We have come to understand that we are not one, singular being, and that there isn’t a specific person in charge of this life. If there were, decisions would be made once and that would be the end of it. But we vary, we lose our passion, we get talked out of things by the different lives in us that have their own agendas. On our journey we are trying to bring all those lives into a higher agreement, an agreement that we are, first and foremost, here for a purpose. Sometimes these agreements take compromise, as seen in this dream, where a process of back and forth implies that an issue is being evaluated by the many inner lives. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: So I don’t remember enough of the details of my dream, except that it was another dream where I was going back and forth, and back and forth, and somebody else wanting to do what I did. But I remember that sometimes, in going back and forth, people were people and sometimes they were penguins, you know. So I remember that part, because I like how penguins look.
But I just don’t remember the details of what I was going back and forth, and back and forth, doing.
John: Well, the theme of the dreaming had to do… See, I don’t know if this is what this means, but I know what the theme of the dreaming was last night, and it had to do with having to confront, or contend, with a mannerism in one’s nature that one leans on – even though maybe one doesn’t show it, or hides it, or knows better, but still leans on it in some capacity.
So it’s possible you were going back and forth and back and forth, in relationship to some quality of your nature that is… well, it’s just something that doesn’t need to be there. I mean it prevents you from going to a deeper depth inside of yourself.
So you’re going back and forth and back and forth as if this points out to yourself, by seeing this, that you carry a particular trait, that you’re leaning on, that veils you from a greater letting go. I mean the deeper underlying theme is to get to kind of an emptiness, or a stillness, and so if there’s something that one is still having to contend with in some fashion, even if it’s something that you know about but still is there, thus going back and forth, and back and forth, as if that is going to help matters.
And so the imagery of what a penguin can mean in relationship to this is, if one knew what the issue was, or could get a sense of something more, then one would get a sense of what the symbolism of a penguin is in relationship to this quality of having to contend with the noticeability of some aspect.
And what this aspect will be doing is it’ll be affecting the way you are feeling yourself. So when you’re truly still it doesn’t mean you’re ignorant, or stupid, or amnesic even. You can be totally still, and yet in complete awareness. You just don’t have this something else that’s standing in the way at the same time, as well, that you have screened out as an aspect. You can have that set aside, too. You don’t need any piecemeal component.
You can be in a stillness that is able to take in everything, and have a connectivity and intertwining with everything, because you’ve been able to disappear yourself. So you’re going back and forth, back and forth. You must be still fumbling with something that you can’t quite let go of, in the way that you would like to let go of it, and so you’re looking and looking and back and forth and back and forth.
And then the penguin would be some sort of symbolic hint about a trait, or quality, that you associate, your psyche associates symbolically, to help you tune into this kind of inner memo.
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