Something Evolves

It has often been described that great athletes have an ability to “slow the game down,” meaning that they are so in the flow of things that they can see more and have more time to react. In our journey, we can often feel speeded up when we are connected to higher energies, and this can disconnect us from the slow pace of mundane things: we might feel a bit more clumsy, or we forget the order of the very procedure that we do every day. That is the sign of a transition – we’re not in the higher yet, but we’re also not fully in the lower aspect either. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So if I do the dream that was kind of like yours, it goes something like this: I know that everyone is connected to all there is in their heart, but not necessarily with the same general acuity. I may be a genius in a particular way, but veiled in another. It is for this reason that we need each other, so to speak, even in a oneness. 

For example, to go home, I am unable to go to where my car is parked, nor do I know what color it is. I lack a sensation function, in the outer, that’s very developed in most people. I can see and experience occasions of vibration in a very highly developed way. But when it comes to something simple like recognizing my whereabouts in a linear setting, such as finding a car everyone knows about but me, I can be blind, so to speak, as this part of my sensation function in this area is not grabbing the attention away from this other area of vibrational acuity. 

I’m able to access vibrations in a memorable way with an acuteness in the heart that transcends the denser aspects of time and space of manifestation. However, in doing so, I lack the faculties, in many instances, to a denser time and space orientation. 

So what is going on is, in both the meditation dream and sleep dream, I am reporting upon a condition of consciousness that is speeded up from general outer conditions that are more natural to others. It is like another stream of evolution, so to speak, because I am not immersed in a denser orientation as associated with most human beings. They have found this to be more so for them, the denser orientation, and I have found this other, in terms of the heart, to be of a different significance that I put my attention to. 

And then there are other parts of the heart that I don’t, that aren’t quickened. So to put the observation into blunt terms, this is how things have evolved. This has nothing to do with anything other than that. The idea of there being entities of vibrational existence, outside of oneself, is a convenient way of playing dumb from what one has accessed, in a responsible way, in a certain modality within themselves. 

From this dream, the absurdity of deferring consciousness to spiritual elders outside of ourselves is made laughable – when you can look at something mundane like that, as if now you need the help of the spiritual elders. And, of course, I see a lot of confusion in that because oftentimes the teacher will describe it as if climbing a ladder, so to speak, where you drop one thing in order to gain access to another. You go through doors or something. 

Because, in my case, if that were true, in terms of there being something else going on, I would need the hierarchy to help me find a colored car, that everyone already knows about but me, in a common parking lot. 

So, does it work only one way? Or does it work both ways? I mean, there’s kind of a common joke, in terms of trying to portray this, that some people have a phone line that works in both directions with God. Well, when it works in both directions with God, then they can be the overallness, I suppose, too. They’re aspiring to be the perfect human being, and that perfect human being is connected to everything in life, everything vibrational in life. 

Or be more of a perfect human being, or more connected to a hierarchy? See, this is a good way of trying to… it’s a false humility is what it really is, because it either evolves like this or it doesn’t evolve like this, and we have nobody to blame, or to look to, but ourselves in terms of how something evolves. And we like to think that we are children, I guess.

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At a Limit

In relationships, sometimes we outgrow people we once were close with. In the dream world, the story of a relationship reaching an ending makes a perfect metaphor for the idea of letting go of something that has been a part of our life, but that no longer serves the current situation. This is about inner growth, and, even though it is a great accomplishment to grow, it often has some twinges of pain when the attachments are severed. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just remember my last dream. And the dream seems to be set like in a little bit of a different time period, like more like the 1950s, or something, in terms of the office furniture and everything, and the way everybody’s dressed. 

And in this, I’m married, and my husband’s a businessman and I seem to spend some time at the office. But he’s been spending a lot of time with a young woman that’s helping him with a book or something; they may even be having an affair. And I’m looking at the situation and I realize, that day, he’s going to meet with her because maybe she’s claiming a role in the book she doesn’t really have, and, if so, he may fire her, or stop working with her.

And he’s left to go have a meeting with her. When he’s left, I suddenly realize, as I look around the office that it’s almost like I’m kind of at a limit with this relationship now. If he decides he’s going to continue being with her, then I’m going to end the marriage. But I’m kind of quiet about it. I don’t even say that to anybody. 

I go home. And when I go home, and I’m kind of going around the place by myself, there seems to be this man in the background. It’s not someone I have a relationship with. He looks like an older European man, actually. But he’s staying at the house for right now. I’m going over in my mind that it feels like my husband comes by, at one point during the day, he’s talking a little bit about this book. And I realize that other people around us may or may not have scoped out the situation, or I don’t think they have. I don’t even think he realizes now that I’m at this point. But I’m just observing to see what he’s going to do now: is he going to come back? Is he going to stay out? 

And I’m looking at that I’ve made up my mind, and if he’s continuing that, that that’s no longer acceptable for me. Well, nighttime comes and he hasn’t come back. And I go and I make up my bed. My bed is almost like a couch that pulls out a little bit like a Murphy bed, it just folds down. And I have a place where I can sleep there. 

And then I notice this European man is making up a bed somewhere else in the room. But I know that I’ll sleep okay, but I know that he’s someone that, for some reason, because of what he’s gone through in the past that he can’t sleep at night, usually, he’ll just lay down. But I can’t do anything about that. I can only just handle my own situation. That was the dream. 

John: So what you’re talking about is qualities of vibrational acuity, that exist in certain aspects and ways, that is kind of interesting and unique in terms of how it is that it’s evolved. And that what you can find in one modality, you don’t necessarily find in another modality. 

I also dreamt the same thing in terms of where there is a certain kind of acuity that can be considered phenomenal. Every person has the in-breath and the out-breath, and, within that, are qualities in which something goes into a letting go that leads to a deeper stillness. And to the degree to which one comes out of a stillness, they are in some aspect of breath. 

You are everything in the heart, there isn’t something else somewhere that comes about, so to speak, from somewhere yonder and hilt hierarchy, or whatever. And what’s also interesting is how the heart can look entirely different, if it’s a heart that’s developed through the out-breath aspect. And that more of the in-breath barriers have fallen away. 

We all differ. I’m not sure quite how to say this, but we all differ in terms of how we access the heart. And just because some people have a definition of heart that’s one way, there can be other definitions of heart depending upon where and how you are correlated in terms of the breath. 

A breath yet that still is a bifurcation from God. And God, of course, is hidden in the heart, and he doesn’t exist anywhere else. He doesn’t come in from somewhere else. He’s just quickened and awakened, touched, mirrored, but he’s always within. 

So, dreaming like this, it was almost like answering a question, it was almost like you had a particular question in your dream. And your question in your dream was, why is it that certain things that you may feel you still have as a conceptualization of importance, then aren’t there, and you think they need to be there: what is wrong? Almost as if something has to be changed, or altered, or some other authority or effect needs to come in – does it work that way? And it doesn’t work that way. 

Not all things are revealed at the same time. And that oftentimes certain things are set aside for something else that develops. It doesn’t have to be that way, but it does seem to be that way, in that we are compelled to having to deal with an in-breath and an out-breath. And so we have an inclination, in terms of how we let go, and there are ways that we let go easier than others based upon the mirage that we’re hit with.

You could see how you’re vacillating inside in relationship to a sense inside of yourself of something that is highly important, yet, at the same time, you have this aspect of maybe something that isn’t as conceptually comfortable at the same time. And how do you reconcile that? Do you reconcile that? Is there something wayward there? Or is it just how something has evolved? And, in that evolving, is there anything profound about it at all? No, there really isn’t.

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An Unimaginable Depth

Going into an unimaginable depth can only be done through trust, faith, and letting go, because how else could we get there? To take the linear path, step by step, verifying all along the way the solidness of what is before us, would require that we live for centuries. No, at some point we must believe that the unknown we want to dive into will support us and guide us, and, in that belief is the action of putting aside our personal wish to control, and ceding that into the arms of the wholeness. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And then all of this gets put together in the fourth dream. So you have to incorporate all that you’ve learned in these first three, the meditation dream, and these two, to get to the fourth dream. 

And this dream starts out with me seeking help in a foreign way. By foreign, what I am working with involves a non-personal extraneous action; which means I’m apparently working with something that’s misshaped, or projective. 

When suddenly there is a shift to where the action is deemed connective to me, or personal, meaning the attention is upon what I am about in terms of an unfoldment process. In other words, that’s what I mean by personal, this is a part of a process that has me sucked into, absorbed into. 

And that is when I’m able to recognize a deeper depth. When what I was doing had an extraneous projection about it, I couldn’t get the heart into it. To be able to work with propulsion within a timelessness and spaciousness has to do with who I am. Therefore, the heart, when I am who I am, gets quickened. I’m able to let go of improper objectified perspectives, projections, there in the outer, and attune the heart to noting an unfathomable spaciousness, and unfathomable timelessness. 

And the image of this occurring is that of a round tube that is suddenly elongated in a depth that is unimaginable. In other words, first I look into this tube, and then, all of a sudden, the tube just starts elongating. You can’t see the depth that this tube just elongates to. So I have a sense that there’s a round ball, that I never see, that goes and goes and goes and goes and goes somewhere into the depths of this tube. It’s in there somewhere, that fits the tube, in it’s roundness, perfectly, and exists in an unimaginable depth within.

It seems to have its intended, all-pervasive effect, as a potential propensity scoped into this unfathomable depth within; just sucked right into this unfathomable depth within. Although there is the anticipation, which is the outer projection part of oneself where thoughts happen, although there is the anticipation of something visible possible, I’m coming to know that just perceiving the inner depth, in which everything in the outer is absorbed, is as good as it gets. Which is the same thing as saying that everything in the outer is a projection, that, in a oneness, there is the sweeping up of all projections. The round ball, that I do not see but impute to be, is my symbolic reference. I could try to create an objectified oneness. 

So, to put it all together, the scoping to an inner depth that transcends a spaciousness is the dream with the woman who is in my heart after 30 years, symbolically speaking. And the fetching of an open bottle of wine that is to be put on a tab is timelessness. And the inner suspense behind what exists in an outer observable capacity is the meditation dream. Those three come together to portray the unfathomable depths of stillness, symbolically imaged as a tube in which everything returns to the unfathomable depths of this all-absorptive whole, or tube, or innerness, or stillness.

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