A Sound from Within

Awakening can be a simple subtle shift within us, and we don’t awaken all the way, all at once. It is a gradual process that can move in small increments, or sometimes by great expansions, but only by as much as we are ready for or can handle. In this dream it is a sound that triggers the realization that there is more to the dreamer than his normal perspective. And that’s how it goes, little by little we expand ourselves into the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now, that reminds me of the second dream, because in the second dream that I had there is a corporation that I identify with whose stock is misunderstood. It seems kind of dormant and asleep; in other words, there’s just no action about it, it’s just stale. 

So as I look at the company, I’m trying to determine if there is any movement, whatsoever, for me to be able to make something out of it. And, as I look, I have a stock register that shows the trades over a sequence of time. And it has columns coming down, so I’m going back, and then this, and this, and this, and all of a sudden there is a current point in time in which I notice that there’s movement in the company.  

And I’m actually kind of surprised to see the movement, and I’m trying to determine to what degree now because in the register it says the first half and second half. So what does that mean, first half and second half? Is that a lot of movement, or a little movement, or just the start of something? 

So I study this to try to learn more about it, and determine if such activity is meaningful, or to what degree it’s meaningful. After a long history of nothing happening, whatever is going on now strikes me as something I need to catch up with, because this is an action that is still discrete, but isn’t actually below the radar screen anymore. 

And the meaning is, there is a movement from within that suggests hope, or a meaningfulness, is astir. The dream causes me to feel this as being a kind of pent-up energetic in my chest that I’m carrying in a kind of suspense. But that suspense could change; in other words, something could just break loose. 

I don’t yet know what to make out of this as I don’t have enough information to understand any parameters; just a sense that one has. In the meditation dream, I notice that I am looking at myself from a position that is removed, or I’m somehow separate from what is going on. In other words, whatever’s going on I’m separate from it – and I’m looking at myself. 

What I’m looking at is how am I going to react in the outer with regard to a projection? In looking at myself, I’m seeing myself as a projection. And what am I going to make out of this projection? In other words, I’m in the flow of the projection, it’s not like I can break the projection. And I’m just looking at this projection. 

And suddenly I hear something from another place. In other words, like something within, like a sound. And this jolts me. That is when I notice that in the outer body frame of reference, the outer of myself, which is the projective part of myself, that’s when I’m observing that that was just a projection. Until I heard that sound, I was identifying with that outer aspect. And when I heard that sound, it caused me to notice that there is a distinction of something removed from that projection.

Until I heard the sound, I believed that what I’m looking at, and what was going on in the outer, as being where I’m at. To realize that the image was but a projection, shocked me. I was caught in that hook, line, and sinker as kind of an unfoldment flow. Well I’m just amazed to see what jerked me back, because I was convinced that I was the projection. And what I notice is that – in terms of hearing this inner sound – is that it breaks me out of a kind of stupor, or trance, because I was convinced I was the image, and that that image and what was going on was what was real – and had to acted out based upon the projection. 

So by hearing an inner sound, I am noticing that this sound intervenes and interrupts the projection. So what is going on is I’m observing how I am the doer behind everything that has an actionableness about it in the outer. If I am able to stop, and let go, and take a step back into a stillness of my being, I notice that isn’t anything that’s going on, that’s just kind of a projection. 

In other words, it’s as if I have dreamt all this up. And I’m noticing that the other scenario that circumambulates is but a dream that has me, somehow or another, in its clutches. So the punchline is that in a stillness there is no projection. And when I come out of this stillness, I enter the plane of existence where projections are acted out. To act out a self-imposed projection, because I am not able to let go of an illusory sense, causes me to manufacture what isn’t real, and is out of touch with who I really am deep within. And so, I’m out of touch with who I am, where I am, and what I am.

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