It’s useful to have consciousness about the exchange of energy when we are with people. Sometimes being with someone charges us up, and so we want to be with them again. Other times we always feel worn out when they leave, so we tend to see them less and less. A better strategy, however, is to be able to maintain our own energetic space. And we do that by generating energy from within, through our thoughts and intentions. For example, when a friend is in need they may be a huge drain energetically, but if we hold in ourselves the questions: what does this person need? Or, how can I help?, those intentions can generate the energy that is needed, thereby making much more possible. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: All I remember of my first dream is that I seem to be watching fire burning along a ridge line, like way in the distance, like it looks at night. And, when I woke up from that, then I had a lot of trouble going back to sleep. Then I had a second dream.
John: The fire burning in the distance could be something that’s like pulling, or draining, an energy out of you, a sensation effect in which some part of your world is being discombobulated, or breaking down. And for you it would be in a sense of the outer, or image in the outer, and such an image then would leave you feeling a little awkward in terms of your sense of self.
Jeane: In the next dream I seem to have come into town in a car with a couple other people. One of them is a friend I haven’t seen in a long time, but she’s traveling with us, and we’re going to go to an event that night – and first we drive to where the event grounds are.
We see there’s parking places there. I think you get this brilliant idea that we should actually stay at a motel right across the street from it, and then we can just walk over and be able to see everything.
But then when we go to drive to the motel, instead of parking the car at the motel, you want to park it on the event grounds, which I think it’ll be out there amongst all the people; you won’t have any flexibility with it. So I’m upset at that idea. I don’t know why you want to do that when we can just walk across the street.
John: So what this image is churning up, or dealing with, is this idea of holding a space, or not. In other words, if you park, or if you stay back in the motel where everything is kind of balanced, or has a certain presence, as opposed to parking in the midst of the crowd; when you park in the midst of the crowd, it’s really hard to hold your energy from getting affected by the activity of everything going on around you, getting drained, in other words.
It can be the effect of getting drained because there’s all that commotion around you, but when you hold yourself in a place where there is some safety, or sanctity, and then go into across the street and such, you’re able to maintain a sense of balance.
So the dream is kind of telling you a little bit about a way of being that is more conducive to how you’re able to cope and relate. And the reason why it’s a little like that is, you might say, as a theme thought, is the idea of how much company do we dare have coming? Because that then can take and have the effect of undermining a certain balance, and throw us into more of an effect of the environment, this being an environment that’s brought in with lots of commotion, as opposed to taking and holding that space, and holding a balance in that space, which is important for maintaining our own sanity.
Jeane: I know the dream right before this, I was in an environment that was almost a little alien, like the people looked a little alien. And all I remember of that dream was at one point a couple I seem to be rooming with was looking for something that they’d lost. And after they left the room, and I looked at my cupboard, it was something that had been brought back from India. Then after that when I looked at a bureau, when I saw amongst all the things in the bureau what I thought they were searching for, so I went out to tell them. I wasn’t able to see it at first because there was too much junk on the bureau.
And then what I seem to remember is going through various rooms, and feeling like I was at this large building, and feeling like I’m being pursued, and I’m trying to look for places where I can get away.
John: You’re still, in your way, dealing with something that has affected your usual typical way of balance. It’s your way of reporting how this makes it hard for you to pull something out when something has undermined your energy.
The underlying theme as to why your energy is undermined, is it was getting drained by something that has sucked out your normal vibrancy and, therefore, you have a sense of not being able to find something, or something being broken down, or being pursued, or being harassed, which is a type of weightiness. And it’s a draining of Chi, and it’s a draining of heart energy, and these are images that come up to show that something is askew. And what we went through that kind of drains an energy, and drains a heart energy, is our experience around Ray. He does that.
Any course of time around him he kind of leaves you flat, because he’s always on the take, and it’s always about him, and there is something that’s always missing, and he’s always looking to figure something out in terms of what he needs or something like that. And an approach that’s like that, that’s indulgent like that, sucks the energy out of an environment.
Jeane: So in the Wal-Mart dream, as I call it, it’s like I know that when we all go to the event grounds, it feels like there’s going to be a contest that someone has to observe, and they maybe want us to take part in it. And I seem to be objecting to that, just like I object to the parking because there’s something off about it.
Oh, I didn’t bring in the Wal-Mart. It feels like we go into a store and my friend starts talking to the clerk, and said she felt good when she came into town ever since she knew where the Wal-Mart was. And I’m kind of almost thinking, oh my God, I never go to Wal-Mart, you know.
I’m not feeling good, and the clerk is agreeing with her, yeah, she always knows once the Wal-Mart is she knows where she can go to get what she needs, she feels better, too. I’m not feeling better about this, knowing where the Wal-Mart is.
John: Well it’s an unusual image in that Ray’s sense of feeling good, for example, is when he knows where to go to kind of get pacified, or balanced, or his idea of his needs met; to find a way of satisfying that. And it’s his way of apparently healing because he still has to function that way. He still has to use that as an approach for healing, and if he doesn’t, then, he carries a greater woundology, and a projection, and a greater discombobulation.
It is a very subtle draining energy. The idea about a Wal-Mart knowing where it’s at, or not knowing where it’s at, is sorting to an even deeper thread, or a deeper issue, and the deeper issue has to do with the Will of God, or the Will of man.
It’s always nice to know things in the outer, which is kind of a Will of man thing, that supposedly is going to make your life easier. But the Will of God works in a different principle in that it works with the heart, and if it doesn’t quite feel right, it drains something in terms of your recognition of something as a depth inside of yourself. Then it’s not good.
And so you have a sense inside of yourself of a Will of God, which is a heart quality, that gets compromised when it is associated with something that is of a construct that’s more in terms of an outer.
So, you are just portraying it as something in terms of how one lives in an overall sense. The heart leads, not the mind. It’s a very complex way of trying to present it, but it’s kind of presented in the fact that you are just kind of, plop, in it. You dreamt like this because, in your heart, you were basically feeling flat, a little disconsolate, and even could be kind of drained, or sad. And yet we’re solving that, were healing yourself in this way.
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