This Way or That

The human is very adaptable, for good and for ill. We can rise to a new occasion, or we can become inured to our state of affairs and begin to think it’s just normal. Part of this is a way for us to find a state of balance, but part of it is the way our memory can begin to fade the clarity of different perspectives away. Every thread we follow can take us on a path further away from where we want to be – if we don’t realize it is happening. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, this meditation dream is like a repeat meditation dream, I could swear I wrote this up once before, but I don’t think I have.

It starts off in which, to begin with, there are two ways of being. In other words, they’re kind of equal, you can go this way or that way. And they both pull your focus, but, at some point, I realize, or fairly quickly realize when I go into the outer way, which is the way that is the loudest, that the other tends to become faint, is no longer equal, it tends to be kind of dissipated.

Well, because they were fairly equal to begin with, it’s hardly noticeable, but over a course of time that changes. And I come to know the outer, and its loudness is taking and chopping off, or keeping, the subtler that is the inner need, that has a consistency to it that I somehow remember a bit about, that lies within. I have a sense of needing to go back to that, to touch that. However, in the dream, the subtler energetic effect becomes practically nonexistent when my attention turns towards a reflective outer that is louder. 

And it’s more popular, and it’s an easier orientation to maintain because there is the quality of identification that hones it into place. It is the subtler, however, that’s more inward as an orientation, that some part of me realizes is important; it can’t be lost. 

And to do more of the outer it naturally drowns out, in other words, it’s a reference that has a type of reflective attraction that occurs at the expense of the inner. In other words, if you’re not careful, that’s what happens. And so I realize, from this dream, that I don’t want to lose the subtler inner. I have to work at it to retain the awareness, inner awareness, when in the midst of abstractions.

As a frame of reference the outer is the standard default mannerism that predominates because it is louder. This outer orientation involves the out-breath; not the in-breath, the out-breath traveling away from God. It is in the out-breath that there is a greater tendency, in terms of putting one’s attention because it’s easiest to do. But upon noticing this effect, I find that I need to mirror the subtler effect. In other words, never lose that, mirror that while in the outer.

The subtler effect needs to be consistently acknowledged, within, or it will fade away. Or it will go into spiritual illusion that it somehow or another is happening when it’s not happening. Remembrance of how I really am is crucial to this process. In other words, it’s a remembrance that has to do with an attention, that has to do into an adherence, that has to do to an intertwining. 

So the meaning is, first of all, this is a type of “what’s going on?” is the dream starts out with me having what seems to be two options. And they seem to be equal. As they come more into manifestation, my remembrance of the inner orientation becomes harder and harder to remember.

I come to know that there is a consistent connection, from the inner, that I yearn to maintain, as being the important imprint reference for my beingness’ value. And this cannot go away, even if I find myself lost or drowned into the outer. 

So the deeper remembrance is, when there is the louder outer orientation I have to realize that to access a more real aliveness I need to be intertwined to a consistent inner thread, a within-ness that connects me, as a greater one being, to the essence.

The outer is an orientation to a reflective frame of reference that predominates inconsistently. When I go more into the outer, that is when I am able to notice that my heart reaches, some part of it wants to reach, back to the subtler inner connection for guidance. 

I seem to need the bifurcation, however, to appreciate the inner as a remembrance. When I go more into the outer, I’m able to denote the value of the inner essence, fortunately, but it’s faint, because it’s a subtleness that’s upon the heart. And it’s only there upon the heart when the heart is more sensitively aligned to the wholeness of life.

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A Different Key

We can be lazy sometimes: we’ll use our tried and true methods first, when we encounter something new. If they work, that’s fine, but if they don’t, then we have to expand our thinking and begin to search farther afield. This dream is a nice example of that. A different key is required to drive the vehicle of one’s life, but that doesn’t mean everything goes smoothly. Suddenly there is a canyon, exploding water, huge animals and chaos. Then, just as suddenly, there is a return to the normal scene. This shows our interior process of being out of balance. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in my second dream, I seem to have a rental car of some kind, and I’m going back to a place where I rented it to get an additional key; a different kind. So I park the car in one place on the rim of this kind of horseshoe-shaped canyon. And then I’ve walked to the area where I wanted to get the key and I go in. 

It’s a very kind of exclusive looking place, I kind of go up to the counter and I get my keys, I get this little key that almost looks like a little safety deposit box key, it’s a small little round key, and I put it on a chain. I also seem to have what looks almost like a kaleidoscope or a telescope of some kind. 

Then I go back out to go to the car. Well, instead of going back to the left to the car, I continue on to the right, thinking that that road goes there also. But because it’s a horseshoe-shaped canyon, it actually doesn’t. And when I start to go down the trail, I’m suddenly sliding and I slide way down. 

So then I look around me and I’m more like near the midway point of a deep canyon and I see that I need to get across it. So I start trying to cross it, midway up it near the rim, but I suddenly see that down below what I thought was solid ground, with maybe even some snow on it, is actually some kind of like a river and it’s breaking up, the ice is kind of exploding into the air. I even see something that looks like a prehistoric elephant coming up out of it. And other large animals suddenly running around the areas of the canyon. 

So I just realize I can’t cross there, and I can’t seem to go back up where I slid down. So I’m midway at the canyon, trying to climb up over some rocks, and I actually climb up on one ledge and a large animal of some kind comes up with me that seems kind of friendly, it’s just trying to get out from all the chaos down below. And I see that I just have to grab one more area and climb up, and suddenly I seem to have reached back to the office.

And I’ve gone into the office, and I want to show somebody something that happened, so I have what looks like either a telescope or a kaleidoscope that has the pictures in it that I want to show them, but when I go to show them, and I look through it, the pictures in it are getting smaller rather than larger the way they should when you look through it. So I picked it up and I’m trying to fiddle with it to see what the problem is. And that was when I woke up.

John: That’s a pretty varied dream, because it starts off in which you access a key but you access the key in a place which is removed, your car is disassociated from where a place is – there’s a gap, in other words, in the dream. 

And when you feel this gap, the gap feels like there’s something about it that’s too black-and-white or linear or something, that’s too set in some capacity. I mean, that’s what the dream is suggesting. And the theme in terms of the image with Ender’s thing, is that there can be a focus and attention, but does the focus and attention take in the scope of all that needs to be taken in? And, if it doesn’t, then it blows something up. 

And, in this particular case, if you’re not taking into account everything that needs to be taken into account, in other words if there’s a gap, then the gap results in all this other stuff that seems to be happening in the dream, which was kind of a repeating of the gap running its course into other things. 

That’s the sense that you’re left with in terms of a schematic, or a scenario, I guess, that one’s gone through, is that you’re left with the idea that there is disjointing that exists, some sort of disjointing that exists. And that whether you can catch up with the disjointing or not, whether you can get beyond that. Because if you can’t it has an inclination – a sense inclination – kind of blow you up. 

When you’re confronted with something like this on a spiritual path, what you’re actually portraying is something that is fighting something a little bit. And when you fight something sometimes you learn better that way – when you fight something.

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Rules of Battle

We all have unspoken rules within us. If this happens, then we do this or that. When we feel afraid, we react in this or that manner. But, like in any battle, there are rules of engagement until things start to go badly, and then, suddenly, there are no rules. Our psychologies can seem like this sometimes, even when, or especially when, we shine the light of conscious awareness upon them. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My very first dream seems to have been influenced by watching Ender’s War, because all I remember is it felt like I was in some kind of a vehicle, and I was involved in a battle. But the rules of the battle were such that we weren’t supposed to be using bombs or anything, I guess, something like that.

But, suddenly, just as I’m going along with the rules, everything just blows up. That was the whole dream. Okay, that was my first one. 

John: The theme of the dreaming last night had to do with the way something is set up as a system, as an orientation. And that if there’s something about the system or the orientation that is set, even though it may pretend not to be set, that may have psychological designs in order to make it appear to be different, or to make it appear to be as if it’s fluid, and fully accepting everything that’s unfolding. That isn’t necessarily the case, in terms of what is happening around us at this time. 

And you can see that, and you’re seeing that, by something that blows up. And it’s probably because something like this is caused when you are holding out, and onto, a particular mannerism or motif that isn’t actually properly included, or viewed as able to be included, in the way that something exists, to, so to speak, go into something in a way in which you are able to go into it in a connectiveness way that embraces the whole, you don’t then go back into any kind of bifurcation. 

But you’re doing this kind of like as a type of playing with fire or something. Well, in any event, it is working with the breath in a way, and it continues to work with the breath in a way, that places an importance upon the breath; upon maintaining something in the breath. And, thus, you have your idea of holding on to something important, as opposed to a letting go. And as he says there’s a sense of something that comes up, goes across, and comes down. 

And what I’m pointing out is that you have to maintain something. That’s what I ended up seeing, you have to maintain a consistency to something that you put your attention upon. But it’s not necessarily a bulldog approach, but you do have to maintain your attention upon it, because if you break your attention up, then you’re not connected to an intertwined whole. 

So you come into life with a deep remembrance, as opposed to necessarily a connection. In other words, there is something askew, and a part of me is just screaming at the top of my lungs about there being a type of something that isn’t being noticed, and isn’t being recognized, and isn’t being brought through in terms of a clarity. And I have been feeling something like this for quite some time, and now it is, in a way, tending to be a bit louder.

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