A Need to Be Known

2-brainIt is a curious thing, and a fantastic thing, that there is always more to life, and there is always more to us. No matter how far we go, or what heights we attain, we have always just reached a new plateau from which we can go farther still. In this way, our systems and the universe await us, always ready to give us the next thing, the next development, the next elevation. We are always unfinished – also a good thing – so our systems are always trying to awaken us to what is newly possible. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, to try to break it down, I get it in bits and pieces, little bites. This starts off with the dream in which I’m standing along the sidelines of a play field. It’s like a baseball field, and these teams are kind of like klutzes out there, as far as I could tell. In fact, it bugs me to watch how sloppy they are.

And so I end up shouting things out because, my gosh, this is absurd. And so it’s as if, in a break in the action, one of the players he’s a very, very tall, kind of big guy, that I’ve never seen before comes over to where I’m at because of my reaction.

I proceed to stay in the reaction, and I’m telling him what I think, and he won’t listen. He just immediately interrupts me by saying that there is nothing I can do about it, and that he could easily give me an elbow and no one would pay any attention. And that I should keep this to myself.

I realize that if he hadn’t interrupted me, and drowned out what I was trying to say, and had just merely responded in relationship to the energy that was being kicked out, it could have been a bad scene.

And so what was this like? Here I am reacting, and yet what was this baseball team really like, because in the next image I see the two teams as they are each leaving the field, first one and then the other. The first team has those Dumbledore hats, kind of lumpy looking, goofy, hats as they move off. And then the other is wearing kind of what you would see in a carnival, you know like a huckster in a carnival, kind of a round hat. And that’s when I realized that there’s nothing I could say under these circumstances that’s going to make any sense, which means that I just have to drop all this is what it amounts to.

See, what this dream is really talking about is the holding onto a type of mood or a tone that keeps one from pulling together all of the pieces, and components, that need to be pulled together in order for there to be this whole other consciousness.

And so then in the next one there is a teacher who is going to instruct a class on how to listen to sound. And he hasn’t started yet, and decides to go to the bathroom. There’s like probably eight or nine people in there. I get the sense that it’s going to start maybe as the precursor of maybe putting your fingers in your ears, and then it’s going to evolve into something where you could see light with your eyes closed.

But when he leaves, a kid jumps up and he says, well, I can do that. And so he comes to the front and then tells everybody to put their fingers in their ears and everything, and when the teacher returns there’s everybody copying the kid.

And then, on another occasion, it’s like I’m upstairs in a building, in other words, by upstairs meaning there’s steps that you go down to the entrance and it opens up; when you come up the steps it opens up into kind of like a bigger area. And, normally, there are students there, and students of this other teacher. And they’ve kind of moved off to one side because something is to happen, and that something doesn’t directly involve them.

And so the teacher is to come, and so rather than wait I start down the steps, going to greet the teacher; it’s a woman teacher. It’s like Elvira. Do you remember Elvira?

And so I come about halfway down, as she comes in, and what’s involved is we’re to go up the steps and then I’m to play her a game of chess. Now, I haven’t played chess for years, so this could be a little absurd and ridiculous. But that’s what’s involved, and as we’re about to sit down one of the students comes from somewhere off to one side and hands me this large book, that’s about six inches or something thick. And so I glance in it quickly and it has dates, and names, and some interesting drawings of something to be, but I don’t know why it was handed to me. It makes no sense to me.

The meaning of this is that last night there are image after image reflecting to a deeper, unknown, subtle beingness within, along with a subtle connectivity simultaneously imbedded. What is going on in each image is this subtle beingness, that is in an amnesic state and is not able to make itself aware to me, is moving around nevertheless. And this is awkward, and I can’t really handle it, because I’m not able to pull it through so it’s like causing a headache.

And then, when you look at the meditation dream, I learn that this has to do with a psyche, and a natural connection therein, that I am not taking on yet. It has been veiled, and this subtle vibration, which I haven’t been experiencing consciously, is seeking to make itself known.

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