Looking for a Reference

2231788_8b81_14Whenever we have a great idea, or we begin a new project, we have been inspired by our initial reasons and intentions. Yet, often, as we proceed, and find ourselves deeper and deeper in the reality of the work, we lose sight of those original ideas and inspirations, and we end up compromising the vision of what we are trying to do. So, in a project, as in our life, it is important to continually revisit the reasons why we are doing what we are doing, and the principles behind those reasons. In fact, the more we reaffirm our original purpose, the more potent our focus will be in achieving our goal. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I drill down on something in a way that I hadn’t done before. Normally I talk about the breath, in some sense, but this time I talk around the breath, as opposed to looking at it in some way, I talk around it. In other words, I talk about the stillness point.

So, in the meditation dream, I observe myself as being a person who embodies vibrations. So I’m starting off now as somewhere carrying yet an out-breath quality. These vibrations I look at and look at to see what is wanted. I note that the vibrations I embody are seeking to come into manifestation, in other words, to be embodied.

So, initially, the vibration is not even in the shape of dough. In other words, first of all you have to get it into something like dirt, or dough. And when it takes on the substance of, say, dough, it then needs to reflect or be shaped into a result that is deemed complete. In other words, what dough completes to is maybe a cookie or something. And I’m using this as kind of like an imaged example of how you bring the inner into the outer.

But doing it, this is still an aspect of out-breath in manifestation. So it is deemed to be relatively easy, when there is substance from the vibrations, to reach a resolution, or determination, with regard to the substance of our being. What is confusing is I went back into the vibrations, in the meditation dream, and had to make a sort of rhyme and reason out of the vibrations. I was still bewildered until I took the vibrations almost as a rising up from having taken it down into manifestation.

But I was confused about the vibrations, initially, until I took them into manifestation and created something to identify with. Such identifications drain me of a vital dynamic. Little by little I was able to go back to the beginning. In other words, I came down and then recognized you have to go back to the beginning because it drains you out of a dynamic.

And so this is still an attention that is placed upon the space, actually, of the in-breath turning to the out-breath. The beginning is where the vibrations originated; they came out of the stillness there. The beginning is the stillness.

And so what I’m talking about, in terms of this focus, is the stillness point where the in-breath turns to the out-breath; that is where I see myself retracing.

And then you can do it the other direction, which is there is a time when I cannot stand how limiting it is to be a compositive substance, in other words, you feel the weight and the burden of having to carry yourself as something that’s composited and dense, and you’re holding that denseness together as if you have to preserve it. That’s like the nature of the physical body. It has kind of a life orientation to it that holds your focus. And, when it’s like that, and you’re able to actually note the hopelessness of something like that, is when the heart yearns to be free of this state.

And so when you experience it that way, now you’re talking about the interval where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. So what is going on is, in the meditation dream, I experience the breath as being a delirium. And, in the meditation dream, I didn’t dwell upon the journey of the breath, per se. Instead, I kept, and maintained, a looking for the reference of stillness.

To begin with, this was a going back in to the interval of in-breath to out-breath, in other words, backtracking the vibration now. In other words, the vibration comes into a thought, the thought comes into more thoughts, those thoughts then come into what it becomes, then, a collective consciousness of manifestation.

And what I’ve done is I’ve gone backwards to that, even taking the vibrations and making the vibrations still, and that’s the in-breath to the out-breath. And then there was the opposite flow. When the vibrations had come into a result that’s in manifestation, and it’s like I’m trapped there in a denseness, so you have to shake off the denseness because the out-breath has come in and got caught, and taken all that down. And it’s like you’ve come so far that you’re now in a denseness.

And so what happens there is, at some point, you have to be able to denote inside yourself that you’re uncomfortable being wrapped up as a denseness – and you seek a letting go of this linear beingness. And that is when you’re able to come to a letting go at the end point, or i.e., at the interval of where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. In other words, that’s when you’re able to note the pain of things, and it’s kind of a sweet pain because you’re able to denote a longing there, in that aspect of kind of a subtle, split-second stillness.

So upon adhering to stillness is to be free of the breath. When free of the breath, there is no journey. There is just stillness. And this is all that everyone wants.

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