The mechanism of instinct, which we see throughout the animal kingdom, is an automatic process to allow survival and growth into the fullness of a life’s possibility. In the human there is a further level of this mechanism – freedom of choice. It says we don’t always have to do what’s best for us, i.e., we can fast for days, against our instinct to eat. Yet it is our consciousness that guides us at this level, and, in its best usage, should also contribute to our ability to survive and grow into our potential. So, understanding how to utilize this gift of creation – freedom of choice – is critical to our possibility as individuals, and as a species. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: Well, my dream started off, in which I had to set the equation of what things are like when you’re in a world in which consciousness does not come into the equation, that maybe you’re still operating on the basis of instinct. And yet even that is not very loud. It’s almost as if even that’s still in a kind of amnesia, or something.
Because I find myself just merely looking at myself in a kind of matter of fact way. I mean, I’m not pushed this way, I’m not pushed that way; I’m kind of blase. In other words, the image is just as neutral as neutral could get. Which also means that I have no opinion one way or another, in terms of what I’m seeing, let alone what to do. So I have no opinion what I’m seeing, even.
Well, that’s not quite true. At least, I have no opinion in terms of having to make choices, yet, because where there is an opinion, that is when I will find myself having to contend with things. So I’m in a state yet where there isn’t the sorting out differentiation, on a conscious level, having to go at it.
So what I see is just the layout, a layout that hasn’t been mobilized into a flow yet. In other words, a layout that’s just the setup. And, of course, I see a person in this setup, and that this person has no opinion – in terms of distinguishing or making conscious choices that this person carries within – access to two lights. And one hue of light is whatever they do in that regard just kind of unfolds. It doesn’t have to have much consciousness, or anything, just will take and unfold. Very blase, in other words, not much catalytic, the beginning and the end of that just has no storyline to it, because it’s just bing, bing, bing, just all natural. Doesn’t have to even be conscious it’s so natural.
But the other light disrupts, has kind of an agitation, or negative, quality to it that when you go off in that, there’s going to be damage, there’s going to be obstruction. I note that I have these two qualities of life, but kind of trust to the fact that I’m not yet thinking about it, so to speak, because, as far as I seem to be I just kind of assume, because there’s no conscious choice, I just assume everything’s going to be okay – as if I’m automatically always going to be doing the things that are with the other light, even though there’s nothing there that shows a depth as to why it should be so.
So there I find myself looking at myself. I’m in this matter of fact way, in other words, not having to make a distinguishment, not making a distinction, in other words, not having a conscious orientation. Or, you might say, lacking a freedom of choice, yet. And so there is no drama. And, like I’ve described above, one way is kind of deleterious to things, and it now has the image of being a little bit like a poisonous snake. You can feel the Kundalini of it. It’s poisonous. It’s scary. It’s dangerous.
And it’s visible and has a very particular color orientation to that way of being. It has one of those colors, like if you go into the southwestern deserts, the snake you have to watch out for is one that has of really bright reddish color or something.
And so, as I sit like this, it’s kind of an ambivalency. I haven’t yet gained a certain stream of evolution clicking in my nature. What I’m looking at, because there isn’t the conscious effect, there’s nothing to see or report. The action starts, and the journey of the soul begins, when you have to contend with more or less all the levels, or you have to partake in the vibrational lights. You have to intertwine with them, put them into how they need to be, because it’s only one light.
So what is going on is it’s a little bit like starting off in the Garden of Eden. It’s as if, for reasons I can’t put my finger on, I just am, and all is well – until something causes me to go off limits in my well being, and then what isn’t right, or isn’t properly taken into acceptance and ingratiation within, gets the best of me.
But, for the longest time, I don’t see myself as being able to make a conscious this, that, or the other – or a freedom of choice. So how can one go astray? And yet, what is good is known somehow. And what is bad, I can simply ignore. But you can’t, in other words, we’re more conscious than that, we’re not living in a total subjective state. You have the objective side, too.
So the significance of this dream is to be like this is to have no karma to contend with. It’s like having no karma, it means you’re not advanced enough to know how to play with the substances. You gotta have a sense of loss, you have to have consciousness. It’s like an animal responds by instinct, it doesn’t necessarily consciously sort this out, or that way, it’s very instinctual.
Consciousness is another step. So it’s like this light, at one point in time, or this quality, was even like a snake energy, or a Kundalini energy, that has kind of a poisonous effect. Yet I don’t acknowledge that I have a shadow yet, because I’m not conscious. And because I’m not conscious, I don’t carry a self-consciousness that can see a delirium, or delusionality, or that something more of a clarity of a wisdom needs to be there – as an aspect of pulling the two together.
So at best, all I can say is that, what I’m portraying and describing is kind of talking about what is like a kind of insipid state, prior to freedom of choice.
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