In this dream we see the image of a mother who, almost casually, remembers she has a baby, and, when she goes to find it, the baby isn’t there. But instead of doing everything to deal with this situation, she decides to do the dishes. Yet we all recognize this scenario: doing one thing in avoidance of another, more serious, or more difficult, issue. And when we apply this syndrome to our inner life, our dreams use such an image to show us how important it is that we understand what we are avoiding. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: My first dream last night, I would say that the color in the dream there was a lot of yellow, like the walls or the room seemed to be yellow; the light seemed to be yellow. And I was trying to teach you the tai chi form, or some form of tai chi or martial arts, Qigong something.
So I’m teaching it to you, and we seem to be lined up, you and I, kind of like there’s a line in what’s otherwise an empty, yellow room. But we get so far and I realize that the middle of the form, that you only know another form. You know, there’s different forms, or different styles. So it feels like I could maybe teach you the beginning and the end but I think the middle that you know another form. It’s like this form is going to be hard for you to learn, something like that.
Mostly I remember, in the dream, going through the motions with you, but there was a part that it felt like it would be hard for you to learn, either because you knew something else, or this wasn’t the form you were used to doing, or something like that. That was the first dream.
John: So, what you’re describing is kind of an inner condition, an outer condition, and a middle. So what you’re saying is the middle, which is kind of like the thread between two things, is something that is difficult.
Well, it’s difficult because you’re affected by an inner, or affected by an outer, and then we have this line in between, which is where we sort things out. And that’s what’s difficult. The sheer inner is not difficult. The sheer outer, in its ignorance, is not difficult, either; it’s just a dumbness.
But the thread, in between, that’s what’s difficult, because that’s where things come together. That’s where you have to have an awareness that pulls the inner and the outer together as working energetically as one and the same. And that that which is transformed from the inner into something that is denser in the outer, just because it’s denser in the outer, is not seen as something separate from the inner.
And so it’s all a process of catching up with the vibration. And so, in your dream, you’re using the tai chi movement, or an aspect of things in which you have a sense that there is a depth to that, and that there is an outer mannerism that approaches that, and that somehow there is the catching up with that makes the whole thing work, and function, and come together that is the energetic that makes what is going on all worthwhile.
Jeane: In the next dream I seem to be part of a large residence. In other words, it’s more like some kind of community, where people live together, than a home. I’m in one part of the residence, and then I remember that I have a baby, and it’s been around dinnertime so I want to make sure the baby has been fed. So I go back and I find the room.
I go in the room and go over to the bed, and there’s another woman with me. The bed’s kind of messed up. We pull back the covers a bit and we see that my baby’s gone. There’s some urine on the bed so maybe one of the babies, there was an accident when they were changing it, and somebody’s taken one of the babies to clean or something.
And then there are some dishes piled up nearby, and then there’s a second baby that’s been left behind. Well, she stays there, and I pick up all the dishes and stuff to take them down to the kitchen to wash. Then I’m going to come back; I figure somebody’s taken the other baby, my baby, to clean, so I’ll come back after taking the dishes down there and she must be cleaning up the rest of the room.
So I pile all the dishes up, and there are a lot to carry; you know how you have to open doors with your foot, or something. I make it all the way down to the kitchen area, and go in there kind of looking for someone, because I’m still trying to figure out how things are done here. I want to take the dishes over and wash them off under the sink, and then I’ll go back to help. Then have to figure out where my baby is. That was when I woke up.
John: This is a dream that portrays kind of a means to an end kind of modality, in that the baby that needs to be cleaned up is an aspect of a depth inside one’s self. And so, instead of contending and dealing with that directly, because you have abstractions that get in the way, and in this particular case that abstraction is more like a subrogation.
Subrogation is where you take your attention, from where it needs to be placed, and you put it into something that you think is going to help the equation of the situation, as precursor to the situation, perhaps even. And subrogation occurs all the time where people change their idea of how they want to see themselves in relationship to what they feel compelled to become, or as they see themselves in a process of change they go through steps that they see as part of a process.
It’s a subrogation in that what you’re doing is instead of taking a vibrational energy directly into the equation of whatever it is that is at hand, which in this case has to do with babies that have to, or parts of yourself that are in an unkempt state, that have to be brought into a clarity, or a balance, or into a rightness of nature, you instead take that attention of energy and you place it upon some other activity that has to do with the mess that is around you in the outer.
The mess that’s around in the outer is always going to be a reflection of something that is going on in the inner. So if you have a part of yourself that is askew, in terms of you catching up with it on the inner, you’re going to have abstractions in the outer that are going to be bifurcations, too. And when you try to work with those bifurcations, in the outer, it’s called subrogation.
Subrogation is where you’re trying to take the energy from one area, where it is more vibrant and vital and real, which is a part of yourself on an inner level, that needs to be aligned and cleaned up directly. You take that into the illusion of an outer, and attempt to fix the illusion of the outer. And, supposedly, by this process of subrogation, you’ll slingshot to being able to take care of yourself on the inner.
It’s a lie that is told continuously, and it is actually the way that veils are established, in which we get caught in an outer instead of reckoning to the innerness of our nature, that is constantly at our disposal, but we choose to subrogate.
A good example of subrogation, you know because this is the world, the physical world is a world in which it’s kind of the plane of the feminine matta, matter. That’s kind of a term that means mother, feminine. Subrogation often occurs where the feminine thinks that it has to change its demeanor, in such a way, so as to be able to cope with the change agents of life that are being imposed as a kind of power and control ideation of the masculine.
So the feminine may alter her appearance, and the greatest blasphemy of all is when she takes and subrogates her femininity, puts on a suit, so to speak, and goes about trying to function in kind of a linear capacity, instead of in terms of her fluid intertwinedness that she has a naturalness to in terms of this loci.
And it’s not going to work, and it’s called subrogation because what is repressed is a part of herself. And by repressing that part of herself she is able to function in this bifurcated way, but she has numbed down and veiled this whole other aspect of an aliveness.
Now, as Einstein has said, energy is neither created nor destroyed, it’s just placed in a different way, and so whenever any kind of subrogation exists, of which what you’re doing in terms of trying to clean up the dishes as opposed to dealing with something directly in terms of inner self, when subrogation exists what you’re doing is you’re taking an outer density of things that are in a slowed down, more numbed, condition and you’re slamming that upon yourself. And, in doing so, you are numbing yourself from a quickened aliveness that is more subtly attentive, and you’re using this as a substitution. It’s called a subrogation from having to face the actual quality inside of yourself that you’re meant to reach in a wholeness of being.
And so you go from light, so to speak, to sound, or to a slowness, to a deadened condition, and you use the deadened condition to what? To crawl back to the light? I mean, it’s a joke. And it’s subrogation because energy is not created nor destroyed that way, although one might like to believe so; it’s just functioning in a different form. Eventually you have to quicken, you have to speed up, and you have to realize that what you’re doing is abstractive from the wholeness.
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