Are we ever truly ourselves? This dream looks at the subtlety of the mechanisms we use in dealing with life, in the sense that we’ll filter the way we are to accommodate the feelings of others, or speak differently because of the expectations of others, or even change our opinions because we’re hoping for a certain outcome. All these subtle maneuvers take us away from our natural state, and our natural ability to respond. And we can’t really be in the flow of things, if we are not being natural to ourselves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: So I just remember one dream that kept repeating, in a way. It’s like I was observing life in North Korea. Because the dictator wanted to control everything, it felt like there was this woman that kind of wanted to… I don’t know if she became a chicken, or she was cooking chicken, but it was like you didn’t want the dictator to know if you got a chicken that was like a certain weight, or anything.
And I was kind of showing them how to hide that by chopping apricots up when you cooked the thighs of the chicken, or something, that you could kind of hide it in there. It was almost like she was the chicken and, you know, when she was cooked you could hide the apricots in the legs and not show that you had gotten a chicken that was as fat as maybe what the dictator would have. Because if he thought anyone had something that was better than what he had, then he would kind of come down on them. So I was trying to show them how to conceal that. But then the dream just kept repeating.
John: So what’s going on in this dream, that’s repeating, is you’re trying to get beyond this aspect of what’s called a frustration, or it’s a tension, or a reactive anxiety.
And you’re trying to look at a particular quality of this frustration, tension, or anxiety, a particular way in which it inflects, as an effect, that is your particular dilemma, or mannerism, by which you prevent, or keep, a certain quality of the secret substance that permeates through everything in the outer – or the inner coming into the outer – that keeps that from happening.
And when you feel a little tension, or a little frustration, in this case it’s like a chicken, or it’s like a type of fear. In other words, it’s a qualm. It’s a qualm of some sort that keeps this from being brought directly through.
In other words, this is all in keeping with the subject matter of: how do you work with things that are subtler, and subtler? And what you have is you have, for example, in the outer you just have the outer as a kind of density. And you relate to that outer density in terms of how you see things with the five senses. And the way you see things with the five senses is caught in this motif of seeing matter as matter – and staying strictly on that level.
But there is matter in sound, and there’s matter in light, and that the level of bringing inner into outer involves having to incorporate a bringing together of the sight of light into matter.
Now that sounds very, very strange. Well, because it’s a different kind of sight that we’re talking about. In other words, when you feel a vibration, something is going on in the outer and there is a way that it is. And then, on a vibrational level, you denote something more, you can denote whether something is a little this way, or a little that way.
Well, you denote it by a type of sight, but it’s not a type of sight, per se, of the senses. It’s a type of sight of a higher-self light of sight. So, in other words, if you’re in a room and you see something in the environment, in terms of the way something is, that causes you to hold back, or to measure what you say, or however that is, because you can sense something more than what’s apparent on the surface, and you can see the degree to which somebody can hear something, or recognize something, or you see what’s going on in a deeper way of something moving around in the nature, or the atmosphere – that’s a type of sight.
It’s a vibratory type of sight. Now what keeps this vibratory type of sight from becoming a substance, per se, in other words going into matter, making it manifest, is whenever you have any kind of friction, and we’re talking about a kind of friction that has to do with fear, that has to do with anger, that has to do with frustration, that has to do with things that have a denser mannerism about them.
So what your dream was doing, is your dream is reverbing back and forth, and back and forth, to try to see how it was possible to have a condition in the overall. And you were setting it up in a scenario in which, if you were to have this condition in the overall, you would have to have this condition in a way so that it didn’t cause a disturbance – because you were in North Korea. And whatever it is that you were able to have in that density had to be done in such a way so that it wouldn’t draw a type of attention that would cause it to appear that you were usurping the powers that be.
So what’s the powers that be, when you’re talking about the outer? It’s the density of things. And so the powers that be in the density of things is the idea, and the understanding, of what’s going on. What brings the inner into the outer is that you have to have that spatiality inside of yourself in order for it to occur in the outer. And, as you embody that and carry that inside yourself, that becomes the atmosphere all around you, as well. But, to the degree to which you’re responding, or reacting, to some heebie-jeebie, or frustration, or mannerism like that, some qualm, is the degree to which you blot that out.
Now why is it that that blots it out? Well, it blots it out because it slows it down. It slows it down in keeping with the density of things, and when something is slowed down in keeping with the density of things, it then goes back to the modality of the physical, and the senses, and the lower-self senses. And so you lose the secret substance that goes at a faster speed, that actually is a type of substance. In other words, all aspects of density have a terminal nature to them. They exist, for only so long, before they crumble back to dust.
Everything is that way in the outer. And on levels of light there’s a terminality, too, but it’s a long, long, long one because that’s such a subtle substance that it’s not like you actually see it, but yes, you kind of do by being able to experience it from within, vibrationally enough, that it’s like a type of seeing because it just permeates through.
Your complexity in the dream was, as something is coming through, to what degree does it need to be kept, held, or maintained, or protected in a particular way, in terms of yourself? And you’re using, as your screening mechanism, a type of fear, a type of chicken, a type of presentation, orientation that reverbs. The reason why it reverbed and reverbed is, by bringing that into the equation, you brought in something that kept it from just naturally being.
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