The Obstruction

5Funny thing about a spiritual journey: we are both the problem and the solution. We are the problem because the psychologies and identity issues we have developed – by being born into a world detached from human purpose – prevent us from being our natural selves. And we are the solution because the totality of our design wants us to respond to our purpose. There are many paths and ways to do this, but those are just pointers along a path that each person will have to pioneer for themselves, because we all have different hurdles to overcome. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream I went through a process in which the effect of that process within causes one to reach this kind of letting go, or inability to indulge, like I am accustomed, or had been accustomed, to doing in the past. And, as a result, my time is more freed up because I am not so construed to contending with outer features and factors – as if they have some sort of control, or ownership, or effect over my state of being.

They’re there, but I’m not sure just what to make out of them anymore, especially in relationship to the fact, in a certain confusing way, where once upon a time that sort of thing would have held me in its grip, or in a kind of trance. And so I have a dream in which it portrays things like what you were doing in terms of a demeanor that I have towards what there is, that is somehow or another a demeanor of a type of letting go that has me somewhat surprised.

But before having this dream I had the meditation dream and, in the process of the meditation dream, it was as if I was catching up with the whole idea of what it’s like to let go, and how the letting go opens something up and is what is important in terms of awakening.

So there’s a number of steps that I seem to go through in order to kind of fall into this space, this inner expansive, or letting go, space.

So in the meditation dream I start with an image of being able to look, from above, down upon a playing field; and there’s a game going on. It’s like a football game or something. Two sides are going at it, and each side has to factor in the presence of something that is holding its attention or, in other words, an obstructive aspect.

So that’s the dynamic. It starts off not yet coming fully down into life, able to look down at something and see that there’s this whole thing going on, all having to do with something, and of course, if you were to ponder what it’s all having to do with, you’d ponder it from the standpoint of, well, I guess it’s the football and they’re going at it this way and that way in order to move this obstructive object around, or aspect, which is the football.

And then the image shifts, and there is a progressing to a state of being in which the free flow comes real close. And to come real close, then I come into the dynamic of being the obstructive object that is used as the principle object of the game. So now I am the football.

And then the whole thing shifts, the access shifts, again and what I do is with the slightest little affect, in other words, in this shift I have to be careful of the slightest little effect because it can throw things out of a balance, and could cause an indulgence.

And so I find myself having to transform that somehow or another in the outer, so that as the football is in relationship to the whole playing field, and I have this closeness, that you don’t have this whole intensity there that causes misconstruances of attention that go this way, or that way, and break up a continuity.

So what is going on is I am seeing what it is like to be in manifestation, having to live under set rules of engagement, that must be put off. They have to be set aside in order for the players of the game of manifestation to get over some outer effect that would predominate over their attention.

And so then in the next aspect of awakening, it’s as if whatever that was that had one indulgence, there’s a letting go and I am deemed to be the aspect itself, that is in play on the field, causing a back and forth dynamic. And then finally a suspense is able to be lifted, and the challenge transcended, as I am able to shift from that inner effect with ease, and affect, in the outer, an unfoldment process.

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