A Cohesion

09eewIn our dreams, we are always trying to find a balance between the masculine and feminine natures that we all have inside of us. The outplay of this dream shows three generations of female – child, young adult, and older woman – trying to bring the masculine into a “healthy” relationship.  As we are all the characters in our dreams, this is an inner struggle that needs to be resolved, yet the female dreamer understands that the feminine aspects cannot become like the masculine aspects to appease them, or make them feel comfortable. The relationship needs to be built with respect to the inherent nature of each characteristic for it to be a healthy one. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just pulled out my last dream. In my last dream it’s like I’m maybe young, just around teenager somewhere. I’m living in a house with a young girl, a little girl, and an older woman, and then there’s a man that comes in, periodically.

And he seems to be trying to do something for all of us to help raise the little girl, but he doesn’t always know how to interact with her, yet, and he’s getting older. I can tell there’s something kind of off, or wrong, about him right now, so I want to do something for him, or we all do.

So we look around, and he does have kind of a strange vehicle that’s parked in one room of the house. I don’t even know how to describe it. So I realize it might help him if we could take him out for a ride in this, but we could never drive that. And then I feel like anything we could drive we couldn’t drive fast enough, anyway.

I wouldn’t know how to drive a motorcycle, which might perk him up. So I’m racking my brain trying to figure out what I can do, you know what kind of a ride I can take him on that will kind of perk up his energy. And I’m going over in my mind things like horse and buggy ride, a Ferris wheel ride, I think. Maybe a ride in a convertible is what I finally come up with. I’m just racking my brain trying to come up with something because we don’t know how to drive his vehicle and we wouldn’t drive that fast enough, anyway. And that’s when I wake up, as I’m just trying to figure this out.

John: So what you’re talking about is the feminine nature to be able to take something that is in a masculine outer context, that is overly spacious in its nature, and bring it into a cohesion so that it can see itself, and so that everything can come to a cohesion.

What you know is that you don’t try to keep up with that, because if you try to keep up with that. And so that might even be a big aspect of a correction here, is the idea that you have to try to keep up with that. No, it’s not your role to try to keep up with that. It’s your role to try to cause something to occur, so that the effect of what is overly spacious, and zooming out, is able to find a cohesion based upon the way you hold a presence about things, based upon the way you allow something to be able to be felt, or experienced, which means you have to pull it back to some degree.

But you cannot pull it back in a way that restricts that. You have to pull it back in a way that comports with that, without trying to race out that way yourself, because you’re not allowed to race out that way because that is not what is meant to be, in terms of who you are. And so you are seeing that, in terms of who you are, you are connected to a sight on this particular level in terms of a higher self part, the grandmother part or whatever, and your regular, natural nature. You have proper cohesion training, or understanding, in this motif to be able to take and make a difference in this kind of atmosphere.

That’s very interesting. Which is the same thing as saying that you are bothered by, for example, a certain aspect of something in the outer, and it probably relates to me, and it has to do with how something is out of twang, in some regard or another. And that you’re not going to do yourself any favors by trying to catch up with that which is out of twang, or going in some pace that it’s going in. Instead you have to hold a quality of a presence of nature and being that enables it to be able to let go of maybe the way that it is driving itself. You don’t try to drive that way yourself. You, instead, hold onto a cohesion, and in that holding onto that cohesion you are actually giving something to that aspect of unfoldment.

And what you’re evaluating to do is to figure out what it is that you have to give to it? Is it a convertible approach, or is it this, or is that? In other words, you’re still working within the context of the car, meaning something that drives itself in a pace, and at a point, that you’re not going to be trying to catch up, or keep up, with.

Now that’s interesting that this is pointed out to you to have to recognize that you need to be like that because, from my perspective, I keep trying to get you to speed up. And that is not right. I act as if that you are missing something if you don’t learn to go catatonic, and then let go of the catatonic. That’s me, in my dementia, trying to turn your world into a dementia or something.

You know the approach that upholds a state that is conducive to a greater beingness, and you function in a way that tries to hold that together, and not try to keep up with that. And this is an interesting inner lesson of a quality of depth of a feminine beingness, because you often see, in terms of feminine nature, you often see the opposite occurring where they attempt to race out. They attempt to join that kind of world in some capacity. You know, women take and are all concerned about this, and all concerned about that, all as an idea that it has to do with imagery or something. And so she is not able to let go and actually settle back into herself.

But at what price is that in terms of her catching up with a deeper depth of herself? Having to maintain an image, and a persona, that is in keeping with having to conduct, in this kind of environment a certain way of coming across – and you see a lot of that – and how you are is you’re being shown that the exact opposite, or contrast, is what is important.

There is a way of letting go having to go around like that because that is a debilitating state to have to sit in.

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Carrying it Across

rqwetionWhen we get advice from others, do we follow it? The answer for most would be: sometimes, if I agree with it. Any advice we get in the outer world will always have a bias and an agenda, which then meets our biases and agenda. And mostly we are not conscious of this effect. Our dreams also give us guidance and advice, yet the images just show us where we are and what we are dealing with, leaving us to choose our own direction. Of course, our dreams also have an agenda: they are always trying to help us fulfill our human possibility.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: What I remember about my dream is that it felt like others, and I, were living somewhere where we were given the ability to do our routines in a certain way. And however I had set up that routine, in terms of how it pulled things to you, or how you did things, I knew I had done this before.

Then I’m kind of trying to study the results, and the way other people have set up just how you go about these routines, and how you pull things to you. And I feel like the way I’ve done it either doesn’t rack up enough points, or it’s not as efficient as it can be; and I know I’ve gone through this before, but I’m a little frustrated. So I’m talking to someone because it feels like I want to change it so it’s more efficient, or so I get a different result.

I know there was more to it than that, but it was about all I could pull out.

John: The schematic that’s coming down, or opening up, is that the stuff that we’re going through, whatever it is in the outer, we always know that the outer somehow reflects what is taking place on the inner. We kind of know that, but it’s getting more and more apparent that it’s like that.

So when you have a dream and you have a certain vibrational element in it, as it becomes more and more apparent that there is something of a transformative flow coming from inner into outer, it becomes more and more apparent of a recognition of this somewhere else, which means that the barrier between something that is occurring in the outer, and something that is opening up in the inner, is becoming thinner and thinner.

And, ordinarily, for the average person, they go through and they do things in the outer and they tend to think that the way the weather is, and the way this is, and the way that is it all has to do with circumstances and fate – and they don’t realize that the way you’re meant to look at the outer is you’re meant to look at the outer in terms of what it portrays is going on in terms of you – from inside yourself.

In other words, there’s something about a human being that is tied to orders and guidance. And so, initially, you just think that you’re going around and you’re doing whatever it is that you’re doing, and you’re doing that just for shits and grins in terms of what is interesting to you. And it kind of stays on that level to begin with, but after awhile you come to realize that everything that you do goes back and reaches to some depth within, in which something is correspondently inflecting into the outer.

In other words, to begin with, the outer just appears to be something that is functioning with a whole other level of inflection. But, ultimately, the outer becomes something that is a blueprint carried across vibrationally, from the inner, so much so that as you dream you can see something that is extremely, extremely clear inside of yourself, and can you wake up that something that’s extremely, extremely clear inside of yourself? Can you wake it up so that it is also unfolding? And the recognition of that unfolding is an outerness, and you can see the outer context of something that is an inner awakening, or quickening. That’s what you’re dreaming.

And so, it’s funny how that was the theme. Probably the simplest way to present it is that there comes a point in time when a person comes to realize that they receive guidance in the dreaming. Before the dreaming is something that operates in kind of another level, that can seem separate from a capacity of inner unfoldment, in terms of the outer. In other words, the outer can seem distinct from the inner, such that the inner is something that hints, or tries to speed up, or tries to quicken something in terms of an outer capacity. And yet you see yourself as functioning in an outer capacity.

Instead, what you have to come to do, is you have to see that the outer capacity that you’re functioning is a closer blueprint to the vibration of something that you are aware of inside of yourself than you realize, and that as you become more conscious you come to realize the two coming together. But you’re at a point now where what you see inside, when you open your eyes you don’t see it on the outside. But it will come to a point where what you see on the inside when you open your eyes you’re going to see it on the outside as well. That’s the inner and the outer coming together as one, and so that’s kind of the theme.

In other words it’s introducing a little component that, for some reason, one is refusing to look at. In other words, it’s one thing to say that the inner and the outer have to come together as one, and it’s another thing to realize that what you see vibrationally inside yourself, that you can’t hold onto, the look and the appearance of something inside yourself, and when you open your eyes it’s different, means that eventually when you open your eyes it is no different, that how you are in the outer is identical to how you are in the inner.

And that the idea that something is slowed down or whatever in the outer, meaning veiled, well, when you take away the veiling it’s kind of like one and the same. In other words, it’s like you do something in the outer and it seems to function in terms of a whole other sense and mind kind of manner of being, and that’s how it is when you’re doing something in the outer is you tend to see that, you know, okay you’re not working with the unseen light, you’re working with the senses, you’re working with something that’s apparent, that is very limited.

But you will come to see that eventually they’re two close together, that that whole unseen gets played out, and practiced or effectuated, comes across. When you no longer hold onto the illusion of the outer, in terms of that being your reality, you come to realize that what you’re doing in the outer is carrying across some innerness.

Very unusual epiphany. I mean it’s easy to go along and make a great big step and say the inner and the outer come together as one and the same, but it’s another thing to note how that is, to actually have a sense of how that is, to feel that instead of conceptualize it. So you’re trying to feel it.

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A Natural Order

nrur1We’ve had the experience that when we feel tired, or overstretched, normal procedures become more difficult. Energetically, it means our normal energetic shield, which protects us, is weak. That makes us susceptible to any and all energies around us, which could mean lower emotions, or moods, or even colds. And rather than us being in the oneness of ourselves, in our strength, we are scattered and no single part of us is in charge. That means any part of us can take over, and then anything can happen. If we recognize this happening, we can make an intention to proceed carefully, while we reconnect to the things that are important to us to re-arm our shield.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So that’s the meditation stuff in which there was something about my nature that was all too catatonic yesterday, and all askew. And so when I come to bed, it’s rather late, and so I have a sequence of dreams that have to do with there being bits and pieces out of place. And I kept throwing it off, and throwing it off, until one of them seems like more important to maybe try to discuss, or look at, and so write it up.

And what is happening in this image is, it’s like I’ve initially walked into like a catalytic area, like a cafeteria, and then I realize the person I am with is interested in getting something to eat, or I’m suddenly with someone and if they’re interested in getting something to eat. I don’t need anything to eat because I’m not really hungry, but it seems to be part of the protocol to have to be part of all of this environment.

So I go and I get some soup. It’s a little awkward even for me to go and get soup because I’m not really in that condition, either. And so, because I didn’t want much, I turn away from this food counter area quicker and look back into the dining room. And there seem to be teenagers at every table, which means that I’m kind of in a daze as to where to sit. In other words, this is a reflection of my parts scattered all over the place.

And suddenly I notice my friend is behind me, he’s gotten something, whatever it is, and he’s just kind of waiting to see what table I select. I don’t really care what table I get. I just don’t see a table, and there’s no space that opens up for me because, somehow or another, my parts are still scattered all over the place, which means I don’t feel comfortable in the area. Nor do I know how to select a table now.

And so, I’m at an impasse, with no opinion one way or another. But I would normally have an opinion if I was grounded; but I’m not grounded. My parts are too scattered around that I’m kind of demasculated or washed out.

In other words, this is something that, in what is occurring, is the opposite of before where I had kind of a loud and outspoken mannerism. Now it’s more like I’ve stopped, or exhausted, myself, and now where do I stand? Where do I pick up the pieces again?

So it’s a dream that indicates that, when I wear myself out, I go the other extreme and let go of a semblance of balance of self, so I do not know how to conduct myself. And what happens is, when in an extreme, I don’t realize either that I’m not conducting myself in the ordinary environment; just taking into account everything that happens in the environment in an ordinary way.

And so then when I settle back I’m also out of balance, in terms of the equanimity of my being, as well, so I need to find the attentitiveness that is meant to be, for myself and others, where there is a letting go of indulgences. Which means, again, this is a quality in which you’re holding a space is what you really are. You’re able to hold a space, and you don’t hold the space by being overt about it, nor do you hold the space by totally going insipid, getting washed out.

So if you’re too loud about something, in a way it’s okay to be loud about something if that’s what’s necessary to cause an attention – but can you stop? You have to at some particular point completely unplug. You have to be able to be in a way so that the situations of life, that are unfolding around you, remain, and can stay, in their natural order. But if you go off in any kind of way you’re not necessarily taking into account the position of things.

So anyway, it’s another kind of letting go, rather than trying to figure out what is going on. That’s very interesting. Under a similar token, the way the dreams were meant to be, is I am meant to notice the tea leaves as well, but it’s the tea leaves in terms of visibility. When the visibility is there, let go of it. Let it sort itself out. If it doesn’t sort itself out like it should, it’s not meant to short itself out the way I see it to have to be. And consciousness isn’t there for it to be like that. And if it’s a bastardization yet, then it’s a bastardization yet; but that’s as good as it gets.

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