If we’ve ever been in a situation where everything is laid out in advance and predetermined, we usually don’t feel comfortable, we don’t feel at home. That makes us inhibited and unable to be our true selves. What if we apply this feeling to our life? Do we feel comfortable here, are we able to be ourselves? Well, we might say that being ourselves is to be connected to our purpose, and aligned to the purposes of the universe. Otherwise we will always feel like a guest in someone else’s house. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: My dream last night was very hard to pull out. What I remember about it is it seemed like first I’m in this building where I’m working, but my office is somewhat separate from the other people. And it feels like when you go into a space, where you have an office, that everything is laid out a certain way.
And then I go upstairs to visit the other people’s office. My office seems to be upstairs, too, but theirs is in a little different section, but I really can’t pick up or lay anything down in there because it feels like they’re just getting ready to leave for the day. And, again, they’ve got everything laid out in a certain way where they don’t want you to touch anything.
Then it feels like I go back to where my offices were. I look at them, and how they’re laid out, and it feels like the way they’re laid out it’s really hard to figure out how to make it work, because there seem to be so many rules about how you pick up, or put down, anything, and it doesn’t have a certain flexibility.
So I go downstairs, and go outside, and it feels like I want to go look at how the things, or people, are doing things outside. And again I seem to run into the rules of how it’s done, and they don’t seem to make a lot of sense to me, and it makes it all so much more complicated than it could be. That’s the best I can describe the dream, because it was just an odd dream.
John: There’s a breakthrough to be had, and you didn’t make the breakthrough. But what you did was you found yourself immersed in the thickness of this, and were watching it, or looking at it, or staring at it, which is one of the first kind of steps in terms of catching up with something of a letting-go epiphany.
The whole schematic of the dreaming is about a deeper letting go, to a stillness, from which everything is naturally known. And, essentially, what we contend with is things that are conceptually known, or you might say known based upon the overlay of thought-upon-thought kind of tradition of things. Like in your dream, things are laid out in a particular, conceptualized way, and wherever you went everything was laid out in a certain orderly way that somehow or another choked you, it was an environment that impeded something, that you knew to be something that wasn’t right, yet you couldn’t break out of that which wasn’t right.
I mean there was your office, there was the other office, there was going outside. It seemed like wherever you looked, and however you went, this stuff was layered in front of you. And you had a sense that it didn’t have to be that way, but you didn’t break out of it.
The step you didn’t take was where you would suddenly not be affected by the thought-upon-thought, conceptualization and concretization, all around you, that was layered out in wherever it was that you looked, and however you functioned, that was in the vibe of all of that outer. And even your sense that you hadn’t sorted it out, even on an inner, so you couldn’t go outside, you couldn’t go into your own office space, you couldn’t go into the next door.
In other words, you couldn’t find it even through shadow dynamics. And what there was to find is that if you could hit a stillness, or just stop completely from that effect filtering as a collective vibration through you, in other words, if you could free yourself from that, you could actually get to a point in which there is a kind of flow, a kind of naturalness, that is outside of the thought-upon-thought.
In other words, even the focus and attention that we apply towards trying to sort ourselves out, from this mayhem that we’re in, is it still kind of has an aspect of clarity of thought, pinpointed with maybe the heartfulness, yearning to break through. And, to a certain degree, then, you do catch up with the inflections.
And this is a way of catching up with inflections where the out-breath turns to the in-breath type of glimpses, infinitesimal glimpses. And then the rest of the time, of course, everywhere you look is this mayhem whenever you are going about what you would consider the usual protocol of life. You are in this overwhelm, this malaise, that you can’t break out of, but you can have that moment of inflection, sweet pain, sweet longing, whatever you call it at that interval where the out-breath turns to the in-breath.
In other words, to put it in a feminine way, you’re trying to find something that’s complete. You have a sense of something inside that’s a completeness, and everywhere around you is not complete; you’re just haunted.
The masculine word for this is to try to find a wholeness. That’s where everything just naturally emulates somehow; it’s kind of like out of an essence. In other words, it starts that way from the standpoint of looking at what is involved, because we’re in this loci, what’s involved to reach beyond it, and that has to do with delving into a certain depth of ourselves, which is considered the feminine aspect, that catches up with the sweet longing, or something, that pulls something in, or seeks to make something come clear, so that it can catch the inflection of a stillness -instead of this overwhelm that propounds it.
It’s an overwhelm that propounds it based upon how manifestation is. Manifestation is something of power and control. It’s something of a momentum that is perpetuated by thought-upon-thought, masculine thought, that comes down and gets concretized. And so you’re dreaming about the concretized effect, and the first step out of that, the sense you have that you haven’t quite caught, and every person has this triculating inside of them, as a quality of stillness, but when you’re speaking strictly of your impact of how you are in manifestation that triculation is infinitesimal.
I mean it’s an inflection of what is the real light, or the real place, of which this is the real place if it opens up enough. In other words, as the Bible would say, if you had something like a mustard seed, which is a type of light, you can move mountains, or all obstacles. In other words, the light can break this, as an aspect of light meaning stillness, can break open into something that’s as above, so below, and the glimpsing of this that causes and sets in motion something is this sweet pain, or sweet longing, stillness that is hit infinitesimally.
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