Do we consider ourselves guests, here, on planet Earth? Or do we consider ourselves guests, here, in the universe? Because the nature of a guest is to enjoy the visit as much as possible, but to not take any real responsibility for the maintenance, upkeep, or ongoing improvement of the environment they find themselves in. And, pretty much, our species thus far has adopted the attitude of a guest. But we are not guests here, we are the only ones that are capable of the refinement and improvement of everything we interact with: meaning refinement and improvement on an energetic level, not just the idea to add a new coat of paint. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: So, first of all, I describe what is going on. In my meditation dream there were brief, inflective moments of stillness from which I had a sense of incredible insightfulness. Because I am unable to hold on to the stillness, an obsessive back-and-forth quality that seeks to reach a resolution and does it kind of as you are in the environment that you’re in, predominated over my demeanor.
This loud dynamic was a try-as-I-might means to try to reach a stillness within. And thus, it was a dynamic that kept me probing about. I’m probing about by bringing in the masculine element of trying to figure out how to break the projection, the loudness of the projection, so that the other side can be seen.
So I present that as a challenge. What is going on is I am being affected by an energetic focus and attention that is seeking an outer resolution. This is a prevailing state which has a lot of inertia behind it. This is affecting the stillness I seek as a relief from reflective upheaval.
So, because I am empathic, in other words, this is almost like a condition that gets you in trouble when you’re empathic because you can sense this sort of stuff, I am impacted by this outer, raw energy loudness in the ethers. To me, this is a kind of food, in other words, when something is haywire, that haywireness can throw you around. But you come to recognize, instead of blocking it out and whatnot, that you are able to process that and bring it into a kind of better cohesion – which is the challenge, to still it – and thereby cause the reflective to see within; the outer reflective to glance within. That’s what it’s really seeking, but it’s doing it all in the noodling in the outer.
So the quickening I am taking in and having to contend with in the outer is intriguing as a challenge, but demeaning as an attitude. If you look at it as the attitude, then it’s demeaning, it pulls you down, it’s stifling. So, this is the barrier that I am not able to put to rest; in other words, I’m spinning around on it. The usual approach is an approach in which a person sees something, a haywire mannerism, and you just kind of turn your back on it, you just kind of ignore it. In this particular case, one’s not really turning their back on it because it seems there is more involved here. It’s reached a kind of crescendo, you can’t just ignore it. It has its parallels; it’s all paralleled and connected in a way.
So, consequently, I keep perpetuating variables and each variable has the illusion of getting close, but is instead a deviation and unending movement from an at-easement that I seek. This is in the etheric atmosphere and I’m choosing to bring this to a stillness.
The alternative is to block off that transmission, but I know if I do that, I seal away a deeper meaningfulness seeking to come through. The need for a peacefulness, an acceptance, and a stillness opens the window to catalytic change. That’s why you do this: opens the window to catalytic change.
So now I talk about what’s called the loudness. There is a flip side in terms of outer Kundalini raw energy, in that it needs to absolve to the quieter stillness corresponding within. That isn’t possible when an outer reflective loudness presides unremittingly.
So what I found interesting is a deep inner heartfulness for the world, and the surrounding environment, that is camouflaged by the outer nuances that predominate with an outer responsibility. And this has me thinking, when you feel it like this, I’m in a predicament.
To drop that conceptualization is to effectuate a natural shift that corresponds to an abiding sense of completeness. Probing an abiding sense of completeness is a stage; that’s a stage towards the all-pervasive stillness that is yet too much to bear for the collective conditioning that resonates in the atmosphere. I’m fortunate that I do not give up hope, and step aside, because, if I do, outer woundology nuances will predominate and that will make living here miserable. You can’t be doing that.
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