It’s an interesting conundrum: we often like the aliveness feeling we get when we are in an extreme state – fear, passion, thrills – but the extreme state is not something that anything else in the universe seeks. Everything seeks equilibrium in their environment, and a state of balance. And, also interesting, is that if we were to truly find a state of balance within us, what that would allow us to connect to, energetically, universally, would be the most thrilling thing imaginable – but without the imbalance. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: So, to start off with, it’s like I couldn’t go very deep in my dreaming, because it was as if I had something dragging at my attention. Something that was bothering me, like yesterday was an awkward day, so it was easy to pick up rubbish that could have and hold an effect upon you.
So, to start off with, I notice that that which draws my attention as being significant, in other words, by buying into it, which leads then to a veil. This is just how one takes and stigmatizes themselves. Or, as a way of putting it is, I’m talking about a connection that I have in my nature that has, you might say, formulated, or found, itself on my breath.
I’m looking at this and noticing that this is limiting my ability to let go, and be more open and still. I have to get beyond such an identification, because the identification, this quality compromises the heart. And everyone, from time to time, has something in their pent-up nature that comes out in an outer way that causes them to get cluttered, or wayward, or identifying with some part of the breath.
When the heart is discombobulated, that’s the key to being able to denote that you’re lost in some aspect of the breath, because generally when you’re lost in the aspect of the breath, the mirroring process, by which something is right or not right, is what the heart does. The heart reveals, or portrays, the veils – if it is feeling heavy, or something.
So, last night, I wasn’t able to travel within like I usually do because I was overwhelmed and my heart was caught up, veiled, in a habituation. So the significance is, whenever something like this happens it is because I am affected by the sensitive, and reactive, side of the breath that is irrationally oriented when the spaciality isn’t in a stillness.
The part of the breath I am talking about, that readily goes off into a tangent, is the in-breath. Of course, you can have it start with the deviation in terms of the timing, which is the out-breath thought, which isn’t embraced because it isn’t still and it has a momentum, and then you get the reaction on the in-breath. But technically, that is if you’re in touch with the in-breath that way, otherwise you just beat yourself around with the out-breath.
So, when like this, it means I haven’t intertwined the spatial in-breath with the time-oriented out-breath, and have lost touch with the emptiness and stillness deeper within. I’m shown this because time and space are an area of consciousness that has to be taken into account in my overall beingness – if I am to be in sync with the stillness.
To access the inner levels of my beingness, this being an aspect of the in-breath spaciousness, is what I’m looking at, along with the out-breath timing, as the dilemma I didn’t resolve, or haven’t resolved, as needed.
And then there’s the awkwardness that I am denoting in the environment, that is implying a breakdown between the inner and outer, as expressed by the principles of time and space upon the breath being out of sync. Likewise you could say that this is also the state of a being out of balance, in terms of timing, with the spaciousness.
When I am out of balance with the timing and spaciousness, the alignment needed for a pristine focus and attention is lacking. And then you got to be careful with this idea of pristine focus and attention because that generally leads you again into reflections because that becomes like a tool – and you don’t have any tools but the emptiness.
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