Unfinished Business

fbdfWe think that when we hold on to things that we retain them, save them, or keep them – but it’s not true. When we hold on to things we’re actually losing out on the things that are trying to unfold, because we are caught in the past and unavailable for the now. In this series of images the dreamer is being shown, in a number of ways, how the inability to let go prevents something from happening, or may even cause him to lose something he already had.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So I have a couple of dreams that point it out, and then one dream that shows how one can come back into a letting go ambivalency that sweeps and permeates. But that isn’t how it is, initially. Initially one gets abstracted, and when one gets abstracted the situation becomes somewhat abstract.

In this dream, I seem to observe a situation in which it appears a person over-watered an area, and by over-watering a very specific spot the spot seemed to have gotten flooded. As a consequence of this spot getting flooded, a whole chicken disappears. I never did quite see the chicken even, but I find out later that there was supposed to be a chicken there and, gosh knows how that ever was possible, that there was a chicken there, because the spot has been flooded.

So, in the next image, it’s kind of like a redo of it all where one comes back essentially to the situation but, you know, kind of in a reverb, but it’s not quite coming back in the same way. You don’t quite have this indulgence. You’ve let go of it to some degree, and so the chicken now is off to one side and is all cut up into various pieces, to be cooked or whatever you want to do.

So things are out in the open, but it doesn’t mean that that solves anything because there’s a vehicle in the area that is just sitting there. In other words, if anything the vehicle blocks a vision, or gets in the way. And where the water had flooded something, now the water’s just running in the area, and it’s just pouring around out of a hose, or something, onto the ground rather aimlessly.

So all the pieces and the components are there to be put together into something succinct, and to the point, and very clear, but currently everything is situated as kind of a sorting out abstraction. But, before, the whole place just got flooded and everything disappeared. Now things are around, it’s just that they’re still abstracted. They haven’t come together yet.

So into this equation comes another person who notices the waywardness and offers some suggestions, in terms of balance. He says, with the way all this is, we don’t want to be losing the chicken again. And, of course, before it was a whole chicken that disappeared. Now the chicken’s in the open, cut up into various pieces, but you have to go off to one side, and you have to ponder what to do next, and it’s not an easy thing to do because there’s a car in the way and then just prior to the car is water flowing. You’ve got to kind of take all of that into account. In other words, you’re kind of still in a wayward setting. But with everything visible, even though not aligned, a cohesion is possible as a potentiality.

And so then, in the next dream, those I am with find themselves in an unfamiliar place. In other words, nighttime has fallen and it’s time to settle back in this environment that functions a little differently. So there’s a house that we find and go into for the evening, which is a place where one can stop and rest.

You know, that’s the idea of going into this house is to stop and rest. However, even though it is conceivably what you would call a quiet time, the energetic in the air, the vibe of things, is still astir at this late hour, which means settling back into a quiet time or something is just not happening. And the way it’s foreseen is that there are like two rooms, and there’s like a bedroom, and then there’s like an outer room where everyone’s at, and they’re carrying on in an overly animated way instead of settling back as is customary at this time.

So, I seem to know, and can tell, that none of this touches me or something. It’s not more than abstract if it’s wayward. I seem to know that it’s best not to participate. You know, time is up for participating, and so I go into the bedroom. I don’t take my clothes of anything, I just lay on the bed as if to kind of rest, because there’s still all of this other activity going full steam in the other room.

A woman looks into the bedroom and sees that I have not really stepped aside from all of the other, and cleaned myself up yet. And the way this is pointed out is, she says I still have stubble on my chin, which means I haven’t properly shaved or something. What she means, like I say, not clean shaven, and not in a position to let go and be off to one side. In other words, I’m not able to just naturally step aside from an equation when something has been stirred up; I’m still caught in the animation, which means the significance of the dream is an image of malingering affliction.

So in this dream, what has been stirred up is still an unsettlement. I mean it hasn’t sifted itself out and let go. It’s still an intensity in the environment, so when I try to settle back this won’t work if there is a sense of unfinished business that is holding my attention in some capacity, that is keeping me entranced.

So as a consequence, if you really look at yourself, you see yourself as kind of haunted, not letting go. Something about my nature is obsessing, even, in that everything that the energetic appearance actually is giving that away, as I am still carrying myself with the wayward demeanor visible if someone steps into the room, or the place where I am at, visible for them to see.

And, when you put in the first dream, it’s like the situation got too indulgent, too much water, and what was needed got washed away. So to settle back is to find a balance and even-handed consistency. Currently the energy is too much and there is a discombobulation that predominates; energetic discombobulation. Given time a natural reorientation will occur.

The problem is that I am still seeking a type of attention – as if that’s what is necessary for breaking something through – and you don’t need to. You just need to let the stuff, like in the first dream, you’re able to break through the lack of recognition as to what to do, so you’ve broken through the chaos, you’ve shaken up the pieces so that the components are there that are important to be applied – if that is the intent. In other words, the chaos is no longer all over the place.

Although things may remain askew, I can move on because there’s a sight and recognition that can pull things together as it’s destined to be. It may not be a destiny in terms of what I would choose, but who am I to choose it? Now you settle back, you hand it off, you let go, and it’s no longer my business.

I’m not even sure that you work with trust anymore to properly let go; if you still think that you have to worry about the trust of the situation then you haven’t really let go. You hand it off, and so then what you do is you reground to what is needed as destiny takes over from here.

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Without Action

stones_zen_700It may seem counterintuitive to do nothing in a situation, but when when we begin to think about life in terms of energy, what may appear externally as nothing can actually be the most important thing happening. Here’s one way to look at it: in any given moment there is a limit to what is possible, because of the people involved, the situation, and the energies at play. So for us to try and steer that moment with our advice or strategies has a very narrow potential. Instead, if we work energetically, without judgment or criticism, we can hold in us the possibility for the best possible outcome. Whatever that may be, we can be in support of that as an outcome. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So it’s an interesting theme last night, this dreaming theme of having to recognize something more by way of knowing how to drop how one is.

The initial understanding of this came about as a buildup from yesterday’s dream, in which one was able to see that the way something wakes up is it feels like a descent, or something coming to you, or pulling you up. And then comes the challenge, at some point in time, when you kind of reverse that and have to come from a sense of self back into life – and not set off commotion, landslides, or something. You have to be able to do it in a more balanced, and natural, way that’s in keeping with everything around you in the atmosphere.

So that was yesterday, and then today is kind of like a type of continuation of this theme, pointing out a level of linearity, obsessive linearity, that is unnecessary and actually affects the way something is able to unfold.

What’s interesting in the scenario, if you look at it from yesterday, is that everything is out in the open. It’s not all washed away this way, or that way, like it had appeared to be to where something then needed to be drawn down, or shaken down, in a dynamic way to cause more of the situation to be taken into account.

Now, with what has happened, the situation has the pieces that are out there, they may not be aligned yet, but it’s not my job to align them. Under this kind of setting I can hold onto a mannerism, with a quality of demeanor and presence, that can take and handle the situation from here.

The secret to holding my focus and presence is to bring something through a little bit, and then know how to step back and let go so that you’re no longer caught up in any dynamic – because to get caught up in any dynamic causes a person to lose a greater sense of awareness, in terms of the whole. And so that whole is something that’s being designed and shaped based upon the input understanding, and how that is dealt with, just like a teacher takes with a student and causes them to become more aligned, more speeded up, and more aware about what’s going on, in the environment, so that they then can act upon a responsibility, and care, that they couldn’t act upon before because they weren’t aware of what was going on and how to sort themselves in relationship to the outer.

Just like it’s like that on the outer, on the inner it also stops right when it gets to a point where everything is left and able to figure it out from there. You don’t have to carry it all the way through as if, you know, that’s the end all be all. You don’t have to carry it all the way through. You can step back and let the component pieces sort themselves out; and if they get it wrong, they get it wrong.

This is what a teacher has to do with a student. The teacher has to hand out, but what the student does with it is their business, and this is a similar situation. I have gone to the length that’s necessary to point something out, and now I have to step away. Initially I may have had to do a few things that might have been a bit awkward in order to cause a shift of attention, but now, now that that has been done sufficiently, whereby people can catch up with it all on their own terms, however they’re going to catch up with it, however it is that they work with that, that’s what I now have to accept.

This is just like a teacher. A teacher has to hand something out as an awareness and recognition that the student catches up with, and what they do with it then is their business. The more polished and pure they become, the more their business is the teacher’s consciousness business in an overall consequence way – but that’s a whole other story.

Initially, in order for a person to gain a better handle in terms of how it is that they are meant to be and are, they initially have to only go so far and then settle back, because what they’re working on is establishing a quality that permeates without action. If the only way that they can permeate is to push the envelope themselves, get into the situation physically, then they blindside themselves by that digression.

And so you don’t make the digression after you have caused what is an epiphany understanding to come into place. You withdraw even more and, as you withdraw even more, then a certain sense of a greater beingness is able to take into account the situation. But if you stay in there in the dilemma, and you attempt to appreciate that setting in spite of things, then you are diffusing who it is that you are. You’re losing a sense of continuity and self worth, in terms of yourself.

So it’s a very, very fine line in that when, if necessary at times, is for something to shake through and come through and then, when it does, you have to be able to just drop it. You don’t keep going and going and going on some tangential mannerism. And then what’s meant to be will just be. And whatever that might be you have to accept that.

So the secret is, the issue is, can one do that after having gone to an extreme? If one cannot, then the extreme that you’re on will impose a lack of freedom upon the situation, and then you get some other strange outcome as a consequence of such deviation.

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The Routine

AljjIn this dream image there is much to deal with: the break-up of a relationship, family members with various issues, and the desire to hold things together – somehow. And this is an image that reflects how we go about our days, trying to manage all the different scenarios that arise, and then tie them with a bow by the end of the day. But what is most important, in this image and in our daily life, is how we are within any given scenario. It is better for us to bring our spiritual alignment and location into everything we do, rather than to change ourselves to adapt to what is happening. Our real strength and power comes from our ability to manage ourselves – emotions, thoughts, intentions – in any scenario, rather than to try to manage external events. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in this dream, I seem to have gone to live with a boyfriend I have, on some property that I think his mother owns – because she lives somewhere else on the property. He has a handicapped brother that lives on the property, and a sister that has some kind of issues, too, that lives there.

And there’s this really good physical education teacher that has us working out in classes, he and I, anyway, that we go to. I really like the routine with the classes. I seem to go from where I live to this cabin room where the classes take part, and we do that. And then we lock the room and we leave.

But something happens, in the middle of all this, where the guy and I break up. So I’ve gone to some other room on the property to stay, and I think I share the room with his sister, then. And I’m kind of studying how she’s coping.

And then I’m also thinking about his brother, who’s handicapped, and will the brother come to the classes or not? But it’s like the brother’s maybe supposed to go to some classes, like some kind of workshop classes, but he doesn’t seem to want to go. And I’m assessing the sister to see whether she would be able to go, or not, because I can’t quite tell.

And I remember going back to the room where we have the exercise classes and there’s a lock on the door, and I could probably pick the lock, but I’m not sure whether I’m supposed to go to those classes anymore now, or not, if we’re broken up. I think we could go there and workout together, but I’m not sure. You know, we just wouldn’t be staying together. We’d just focus on the working out.

I think I’ve sorted out that his brother doesn’t want to, but I’m thinking his sister might be well enough to go to classes, in town, where she could do some work. And I’m just trying to sort all that out. That’s all I remember of the dream.

John: Well, what you’re working with is a variable, inside yourself, that is putting you at some sort of pitch that’s imbalanced. I guess the dream is reporting on a scenario in which how it is that you’re conducting yourself is following an energetic that, when you let go of that energetic, when you’re able to just let go of the energetic – instead of the energetic not letting go of you – that you come to look at things in a whole other light.

And when you stop following, and functioning, under a particular energetic, then the way you may have been, or had been, tends to fall away, or lose its significance, because it was based upon this whole other mannerism.

And so what this dream is doing is it’s causing you to be able to step back, and be still, and in the stillness determine what is needed, or important, and what isn’t in terms of a flow. And that you cannot determine that if you’re overly indulgent in some manner or another.

Now, I don’t see how you’re overindulgent unless it’s a reciprocal to how I had been, yesterday, kind of in some sort of energetic craze that I couldn’t seem to shake. And that when one is in that kind of craze, then they’re not able to adhere to something more about themselves that is behind the scenes of everything going on, that is, from this behind the scenes state, able to remain quiet, invisible, and not be abstracted in one way or another with one’s attention and time skewered.

And, therefore, more likely to be in a kind of balanced kind of mannerism, knowing that what is important, you can’t take and see everything in terms of that, and so you have to be able to function from a level of the heart which is something that you can know.

When you’re zipping this way, and that way, you never can catch up with that. And so there’s no way of being able to appreciate, and accept, whatever it is, and however it is, that unfolds.

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