fact that to properly do this you have to let go of everything, and you weren’t able to let go of everything, because you were affected by the horse, meaning a sense of power in the buggy or whatever, you know one behind going at a peculiar pace, one in front going at a faster pace, you in the middle. In other words, whatever all that dynamic was, and how you were having to cope and relate back and forth to the tug-o-war of something like that, you were not sorting out what that really meant. However, it is better, that’s a better image than sitting completely in an amnesia as if there’s nothing going on.
That image of being kind of in-between things, and frustrated by being in-between things, and it’s almost as if when you’re in that it’s a frustration that seems to have an outer vibrational effect because the buggy in the front’s not acting right in relationship to the buggy in the back.
Take that image, add this following image to it. Let’s say you have a house, and the house has an outer area that is exposed to the public. In other words, it’s what the public can see. The public can’t see the inner sanctums of the house.
So if you have a family in the house that’s protected because something sits in this outer area and is able to contend with the forces of things in this zone in the outer part of the house, and is able to somehow or another sustain its ability to do that, that means that on the deepest of the inner levels everything can appear to be okay.
But what if that outer level gets broken into from the collective on the outer, of which something can be sitting in that outer room that is all properly barricaded and whatnot, and protected, so that the innerness is secluded from it from happening?
See, you with the carriage with something in the back and something in the front, you are in that outer room. Now if the outer room breaks down… First of all, what is this outer room? What is this carriage that is caught by something in the front and something in the back? Essentially this is a zone that you could describe as a place where the dynamic is being played out between the forces of vibration and energy that have penetrated the lower levels of the inner plane, in other words, because you can have a place of a greater quietness.
Now what’s happening, the mistake that’s being made in consciousness, is that a person can go into this place, can be really soothed in this place, and can thereby pull themselves into this greater level or degree of isolation, or a greater inner level. Yet you’re still going to have this outer level, of which there’s an innerness having penetrated it, that is able to keep things hidden. If it’s effective enough it can keep things hidden. So you can have the buggy that’s not right in the front, and you’ve got something pushing from the back, and sitting in between you have an energetic that holds the line.
These shapes all have to come together, and so you have that as your schematic, and then you go into a dream in which what you have as a consequence is this area in-between in which there is a dynamic going on so that the buggy in the front and the buggy in the back, there’s kind of a veiling as a result of the buggy in the middle.
So this leads to a confusion. See, where your dream left off is you saw what it’s like to be in this in-between, but your image wasn’t enough to show that this in-between is a lot like an extension to a house, an extension that is out there in which if anything goes on it goes on against this extension, this kind of zone, and that on the inner of that even is a quietness, is a peace.
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