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internet-connnect-map-fractalIt may seem a contradiction: to let go, yet also to become responsible in our development journeys. It’s not, however, because we do need to become conscious of our energetic affect on people and things – in terms of what we think, how we act, and what we do. Yet we also need to let go of our personal viewpoint, and also the idea that we know better than the universe how things should unfold. For the universe to make use of us, we have to be able to listen and respond to what It wants. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in the next dream I’ve gotten into a pickup with you, and you’re in the front seat with another guy, and at some point there’s another woman who joins us – but I don’t know if she’s in the back seat with me or not, but it’s one of those bigger pickups that has that kind of half passenger seat in the back.

So, you seem to have almost driven it right up and into a building that reminds me a bit of a hospital, and we’re going to do something there. I don’t remember what it is, but I’ve gone away from you for a few minutes.

I come back to where you guys are to see if you’ve done what we’d come there to do and it hasn’t happened. It seems like what I get focused on is I have this large shawl that’s more like the size of the tablecloth and I’m trying to get it folded right – and that seems important. It has embroidery on it and certain bright colors in some areas.

And the other woman even tries to help me, but I have to kind of wave her off because there’s something wrong that I just can’t get it where it will fold in the right places. And I finally figure out that maybe somewhere it’s been stitched together, but I have a feeling like if I can get this folded right and wear it right it seems like it would help us with the process.

But I’m frustrated. There’re even some doctors that are having a meeting that come and wander through at one point in this whole process, but I just note them in the background. And then it feels like the dream just shifts.

John: So what this dream is doing is it’s indicating that a lot of your problem in terms of being succinctly aware of what needs to be, has to do with the acceptance of letting yourself be directed in terms of how it is things unfold. It has a sense of almost an easygoing relaxation to kind of go with the flow like that.

However, this isn’t appropriate, or getting the job done, in terms of how it is that you need to be in terms of your role with yourself – with who you are, and how you are able and meant to be. In other words, something can bring you to a point but, nevertheless, after being brought to that point you have a responsibility to take and step forward and see how something is folded, and put together, and packaged and such. Or otherwise, if you stay in the malaise, you stay in a mood or in a tone in which something just isn’t quite right in terms of what it is that you’re meant to access, and experience, and touch, and know in terms of yourself.

In other words, you can’t live a life that is based upon a submission or bifurcation that goes through the eyes of someone else. You can do that up to a degree. You can catch the ride like that up to a degree, but you have to fill in the blanks, and bring about a balance and an order, and proper packaged unfoldment. You have to do that – as being true to yourself. You can’t just let that sort of thing hang out on its own – as if it will figure itself out that way.

Jeane: Then you and I seem to have gone back in time. We seem to be almost in a foreign land in kind of a little village square area, or more like an old time city area I would guess because there are shops and everything around us but it seems kind of foreign.

There’s still another woman with us and we go into an area where we’re going to eat. We sit down around a round table; there seems to be a Chinese man serving the food. The woman disappears for a moment into more of an inner area, so I get up. I think I’ve taken just a bite or something out of some fish, and I get up to go get her, or bring her back to eat, but when I step through the doorway I can’t see where she’s gone.

So I wander there a little bit to look, but since I can’t find her I come back to the table. It feels like you’ve eaten, and I look around to see where my plate is and I do see that there’s a cooked fish still there, and I’m going to look to put a certain sauce on it. And then the Chinese man who served us kind of indicates to me that, no, I need to taste the sauce that’s already on the fish, that it’s going to be the right one.

John: So, you’re taking and you’re describing, in the first part of the dream, what it is and how it is that you’re meant to be in order to bring something forward through yourself as a knowingness – and that you won’t catch up with that knowingness if you just sit back in a submissive way.

And then when you shift and seem to go somewhere, what you’re actually doing is this is not a traveling per se, in a physical sense that is. It is instead a reverting to a way of perceiving, inside of yourself. In other words, this other process brought you to a point where it causes you to shake yourself out into perceiving more directly, internally. And that’s important for you to be able to recognize the unseen, a language that works in that capacity.

You don’t quite pull it off. I mean there’s a walking through a doorway and all of this stuff that occurs, but you don’t have the instantaneous visualization of what that is like. But you’re getting closer. You’re still cluttering something up in terms of its real subtle quality that speaks in this nonverbal instantaneous knowing way. You’re still apt, when left to your own devices, to mess up the naturalness of it, but at least you’re starting to try to settle back and give it a chance; in other words, realize that the sauce is unfolding for a reason, or it has a reason to taste it, to recognize that first. In other words, note the difference between what is provided in a natural language inner unfoldment way, versus what it is that you are still inclined to do.

What you’re talking about is something that in my dreams I go into quite a bit of depth about, especially the initial dream. I too do not handle this, naturally, very well. However, I shake closer to it because it’s more of a masculine kind of energy way.

And you come closer to it by seeing how you are situated naturally already, and have to honor the naturalness that already exists in the environment that you’re in, and that this is your way that may look a little more indirect, but it is your way in which you catch up with that language.

I catch up with the language by way of overtly dealing with it in kind of a way that connects. In other words, I move the force or something around, and it kind of then comes and finds itself via inflections that spring out from kind of going through a heart center. And because the heart is connected to everything that exists, I find that intertwining, I recognize that intertwining, and am able to speak vibrationally to that – and in that way am able to find a nonverbal language that, when properly and completely and readily done in this way, causes things to shift, change, and unfold because we’re all on the same page. There’s no diversion.

That’s kind of how I do it, and you can come to know it by how whatever it is that’s unfolding is unbalanced and that there is a more natural way that it needs to be twined and folded for it to more succinctly link. You come to know that through allowing yourself to recognize that which you are able to naturally feel when you are yourself, in other words, not affected by influences around you.

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Concept of choice with crossroads spliting in two waysThe mechanism of instinct, which we see throughout the animal kingdom, is an automatic process to allow survival and growth into the fullness of a life’s possibility. In the human there is a further level of this mechanism – freedom of choice. It says we don’t always have to do what’s best for us, i.e., we can fast for days, against our instinct to eat. Yet it is our consciousness that guides us at this level, and, in its best usage, should also contribute to our ability to survive and grow into our potential. So, understanding how to utilize this gift of creation – freedom of choice – is critical to our possibility as individuals, and as a species. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, my dream started off, in which I had to set the equation of what things are like when you’re in a world in which consciousness does not come into the equation, that maybe you’re still operating on the basis of instinct. And yet even that is not very loud. It’s almost as if even that’s still in a kind of amnesia, or something.

Because I find myself just merely looking at myself in a kind of matter of fact way. I mean, I’m not pushed this way, I’m not pushed that way; I’m kind of blase. In other words, the image is just as neutral as neutral could get. Which also means that I have no opinion one way or another, in terms of what I’m seeing, let alone what to do. So I have no opinion what I’m seeing, even.

Well, that’s not quite true. At least, I have no opinion in terms of having to make choices, yet, because where there is an opinion, that is when I will find myself having to contend with things. So I’m in a state yet where there isn’t the sorting out differentiation, on a conscious level, having to go at it.

So what I see is just the layout, a layout that hasn’t been mobilized into a flow yet. In other words, a layout that’s just the setup. And, of course, I see a person in this setup, and that this person has no opinion – in terms of distinguishing or making conscious choices that this person carries within – access to two lights. And one hue of light is whatever they do in that regard just kind of unfolds. It doesn’t have to have much consciousness, or anything, just will take and unfold. Very blase, in other words, not much catalytic, the beginning and the end of that just has no storyline to it, because it’s just bing, bing, bing, just all natural. Doesn’t have to even be conscious it’s so natural.

But the other light disrupts, has kind of an agitation, or negative, quality to it that when you go off in that, there’s going to be damage, there’s going to be obstruction. I note that I have these two qualities of life, but kind of trust to the fact that I’m not yet thinking about it, so to speak, because, as far as I seem to be I just kind of assume, because there’s no conscious choice, I just assume everything’s going to be okay – as if I’m automatically always going to be doing the things that are with the other light, even though there’s nothing there that shows a depth as to why it should be so.

So there I find myself looking at myself. I’m in this matter of fact way, in other words, not having to make a distinguishment, not making a distinction, in other words, not having a conscious orientation. Or, you might say, lacking a freedom of choice, yet. And so there is no drama. And, like I’ve described above, one way is kind of deleterious to things, and it now has the image of being a little bit like a poisonous snake. You can feel the Kundalini of it. It’s poisonous. It’s scary. It’s dangerous.

And it’s visible and has a very particular color orientation to that way of being. It has one of those colors, like if you go into the southwestern deserts, the snake you have to watch out for is one that has of really bright reddish color or something.

And so, as I sit like this, it’s kind of an ambivalency. I haven’t yet gained a certain stream of evolution clicking in my nature. What I’m looking at, because there isn’t the conscious effect, there’s nothing to see or report. The action starts, and the journey of the soul begins, when you have to contend with more or less all the levels, or you have to partake in the vibrational lights. You have to intertwine with them, put them into how they need to be, because it’s only one light.

So what is going on is it’s a little bit like starting off in the Garden of Eden. It’s as if, for reasons I can’t put my finger on, I just am, and all is well – until something causes me to go off limits in my well being, and then what isn’t right, or isn’t properly taken into acceptance and ingratiation within, gets the best of me.

But, for the longest time, I don’t see myself as being able to make a conscious this, that, or the other – or a freedom of choice. So how can one go astray? And yet, what is good is known somehow. And what is bad, I can simply ignore. But you can’t, in other words, we’re more conscious than that, we’re not living in a total subjective state. You have the objective side, too.

So the significance of this dream is to be like this is to have no karma to contend with. It’s like having no karma, it means you’re not advanced enough to know how to play with the substances. You gotta have a sense of loss, you have to have consciousness. It’s like an animal responds by instinct, it doesn’t necessarily consciously sort this out, or that way, it’s very instinctual.

Consciousness is another step. So it’s like this light, at one point in time, or this quality, was even like a snake energy, or a Kundalini energy, that has kind of a poisonous effect. Yet I don’t acknowledge that I have a shadow yet, because I’m not conscious. And because I’m not conscious, I don’t carry a self-consciousness that can see a delirium, or delusionality, or that something more of a clarity of a wisdom needs to be there – as an aspect of pulling the two together.

So at best, all I can say is that, what I’m portraying and describing is kind of talking about what is like a kind of insipid state, prior to freedom of choice.

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1_ToCgWhere do those gentle nudgings come from? Are they us, speaking to us? The higher self guiding the lower self? Our guardian angel ushering us toward our future? Or perhaps even what is unconscious in us becoming conscious. Yet they are there, within us, and we follow them, often, or sometimes, or never, depending. And many find that the more you follow them, the more accurate they get, until they become integrated into our process life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I only remember one dream, and I seem to pick up my memory partway into the dream. And, in this dream, I’m traveling with a man that I’m with, and we’ve stopped at this town.

And now I’m into this church, and the church, initially, it’s divided into one side where there’s benches and people seem to be sitting there that work at a certain agency. And the pews in the other side are more traditional pews, and they go up into the nave of the church, or towards the nave of the church.

So our initial focus seems to totally be on this side where the workers are. And he’s kind of talking to me about I’m going to be working with these other workers at this factory, or place, that’s off the grounds. But, when he communicates, he also communicates about a way that we’ll be using phones or something, at that agency, that I seem to consider very outdated. I can’t see myself sticking with it.

But the attitude of him and a few of the other people there seem to be that, no, we would do it the way they do it there. I don’t seem to think so. But we haven’t started work yet.

And then he and I leave to travel on to where we’re going next. And I know that that involves going over water. And we’ll be spending the night on this island. However, I leave him, and I come back to the church. And this time I go over, and I go up into the nave where the priest is, and he has a table there where people can even come up and sit, he’s doing something more towards the altar.

And I start to talk to him about something. But he has to turn around to take care of some things. And then I noticed a couple of women that have come up, and they’ve brought some  little offerings and I’m kind of touched by that – and I haven’t really brought an offering. So I kind of back up a little. And when I feel like it must be almost time, I don’t really need to say anything to him. I go back into the area of the church that’s on the same side as the priest is.

And when I’m over on that other side I crawl through this little arch on the floor. And they’ve got like back jacks set on the floor on that side. I start to sit in one, but it has something on the back of it that’s almost like a carved animal or something. I start to take that off, but the person who sits behind me puts it back on, and I’m a little uncomfortable with it for some reason.

So then I suddenly I find myself sitting on her lap, in her back jack. And I notice that when the priest comes into this area, he also crawls under this little archway, so he can be there with the rest of us that are over there. Then I leave that area, I go back over near the worker area, and I go through there to a coat rack.

What’s odd is at the top of the clothes closet there’s a telephone, a blue telephone, light blue, and the cord is all wrapped around the rod you’d hang clothes on. Well, it seems like that’s how I can communicate with the man that I had come with, who’s by this time out of the area and won’t be able to get back. It’s like he calls and he’s a little concerned, I’m not really concerned because I’ve suddenly realized that the agency where I was going to work actually runs 24/7.

So I’ll just go over there and work for the evening. I might even do something different than what was originally assigned. But I know they’ll give me work for the evening. I’m not worried about what I’ll be doing. He seemed a little concerned, I’m more struck by the oddity of the type of telephone that they have. But I know that there’s actually some things I can do there, so I’m just going to go over there for the night. That was the dream.

John: It’s a very deep and complicated dream, a lot of little things going on in there, very, very energetically significant. To start off with you’re going into the game of life, or agency of life. Your idea of coping is almost as if the concepts of the day lead you into this approach, with yourself, in terms of the outer.

And even though you’re trying to maintain a middling ground yourself, almost as if you know that that leads to a greater apparent sanctity towards the front, you find yourself diverging off into the things that are in life. The workers, or whatever, the common, denser aspects of the nits and grits of life in the outer.

And it’s kind of like not necessarily your fault that you do that. Something in the masculine quality brought the scenario to you – in the equation of things. It was, from your perspective, a little bit off, you could tell that it was a little bit off, but it was okay because it covered the entire arena of things in terms of left side and right side, and taking in an overallness and going to the depths of it all.

But you veered to the right side. When you go to the right, you’re going into the world – ordinarily speaking. Or is it going into waking up the more unconscious side of yourself? I don’t know, but what you’re describing in your dream is a process, and your process has you’re going into the right, or into the affairs of something in the outer, to begin with. Some part of you has a sense, you do it because that other prevails, or wins out.

You do it, but you have some deep inner sense, because after having done that you seem to recognize that something more is needed, or that there’s something missing in that process, because you then try to come back to the sanctity of yourself – a deeper inner depth of yourself. You go through a door, so to speak, crawl under the arches of things, which is very symbolic in terms of going through, opening a door going into a whole other depth, or room, of yourself.

And you take that seriously in that you sit there, but you can’t just sit there. You get to the front, you sit to the front, you can’t just sit there because there’s something pushing you, from the back, whereby you ultimately have to take whatever is accessed in this place to a deeper Prime Directive inside of you, something pushing you at the back, back into the right side again.

Another way of saying this now is, initially you hear a memo that has to do with directing you to go into the right. But, in order to do that, you have to let go of that when it has its heebie-jeebies, or something, in a greater depth inside of itself needing to be pulled together. So, somehow or another, you hear that silent inner echo memo inside of yourself, and, upon hearing that, then you are able to – because you kind of went up the middle in the agency of things, you did know that there was a left even though you’re went into the right prematurely, you then come and have to go to the depths of yourself, that is like, in an imaged way, is like being able to carry the heavens on your head.

And by that, meaning in a whole other realm of dimensionality. That before you were too compacted, or you couldn’t see the forest for the trees or something, you went into this other place, you went up to a front area, you weren’t distracted, yet there was still something pushing at your back affecting you that, ultimately, in terms of the real agency directive, has you having to come back into life, but now into life in yet a state that’s more anew.

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