We may adopt many psychologies in our early life, ones that stay with us all of our days. Perhaps we learned to cry to get a response, or acted sad to be comforted. In time, we think these adaptations are who we are, but they are not. We will never rid ourselves of all of these mechanisms, but we can write new scripts about why we do what we do. For example, rather than helping another because it feeds some psychology, we can realize that we can help another just because it’s the right thing to do, and we want to live in a world where such things happen. This way, our satisfaction is already gained, and it requires nothing from anyone else. We can rewrite so many actions with our conscious intentions. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: So I dreamt a lot last night, but I only pulled out part of one dream; seemed like the dreams were really deep. But the dream I remember, it’s like I’m in the mountains somewhere, kind of wooded mountains. And you and a friend of yours come along. I don’t see him real clearly. I know there’s someone else I know there.
I suddenly notice that you’ve gotten a bit away, so I run to catch up with you because you’re going on a hike. But because I run to catch up with you, I don’t have my water with me. But I notice that you, and the friend that’s with you, both have buckets of water, except your bucket’s a little more square than round.
And I was assuming that you would share your water with me, and that maybe it wouldn’t fall out of that strange bucket as we hurried along, but I wasn’t sure. But I’d already dropped, or left, my bucket so I just had to count on that. It feels to me like, as we went further up the mountain, at one point we met a friend of mine who was involved with the Course in Miracles. I mean, I just remember noting that. And that also I was a little bit worried about the bears in the woods. We’d even seen some bears, maybe a bear cub and a mama bear. And that’s really all I remembered of the dream.
John: The vibration behind your dream, this is working with some psychological way that you’re feeling yourself. The part that keeps coming up, and it’s a cycle thing, you cycle to this over and over and over again, in that you have as a core, feminine nature, the idea of having to be attentive to kind of how a quality of something needs to be in the atmosphere. This is the core, but this isn’t the dream, yet. This is the core quality nature that kind of is a primary echo that you have.
But you aren’t inclined to recognize that something needs to be given to you. You give in order to receive, I guess is the way to say it. In other words, there’s a psychology there – instead of being able to settle back in terms of what is a natural entitlement. And so, rather than acknowledge that you have a natural entitlement, if you’re feeling uneasy, you try to give more. You try to serve more, you try to help more.
Because you hear that echo, that, in the carrying of things, in the responsibility of things in the outer, in the home atmosphere of yourself in the outer, that this is something that you need to do. The care must be given that there isn’t an ulterior motive, in terms of doing that, whereby you receive in exchange for the giving.
It’s an interesting psychological flip that you’re getting hit with, because the dream is then saying, okay, now, it’s like the feminine has to try to rescue everything in life, the masculine and all of that, has to accept the masculine and cause something to pull through. And it’s easy to get caught in the idea that you’re doing this in order to create a reciprocation. It’s easy to do this from the standpoint that if what you’re doing doesn’t come first, there can’t be a reciprocation.
There’s a danger here in taking and recognizing, and accepting inside of yourself, that there is a value in terms of a part of something, somewhere, coming to you, which is part of you coming to you. And this process is always going on. It’s easy to, somehow or another, seem to think that A leads to B, or something, instead of realizing that this part is always going on simultaneously, with equal measure. Maybe that’s a way of saying it.
And it’s easy to, perhaps, lose track of this fact. Because you have a naturalness in your core nature to being able to be in an atmosphere in a way that facilitates the atmosphere. And thus, the facilitation leads to you being accepted, or a part, of what is going on, and not left out. And that you have to clamor to stay on board, or something.
It’s a subtle oddity, it’s a very subtle oddity, because it’s kind of self demeaning, I guess is maybe the way of putting it, almost as if something isn’t there for you, unless something else is done. It’s a strange way of kind of sitting in a type of subtle suffering, or feeling a little odd-man-out, or something, in the schematic of a vibration.
It’s a funny sensation, because in a world of wholeness, nothing is having to do A to get to B; all of it is just there. And maybe it’s veiled, but you don’t have to go through a formula context, a whole formulation context, to get there. You have to let go of, or perhaps that’s the only kind of key thing that might be a formula aspect, is that you have to let go of whatever nuances it is that you are perpetuating, or supporting, in terms of an ideation of how something unfolds, of which the letting go is the letting go – if you want to call that a formula, but you don’t stay quickened into something in relationship to A begets B.
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