It’s good to have time to prepare for a flood: grab certain things, put out some sand bags, find higher ground. But if that flood is internal, and comes from the energetics of newly opening, and awakening, inner aspects, the preparation is a bit different. We need to allow for expansion, we can’t bring certain ways with us that no longer fit, and it will take a little while to find a new state of equilibrium. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: Then I had a dream where it feels like I’m two people: I’m this adolescent boy, and then I’m this adolescent girl that are living in a home. And the boy doesn’t feel very trustworthy. Seems like sometimes I’m one, and sometimes I’m the other, and sometimes I’m an observer.
At the same time the boy doesn’t seem trustworthy, I feel like I know things he doesn’t know. So I know where things are kept, or even things from the past are stored that belong to him, that are part of his identity that he doesn’t even seem to know that he still has, or has access to. So it feels like I’m explaining to him where things are in a certain room. And they even constitute certain resources for him.
Otherwise, it’s kind of an odd situation we’re living in; there are some adults around. It’s an old building with a lot of artifacts in it, and it feels like at some point I suddenly become aware that it’s going to be flooded. And it’s like I want to bring some things to him to take with us, in case of a flood, but I realize I haven’t even really grabbed my purse or a coat, and I’m trying to get us all to another building.
And, when we leave, because of the flood that’s going to come, and I know it’ll move through the whole building we were living in, you cover things up or mix things up. I’ve grabbed a few things, but I’m not even sure what and everything’s confused. And then we’re having to stay in a large room with other people.
When we get to that large room in some ways he acts like he doesn’t know me because it feels as though it gives him a certain power if other people don’t know who he knows. He can maneuver or manipulate a little bit more that way. And I’m more of an observer in the scene, which is a little confusing to me. And I realized I did get my coat or something. Or I didn’t get a coat, maybe I had grabbed my purse, but I’d left a coat behind, and instead I grabbed a jacket that’s much too large for me – and I realize is an old school jacket of one of the people that lives in the building. And when we all have to stay in one room, whoever originally wore that jacket will probably be there.
But I’m a little confused by the boy that lived in the house like kind of acting like he doesn’t know me once we’re in the larger room because we have to kind of sometimes sleep three and four in a bed there – because everybody’s kind of refugees from the storm – but he feels like that gives him some more power and with other people not knowing that we know each other, and not knowing what’s going on. It was just an odd little dream.
John: Well, it’s a dream that, first of all, identifies a quality or characteristic of the feminine nature, of your nature, that takes and is capable of absorbing, or taking in, a quality, or pulling together an energetic so that it causes a recognition, or a realization, to come out.
First of all it recognizes and acknowledges that this is the characteristic, or quality, of relatability that is deemed important, and that then goes through kind of a neurosis of feeling like it is losing its connection to do that. And so it’s evaluating whether the confusion that causes this connection to be lost is related to a sense of thinking that there is something more.
So you’re trying to sort this out, and you’re trying to sort this out in relationship to how big the spaciality is of what is going on. And it’s as if determining the spaciality determines how and where you are able to be. Because first of all it starts with the underlying recognition that the quality of being able to take in, as a type of absorptive energy, that quality of being able to take in that energy, to embody a quality of an energy, the embodying of it is what causes a connective awareness to unfold, to emerge, and for there to be a type of balance.
And that you’re taking the position that that’s somehow or another in jeopardy. And you’re coming to this conclusion, assuming that something is askew based upon a lack of recognized sight. Now, what is the recognized sight? Recognized sight is that you sense and feel inside of yourself that the process that’s involved is going to continue to keep pulling out more and more and more, and that it is designed and destined to do that. And that, if interrupted, something like that, then, just never becomes known like it can become known, or transpire.
And so you’re kind of taking and asking a question, as well, in terms of that is your core understanding. And then, from that core understanding, you’re asking the question: is there something greater, or bigger? In other words, is the spaciality designed to be bigger?
And so in trying to consider whether the spaciality is meant to be bigger, you’re trying to sort through that. And the way you’re sorting through that it lacks a clarity. It lacks a clarity. It’s trying to find an acceptance by going through a reaction, that lacks clarity. It brings up a neurosis and kind of is left in a spaciality where something is bigger, but doesn’t know what to make out of that.
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