Mostly we think of ourselves as feeling “normal,” or as feeling tired, but we actually are changing speeds all the time. Sometimes we are the tailgater, other days we are the meandering driver. It’s good to have an awareness of our speeds, particularly in relation to the people closest to us, because they will have shifting speeds, too, which will affect one person’s ability to relate to the other person. And, in our spiritual journey, we are also learning to incorporate the quicker speeds of higher energy into our system in a balanced way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: So, in my meditation dream, I had to look at this in terms of having to look at it as an overall spatiality. I have to look at the polarities, the ends. In other words as if, in a masculine way, you’re still looking at something going from one point to another point – instead of just holding an overall space.
The stillness and the holding of the overall space is really where it’s at, on some level, but the masculine way still flaunts about. That’s its nature, just like the feminine acts like it’s being left behind, or rejected, in some fashion.
So, in the meditation dream, because of the way my Kundalini energy was speeded up at the party that was in the building here, and during a very engaging day with our water leak and all of that stuff, it actually solved itself interestingly when one didn’t get thrown asunder. So I was having trouble, in the meditation, of quieting myself and I decided to lie down to see if that would make a difference – and that’s when an amazing thing happened.
Once in a while I’d have to do something to break up a pattern, or routine, and the only thing I know how to do, when I’m not just going somewhere, is to sometimes lie down or change my position. And, when I changed my position, I was still attentive to a focus, the idea of a focus of a letting go, and so suddenly I was dreaming that I was paying attention to an energetic focus in which I left the raciness in one place, and focused on a pointedness of being still. Almost as if there’s the arrow inside of myself as the prime directive, an arrow to the stillness, and yet a link and connection to the raciness yet.
In other words, almost as if I was feeling the polarities, and the result was a sense of both places I guess is where you’d say that. I had a sense of what I was leaving behind, the Kundalini energy, and there was the adherence to a thread that delved into the letting go.
Normally, if you go into a letting go, you’re in a letting go and all of that other is gone, and then something emerges out of the letting go and that’s your meditation dream. But, in this case, it was like an experience in which I had a sense of both places yet, which means that the depth of letting go is compromised because of the nature of which the senses had come alive in the outer.
And I observed the thread of letting go as if I was looking at myself lying there in a quandary, and the experience was profound because my natural awareness was enhanced by the focus that I could see and what I was like in an uncontrollable aliveness, out of control subject to getting lost in an outer flow. In other words, both states were experiential.
In other words, when you get carried away and speeded up in the outer it’s easy where you get too over the top, yet I’m aware of a type of stillness that I was able to maintain a kind of auric spatiality of beingness, that I was able to maintain yesterday. And so, in the dream now, I’m looking at it from the inner. You might say this outer was like a scenario that points to what that is like in terms of a depth from within.
Now what I found profound in observing this is that, even though I may not have gone somewhere real profound to the degree of where you let go and you’re just gone; I mean it’s not like I wasn’t gone. I let go, and then I was aware of this other. Normally I’m not aware of anything when I let go, and I could appreciate the letting go, and the essence of an excitable inflating fire and air energy being able to put this into an attentive spatiality.
So what is going on is I am able to be in the inner and the outer if I hold deeply to the thread of singular focus letting go. In other words, I can do that in a letting go. Now what I’m talking about is what it is like when the senses in the outer are afire, and then directed to stop. When the Kundalini energy is taken on in full force, and then brought to arrest, it is possible to be able to note the expanse as a spatiality – which is opposite of getting consumed by an out of control outer vibrationalism.
So the meaning is, to bring inner into outer in a meaningful way it is necessary to take in the outer vibratoriness and, in doing so, place it into the heart as an experience of inner stillness. In doing so, I am breathing the outer senses as a Kundalini energy to be absorbed as an inner space of heart stillness.
In other words, the outer is louder, it invokes and follows a lot of the mental reflective and all of that side, and it’s denser, and then the heart is stiller and subtler. This is done in the outer when the engaged energetic senses fire up, then are breathed in as an in-breath light.
The opposite condition, in other words, to point out what it’s like to talk about it as a density, the opposite condition is to pay attention to and react to the outer senses, compelling the heart to shrink defensively, you know that’s when you go stupid. But I am able to be truly vulnerable by not having to react in this human condition pattern when I am able to exact an inner focus of stillness as the in-breath takes in the liquid light of a divine sense array.
The result is a joyful dance like inner exhilaration in that in this in-breath so much gets healed. Everything around you gets healed when you do that. That is what awakening to the intertwined wholeness is all about.
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