The universe, and the planet, always cleans up after itself. Things may explode, but, in time, what has been becomes part of something new, by going through a black hole, or by being exposed to other inexorable laws and pressures that change its form. Our inner life is similar, in that we create inner explosions caused by our responses to experience. Eventually, we must refashion and reform these into our current self, with all the untidiness swept away. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: So the sleep dream that I had, that I can barely remember, it’ll become clear in the meditation dream what I’m talking about, but the sleep dream adds an interesting point in that there are things that we do in the outer, that if we take and let go of those properly, in other words, don’t hold on to some sort of reservation vibration, then we actually don’t have to repeat them.
But if we hold out for some sort of reservation vibration that is pent up even deeper within, then we don’t obliterate that, that quality, that trait. And that mannerism that exists deeper inside of ourselves as kind of a precursor thought vibration will have to impel itself to come more into manifestation to be lived out.
So it’s important to properly contend with things here, to properly deal with things here, or, otherwise, the pattern will have to repeat. Because the reason why something exists here, the reason why we go through something here, is because deep inside of ourselves this vibration that we’re contending with here, this projection we’re contending with here, comes from a latent pent-upism inside of ourselves that when we appear to deal with something in the outer and then notice that yet inside of ourselves at a deeper level. Because if we haven’t fully absolved the projection, then that will come back and haunt us in that it will still have a vibration there dormant from within that has come out of the stillness of that – that will then reignite as a projection into the outer in yet another way that will have to be lived out.
So that’s very interesting. So it shows how my dream was a platform upon which my sleep dream points out how it is that patterns repeat and repeat and repeat. And that even though you may have something kind of ingrained in your nature, unconsciously ingrained in your nature, in terms of something that you haven’t yet addressed, but is deep, deep inside of yourself as kind of like a dharmic unfoldment part of yourself, that can become a projection, a need to have to live out, that if what currently leaks through and comes out is in the outer that causes us to experience issues with this on the breath.
And that if we learn to let go of that, and step aside from that, because we trust in the importance and recognition of how the heart is as a proper mirror, then if you come to a first precursor thought that hasn’t yet hurt the heart because it is coming from a deeper, deeper in-depthness out of the stillness, and hasn’t yet gotten into manifestation to have to be lived out. If you haven’t properly absolved yourself from something in the outer, then, when you go back and you see the vestiges of this pent up vibration there it will have a certain kind of excitement to it in terms of how your attention tends to gravitate, then you will find yourself having to again get whiplashed by this as it feeds and comes through yet as another energetic thought vibration mixed with things in the collective, that then are bifurcated from the whole of one’s being and have to be lived out again through the whole mechanism of reconciling oneself back to the heart.
So it’s interesting that my meditation dream actually showed the yo-yo effect of how things repeat and repeat and repeat. And it dealt with, the word that I use is, subrogation. Energy is neither created nor destroyed, but you can have something built up inside of yourself that comes out, almost as if it’s caught in the synapses or molecular of your nature. However it’s there, it’s coming out of a stillness and then finds its means, so to speak, has its correspondence or something like that, in terms of trying to alter matter in the outer, and that then becomes the repetition of, and the acting out upon, a projective level that doesn’t ever go anywhere – because the heart, the whole time, always knows the true mirror of everything being in an all-encompassing essence. The heart always knows that.
So any kind of acting out, or playing out, or doing always strikes the heart – that is attentive to the big picture, the intertwinement of everything – always strikes the heart in a way in which the heart is saying, no, that doesn’t cut it. And then that can lead you to dropping something.
So that’s the cycle and the pattern: a projection comes out, we go through it, we relegate it back upon the heart, it either gets absorbed or taken completely back into the heart so that the heart let’s go and doesn’t have to suffer in terms of any grief, or impingement, or exhaustion, or anything like that because it can’t make something out of nothing. Because a projection is just a projection. And yet, the human being has, at a depth inside of themselves, something that goes all the way back then to seeing if there are some little tiny holdouts inside of yourself, where there is an initial thought or something, and the initial thought coming out of the essence has tremendous, tremendous energy behind it because it’s so close to the stillness that there is a certain excitement to wanting to somehow make something out of that.
Because, deep down, you’re trying to make something out of the stillness. You get yourself a little lost in terms of that thought actually being a deviation. And you don’t note that yet because you haven’t yet used the heart as a mirror to point out that it’s just a bifurcation; it’s just subrogating the essence energy into something that is deviant.
And if you haven’t really fully caught up with the ripples and eddies of the heart – that knows only one thing and that is the total stillness – if you haven’t caught up with it in that capacity, the total stillness, then the heart will always act as a mirror, pointing out the deviation, so that one can change, and grow, and come closer to the essence of oneness.
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