Everything is trying to tell us something. Are we good at translating and understanding the signals that we are constantly receiving? One of the most difficult points of clarity is in being able to know if something is an inner signal telling us that we are being resistant – and, therefore, need to let go – or if it is an external signal that is merely a part of our alert notifications so we can be conscious of what is unfolding. This skill of discernment lies in our conscious practices whereby we learn to trust our systems. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: It all has to do with, like you say, trying to access or establish something, because in the meditation dream I’m trying to establish an access, within, that carries a connection that completes.
I’m so serious in terms of trying to make this so that I carry a suspense within that pretty much holds my entire focus. Or to say this another way, it was as if I am projecting a singleness of purpose that is unwavering.
What’s going on in this dream, it’s like it’s the combination of an inner energy and an outer action; bringing something inner through that is complete and acceptable in an outer capacity way.
So what this set off to be taken on as an inner dream is the sinking, palpatory sensation in the outer flow that I am able to empath, as if there’s kind of a psychic anxiety astir. It’s an inner awareness trying to come through, and in the outer motif of things there is something astir, set astir, something jarred in some capacity.
And whatever that is a little adamant, maybe a little wayward. And so there’s an anxiety, almost a psychic anxiety. So the question has to do with, what’s haywire about it? But is there anything necessarily haywire? Maybe it just needs to find how it is meant to align itself in relationship to an overall, and maybe it hasn’t quite yet broken through. And so there is this palpatory sensation in which there can be things yet that can still act as barriers.
So I associate, then, the anxiety and such, the palpatory sensation, it’s as if it denotes something that I can’t put my finger on. So I associate this, since it has this anxiety to it and a sinking, palpatory sensation, not knowing what to make out of it I deem it a type of inner woundology, connected to whether I am entitled to a particular evolvement flow, or not, because the palpitations are a bit like heebie-jeebies.
Something about to happen, or about to come through, but hasn’t yet occurred, and yet I feel that it has to, somehow or another, be dealt with, brought through into the outer, I guess. Kind of a vibratory unfoldment is being denoted, within, in terms of trying to determine how and where it is in terms of the iffy-ness of an intertwinement. It’s an iffy-ness because in the deep, deep inner there’s a stillness, and yet there is this other.
So I offset the flickerings with a confidence of my being, that holds a focus whenever I am pulled to wonder, which means that deep down, in spite of all of this other stuff going on, I have this deep inner sensation that everything is coming across, unfolding, awakening, whatever it’s doing, as if part of a design, or part of a schematic, that’s okay. And that the palpitations about this other stuff, or aspects, or qualities that are a little bit askew.
So, in the dream, I see the establishing of an uninterrupted connection to be a sort of prime inner directive that is consuming my attention. I find myself bringing my focus to bear upon a situation in which there is an intensity, and suspense, which isn’t subsiding until an adamancy in which there is a circle-of-life connection made, or reached.
Well, it’s almost like a bifurcation. It’s like pulling something out of thin blue air. So the intensity is an aspect of unconscious guilt, almost as if it’s bookmarked in there. I mean, why would it have the palpitations if it wasn’t a type of trying to get to something that was repressed, like a guilt, and then bring it through back into a type of manifestation – that causes us to often respond in a particular way. It’s like pent up, or something repressed, like a guilt or something you couldn’t take on.
And this sort of thing, if it’s experienced as a kind of guilt, or as a kind of hiccup within, it’s going to have some sort of undermining effect to our focus. And maybe whatever this is, the intensity of it is the reason I’m able to give in to the intent so as to see a way that brings this all into an intertwined energetic circle – because I’m trying to form this energetic circle.
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