We process energy, every moment of our lives. Some of it is for maintenance, like food, and air. Some of it is just in the dealing with other people’s energies, which we also need to process and let go of. And some of it is our own energies in reaction to, or relation to, what is occurring in our life. But the higher aspect of a human processing energy is to take a higher energy and bring it into the physical world. We see this when musicians connect to something and make beautiful music, or when a writer captures a universal moment in a poem. And, as humans, we can make ourselves available to manifest such energies in many forms, as compassion or kindness, or just a better way to resolve a conflict. In these ways, we manifest the higher into the lower, which allows everything to benefit from it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: The way I experienced it, first from the meditation dream, is I realized that I am able to denote, vibrationally, inner forces in life before there is an interconnected intertwining.
So what is it that I’m trying to say? I could tell when in the state of oneness, or inner state, or however you want to call it, if the ethers, that are an overall vibrational atmosphere, in other words just like there are ethers that are an overall vibrational atmosphere…
In other words, you have the outer, you have the inner, and yet then there is something more, and if the outer configuration of a dense quality nature is able to let go, so that what is going on in the overall atmosphere is able to touch, can come in, it’s like an inner coming into the outer. I’m talking about an aliveness from within that is at home; that can find itself at home in the outer.
In other words, it can touch the outer, and thus able to bring about change from within, or bring about change, in that it makes the outer which is in a bewilderment make sense, in terms of what it’s floundering about, how it’s floundering about, it pulls it together. If it doesn’t, then the vibration that one can note, or denote, inside themselves, will just kind of eventually shut down. It’ll have to go bye-bye. It can’t just keep doing what it’s doing to a person, if the person can’t handle it, or accept it, or focalize it.
In other words, then, that means that the way we take it in, in terms of our outer collective, is as if there is this part of ourselves that’s out of place, or inappropriate, in some manner, and like too speeded up or whatever, or not holding a direction conducive in manifestation – in relationship to this – because we can’t pull the two together, the subtleness from within, discernable somehow in its subtleness, as making sense in terms of our outer capacity.
I can tell if an inner intertwined aliveness of my innerness is embracing the outer. You can tell, in other words, if it is, because all of a sudden you get it. All of a sudden it’s like a light bulb moment as to what’s going on – and everything feels and makes sense. Otherwise there’s always something noodling. It’s almost as if there is no place in an outer substance way for an inner substance unfoldment to go, when you first notice this, and so it’s almost like this is an imagination, or craziness, or a kundalini thing; it’s too great a speeding up,
It can be the launching of things that are really jarring, and yet there is a way that one can assimilate that, and has to learn to assimilate that, because it’s what’s behind the denseness. It was out of an aspect of light, converted to a type of sound, that manifestation was created, and it is this substance, it is this quality, that is firing up trying to come into a manifested form.
So vibrations are an aliveness. The outer is this aliveness made manifest, in other words, to whatever degree that one is able to catch up with. Of course, it’s an aliveness made manifest on a sense level, and yet you need to have an aliveness made manifest on a level of light.
A human being is able to denote an inner aliveness trying to find the outer manifest and place to abide. You can do this, but you have to stop approaching things in this motif of senses only, outer senses only. In other words, if not embraced in this fashion, the vibrational inner aliveness remains veiled from the outer consciousness, and thus an inner/outer intertwinement in this shaping way, it gets missed.
Consciousness evokes accessing vibrations that seek recognition in an outer manifested modality. If denied entry, the vibration will go away, or float around, in the ethers. In other words eventually subsides. You might be kundalini crazy for a while, or speeded up crazy, floats around not yet born into manifestation. A human being is a conduit in which unmanifested vibrations are made manifest, and thus take on a way of being.
And so, in my sleep, I’m trying to explain this. I’m trying to figure out another way to explain something that can’t be said, that can’t be literally put down. And so in my sleep there was a whole other way that came about to explain this. And so these vibrations that have to come through and find themselves in the outer, that ground into the outer, are called the terrible 13 vibrations, just like teenage hormones, and they throw you around. That was interesting. I had the terrible 13s as they were called. How do you contend with the terrible 13s?
As I found myself writing all this up, they’re like the teenage years where one is afflicted by hormones that they have to learn how to handle in a non-crazed way. In this case, it is the kundalini energy coming through into creation, finding its home in creation. It is where the inner comes into the outer and, in this case, we are talking about a kind of secret substance. It is a vibration, the secret substance is, that needs to come home. A home, however, that is in the outer, not just in the innerness that’s intangible and unreachable, unassailable, in its expanse or something.
So to try and say this more clearly is to talk about something the senses don’t really perceive, but the higher self of one’s nature does. This is when you look at a vibration and realize that it can be made tangible, even though it’s intangible, and it’s intangible when it’s not able to be grounded in the outer.
From the kundalini energy standard, or standing out, it seems like it is something that’s just out of control, and intangible. When it gets grounded in the physical it causes the shift, because in the outer a slower denseness is kind of like in a different state of orientation, as if it’s just of a sound correlation, slowed and densed down, not quite light, in other words, or the memo is not there in a way that it needs to be, or in a way that can be seen.
Thus the challenge, how do you handle that which you can’t see? Or this inner kundalini energy that flares up, and can drive a person crazy, causing them not to be able to let go, or sleep, as this churns away trying to ground itself in the greater substance of manifestation.
When the kundalini energy is blasting the beingness, there is no reprieve in the denseness of the outer. Typically a person just endures this, and notices it, and notices how it throws them around, initially speaking, into imaginative warpage and just fit-to-be-tied conditions. Eventually you notice that the outer, and the condition that you’re in, is something that has a pain upon the heart. It hurts the heart because you’re meant to be a more inclusive, not just of a separate exclusive nature.
So this energetic innerness comes more and more into focus, and it does this in a way in which the higher-self way of being touches the heart in a way of making the one-to-one inner/outer correspondence, which has the sense of a relief. It’s as if the denser outerness notices the heart, so to speak, as this vibrational inner energetic makes sense in coming into the denser outer that is in its abstracted sort of way.
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