If we knew a person who constantly let us down, or disappointed us, we would most likely stop associating with that person. So why is it that when life continues to unfold in unexpected ways, we still can’t let go of our belief that we can control such outcomes? Part of it is fear of the unknown. But we will never be truly with the everything until we are able to let go to its wisdom, and, thereby, be able to flow with the energetics that are always the cause of what is about to happen. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: My meditation dream took a condition in life to such an extreme, in terms of going into an understanding of things that happen in the outer, that I was able to see that nothing is secure, nothing is absolute, in the outer, in terms of how something can take place, or be.
Now there are certain things that may have a long, long life, that can have a certain semblance of security, and, if you happen to be a person who can actually access something like that, then hopefully you access it knowing that it too could break down – no matter how secure it appears -and you’d still be okay. And that you are thus able to function in a deeper, inner capacity, more and more, in a greater and greater at-easement, and emptiness, and stillness because the outer, and what goes on in the outer, is not what it’s about.
It’s a process that’s there to cause a greater connection of the inner, of the divine, of the greater beingness of one’s self. And that we’re actually bifurcated, and can’t help it. And so the meditation dream simply deals with the fact that there is a loudness that exists in relationship to the outer, and, as you wake up, so to speak, there can be this differentiating loudness. Can you learn to just let it go?
So, in this meditation dream, I’m aware that when there is a loudness, that is overwhelming to myself, that an inner-into-outer unfoldment is imminent. In other words, it’s imminent, but you have to let go of it to find it. But, initially, it gets like that where things reach a crescendo, where there is nothing you could do to satisfy anything.
So I stop to take in what is to be. In other words, that’s what you have to do. You have to stop. So in this dream I am not familiar with what the shift is to be. I just know it is imminent, and so I am stopping so that I can reassess the inner-into-outer situation, or unfoldment. From prior experience I know that the loudness is on a vibratory level that is not a transformation I am eager to reach, in other words, or I tell myself that it’s part of a transformation.
So I’m aware that this is like a deep-seated inner memory that is in my psyche, not my physical mind. In other words, what’s in my deep-seated inner psyche is the fact that nothing that can happen, nothing that is going on in the outer, is the end all, be all. I mean it’s an aspect of something that reflects and contains the innerness of something that is a silence, but my physical mind does not know that.
So what is going on is I have been at this inner-into-outer point before. In other words, somewhere deep, deep, deep inside I already know that everything that’s done in the outer, everything that happens in the outer, is something you can let go of because it’s not all that important. We make it important and, thus, create fear and anxieties, and all kinds of strange things.
Well, I may, in my awakened state, with my senses, not know any better, but in my psyche, I know that there is a reality that is more than I am capable of handling. So, in the outer, though, I’m continually trying to handle something. I’m continually looking to certain expectations, or ways in which something can unfold.
So the meditation dream is portraying that I know, from somewhere deep within, about a greater beingness within my being. I also know that the inner into outer is an inevitability I must accept, in terms of the overall beingness that is really me, which is a stillness, and an emptiness. It doesn’t have any antics about it. So, even though I know it to be so, I am not ready and see myself as fighting towards, and with, and in regards to, an inner balance, or a greater inner speed that is going to take what is discombobulated and obliterate my outer separate capacity deviations.
For the moment, in the meditation dream, I am in shock. I am frozen. I am confused, as I do not know what is coming, and do not believe that I am conceptually ready to handle this. In other words, as long as you’re holding onto something, and deep down you know that there’s nothing to hold onto, then you can never, no matter what you do, prepare because everything has to go.
So by conceptually ready, that’s my outer psyche’s way of saying that what is coming is going to be too much for me to cope with in my current conditioning. It’s not my outer psyche, it’s my inner psyche’s way, from deep, deep somewhere inside I know better about everything. My outer psyche is going to keep thinking that I could rearrange the deck chairs of things and create a result that is copable.
So, the deeper meaning is, what I am denoting so loudly in my dream is a sensation precursor that I know is going to be an overwhelm I am not able to cope with, given my current state of being, and that this is a plight I have no answer for because I cannot help myself. I am adamant about holding onto my outer plight because I function more from a standpoint of the senses, from fear and all of that, and see that as my motif or configuration.
What I’m talking about is that at-the-speed-of-light shift, which is a speeding up to a point it can absorb the outer condensed sound that is an orientation I know to be me. In other words, the outer shadow of myself is actually something that’s in a bifurcated mind, sound, sense, oriented outer density, and, that on the plane of light, all of that falls away, and there isn’t any attention that has to be placed in that regard.
So, you could say, as a scenario, that deep down I know that whatever I am doing, and however it is I am taking in the outer, change is coming from an innerness that is more than what I am able to handle. In other words, I will continually be trying to design the outer, as if it somehow or another can cope, and I might be able to do some things that have a greater sustaining power, but it’s still an outer condition that I can’t rest upon as an end all, be all. It can all change.
Everything is an inevitability that cannot be averted, meaning everything that’s designed in the outer is designed as something to constant change, even though the word constant is a variable. I am destined to an inner into outer, die before I die, askewed, anewed self. That’s a self that is not what I am capable of imagining with any sort of black-and-white clarity.
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