If we are in an inner stillness, there is no where else to go – we are already there. But nary a moment will go by that doesn’t pull for our attention. When it does, if we respond, we find ourselves disconnected from the stillness and having to manage ourselves in what seems like a chaotic environment. This happens over and over again, but, in time we can learn to stay in the inner stillness and also be engaged with the world. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: So, in my sleep dream, what I notice is that I am in a house, waiting and waiting, in kind of a state of suspense, because I’m being pulled by an identification that I know is upon me, in which I’m going to be leaving a more well-reasoned stillness, and going out in the field.
And so I’m not in a proper stillness because my attention is to a timing that will set in motion, then, an out-breath effect. And then the corresponding aspects that result from launching out with the thought that goes to it, that is a type of timing motion, that goes then into the opening of things up that gets into spaciousness on the in-breath, and so on.
So there is the sensation, that when you’re like this that you have, that is looking for its identification, which is the timing upon the breath. So, in the dream, as I’m waiting for the time to act, and I am in this house, absorbed by a self-imposed condition, in which I say that I have to go into the field when the timing is right. In other words, caught in this conundrum that’s a spellbound thing that I’m going to do to myself.
Suddenly the announcement comes that the pickers have arrived. What this is about – this is my cue – the pickers come, and then the pickers pick all kinds of different things out there – the vegetables. And what I need to go out there, they pick everything at once, and as soon as the announcement is given that the pickers have arrived, I need to get out there because I need the onions to start the cooking.
I have to saute the onions up and whatnot as the first step. After that is ready, then I contend with what’s next in terms of the ingredients and components, but that is another aspect in due time, that’s part of the spaciousness.
So, the meaning is, this is a dream that drills down, first of all, on the timing as an identification problem when there is a compelling need to have to do something in the outer.
The spaciousness, which involves everything else that ensues on the breath, which is the timing launching, has been initiated, it will follow, and it will be represented by the other components. But they’re not the direct issue, the issue is getting something started, and the timing to get something started, that is the out-breath first – before the in-breath part is invoked.
In other words, the other ingredient you answer on the in-breath spaciousness. But you know when you’re feeling all of this and whatnot, if you really, really do look closely at yourself, you realize there’s just a stillness: there is no in-breath or out-breath intensity and waywardness if you sit predominantly whole in the stillness.
What I am doing in my dream is feeling the heaviness of a consuming energetic noodling around as an identification barrier, that is the illusionary journey of manifestation. In other words, it’s the illusionary journey of manifestation, or the movie screen projection of things, that one goes through and tries to pretend is real – when only the stillness is real.
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